A Long and Senseless Post

Do you ever wonder what if you were a teenager and you know the things that you know now? Do I make sense to you? No? Let me just make this clear.. What if you had the chance to write your adolescent self a letter? What kind of advice are you going to tell him/her? If I could do that I think I'm going to give my 16-year old self a lot of talking to!

Dear 16-year old me,

You might be wondering who I am and why I am writing you. If I told you that I am the future you, will you freak out? Or you just might think that you are getting punked? I know you are so hard to convince so just choose whatever you want to believe. But I'm telling you again one last time I AM THE FUTURE YOU AND YOU ARE THE PAST ME, GET IT?

Anyway, let's get back to the real reason why I'm writing you, I wanted to give you some valuable advice. And please, please do everything I say. It'll help you A LOT and will make your life a lot less miserable, not that I am in a miserable place now.

1. Never ever forget to bring your credentials during your university enrollment if you don't want to hear your mom rapping the whole time. Trust me it's not a good thing. Never will be.
2. Don't let the university dictate you on what course you should take, don't take Business Economics, you won't learn a thing and you'll eventually shift to another course. Take Gen Ed instead better yet take Communication Arts you are so gonna love it.
3. Avoid a guy named Charles that you'll meet through a block mate, he's bad news for you. What the heck, go ahead... don't listen to me.. he'll be the greatest thing that will ever happen to you (that's what you'll think. But thinking about it now, not really. What was I thinking?)
4. For god sake learn how to swim! You are the only person now that doesn't know how to swim.
5. Start learning to eat veggies, you are so gonna love them that you'll be thinking on becoming a vegetarian, but you will fail. :-)
6. If you think you are having too much fun in college, don't worry about it you'll still graduate on time.

Well, I guess I've said everything I need to tell you... I'm not really sure if this is all it. But don't worry you'll get out alive and you'll get the first job that you'll apply for so I guess you'll be fine.

PS please stop wearing those baggy jeans... I hate to say this but THEY DON'T LOOK GOOD ON YOU! I don't care if their the biggest trend, you look like a string bean wearing a sack!

Love,

26-year old you.

Got Carrie-d Away Again

I've been writing a lot these days, but not here on my blog. I've been doing a lot of freelance writing. Unfortunately, my first writing gig was a disaster! They asked me to write 15 articles about this diet program and compare it with the other one and write about 10 title variations for each of the 15 articles. Normally, I don't have a problem writing about a certain topic but if you were asked to write fifteen, 1-5 articles, and about dieting?! You'll probably reach your limit and drain your brain. Not only that, after writing the articles they didn't pay me a single cent! What a sham! Good thing I found a different provider that pays well and their projects are really interesting and they only asked me to write an article for a certain topic. And I'm never been happier with all the topics he/she gave me. I still haven't figured out what's his/her gender is, and I am too embarrassed to ask.

I love doing freelance writing as it hones my writing skills, and as you all know I've been aspiring on becoming a writer. Watch out world Carrie Bradshaw in the making here! Ha!

Speaking of Carrie Bradshaw, I spent the weekend reading the Carrie Diaries and wishing that if they turned the books into movies the producer will specifically ask for me to play the young Carrie Bradshaw. I just haven't figured out how are they going to know about me. If you have any idea, anything... please let me know. I seriously need them to know about me so that my dream of becoming the young Carrie Bradshaw will not just be a dream. I am dead serious.

I also watched the premiere of Drop Dead Diva season 3, and again made me wish I'm part of that show too! I could be one of the lawyers of Harrison Parker law firm. I'll be a great and very fashionable lawyer, I'll probably topple Jane Bingum over! But I know that thought is so far out, so I'm just secretly wishing I were Kim Kasswell. I don't know but I have a soft spot for uptight, hard-hitting, alpha females. Ironic. I know. That's me.

Anyway, I have to end this entry as I don't have any idea where and when this might end.

Not as Hard as it Seems

When you are facing a problem no matter how teeny tiny it is we automatically say "Life is Hard", but it isn't always. I tell you if life is really hard you won't have time to enjoy the little things around you, you won't have time for yourself and for sure you won't be reading this post.

I'll tell you what really is HARD.

1. Taking a sleeping pill and trying to stay awake, it is just as hard as
2. Drinking Red Bull and trying to get some sleep.
3. Swallowing and sneezing at the same time (Not that I tried this before but just thinking about it I know that it'll be hard)
4. Chopping some onions without crying your eyes out. (They say there are ways to prevent eyes from tearing up while chopping. Trust me, I tried every way there is and failed every time.)
5. Doing what Heidi told Lauren on The Hills on how to get rid of hiccups "drink water upside-down with a pencil in your mouth"
6. Admitting to quoting Heidi Montag.

If you haven't experienced any of these on a daily basis yet. It's safe to assume that life is not really that hard. It may not always be M&M's and Jelly Beans or whatever it is that makes a person happy, but it is worth living.

Last Friday Night

I heard this song a few months back but it didn't strike me. Recently, I saw the music video of the song and I don't know why but the song is etched on my brain and I know for sure that it'll be there for quite some time.

This song got me thinking, not really the reflective kind of thinking as this song does not really scream reflection, if you already heard the song you know what I mean. What if I wake up on a Saturday morning and I got no recollection of whatever happened the night before? I will be damned! And the only thing that will somehow jog my memory are the pictures from the night before that somehow made their way to Facebook, twitter or wherever. And my family have those apps on their smartphones. Just like what Katy Perry said on the song "I'm screwed".

I'm sure as hell that my phone will be bombarded with text messages and missed calls from my family and I am pretty sure my mom will take the earliest flight out of our province to the metro and knock some sense to my pounding head.

It's not that I dreamed of getting really drunk. But I admit sometimes I wanted to push my alcohol limit so that I would know how would I be when I get soooo drunk. But often times I end up getting cold feet because the still sane and sober part of me rules my almost drunk brain. And I remember this one time that I pushed my limit, the day after I spent it on bed, with my pounding brain, stomach flu and the daylight was piercing my eyes. After that day I swore that I'm never drinking again. But hey, I'm not the one that keeps her new years resolution and you know what that means.

What's your Friday night story?

Dorkerella

- books -

These are some of my books, I have plenty of them. I am a self-confessed bookworm, a dorkerella if you say so. I am and will never be ashamed of being one. When I was a kid I prefer books over toys, I was such a nerd. Still am. I love reading books as they're able to take me to places I've never been and feel emotions I didn't know I am capable of feeling. I am somehow like Ron (Harry Potter), I got the emotional range of a teaspoon.

Jelly Belly for Brekky

- breakfast -

I had a really healthy breakfast today, the breakfast of the champions. Or not. But hey, I had milk so it still healthy, right? But the star of today's breakfast is the box of Jelly Belly! They're my lovelies! :-)

Hottah! Hottah!

- clouds -

Today's a very humid day, been praying for rain for the last couple of days. If only I knew how to do the rain dance I would've danced it. It's a little cloudy but it doesn't change the fact that I am melting! It's scorching hot! Still feels like summer when in fact it's supposed to be the rainy season already. We only have 2 seasons here in my country wet and dry season (3 if you count the "cold" season which is not so cold by the way). They looked like rain clouds but I think they're just pretending to be one because it didn't rain today, at all.

Spider Legs

-Hands-

I'm not being too confident here by telling you that I have pretty hands, believe me I really do. My hands are the envy of many. (Whoah! Did I really just write that?)I often get compliments because of them. Again not being over confident here. See for yourself.

OK the photo didn't really give my hands justice here as you can only see my long fingers looking like thin, spider's legs. But they're still pretty, right? :-)

Writing with a Purpose

I've spent almost my whole shift looking for online writing jobs. So far, I am so far from finding one. I didn't think that it would be this hard. I've been writing, if you consider blogging as writing then I've been writing for over 5 years now. I have no problem writing about anything, everything. Hence, the title of my blogger site Anything, Everything Under the Sun. But I admit sometimes I tend to run out of topic to blog about.

Most of the time my blog is just a word salad, I spew words and I try as I could to mix them into somewhat a decent post. My style of blogging is reflective, I blog about the things that happened, and will happen to me. I also blog about my opinions and observations regarding certain things and that includes my neighbor's cats or my trusty ballet flats. I am a shameless blogger, I blog about even my deepest, darkest secrets. When I come to think of it, they're not so deep nor dark at all but nevertheless.

I've been looking for online writing jobs not because I am jobless, which I'm not. In fact I've been working for over half a decade now. It's just that writing is one of my passions. I am into writing as much as I am into sleeping. And I need to get at least 7 hours of sleep a day, see the picture? And aside from writing being my niche, I heard that they also pay well. A little extra income won't hurt and will come a long way.

So please help me in anyway if you have any idea or a gig for me. I am more than willing.

Eh-Shoes-Me

- favorite shoes -

If I have to pretend that I'm elegant and fab, I'll show you a picture of my "favorite pair". This pair is only my second favorite because they are high heeled and as you know I have this really weak ankles. I average at least 3 ankle injuries a year, so it's really hard for me to walk in these babies for a day. And if I had to, like yesterday, I packed my flipflops with me so I can just slip into them whenever I feel that I've been tortured by my pretty shoes.

But since I try being honest here, I'm going to show you my true favorite shoes, my trusty pair of ballet flats. This pair may be the least expensive among all my shoes, in fact my flipflops are even more expensive than these super comfy flats. But I'm not the person who only wears or have favorites basing on the price alone. I pick favorites based on style and comfort. These flats are my go-to shoes, I love wearing them everyday that's why they look so worn out now.

Moi

-Self Portrait-

This was taken this afternoon before my mom, brother and I went to Sky Gardens for coffee and dinner.

30 Day Photo Fun

I want to do this photo fun thing because can I get more obvious? It would be fun! You don't need to be a photographer to do this and you can just use your crappy camera, DSLR, SLR or camera phone. Whatever works for you.What's important is you take the photos needed for the day. You may take the photo for a certain day on the day or a day before but you can't use old photos.

June 1 - Self Portrait

June 2 - Your Favorite Shoes

June 3 - Hands

June 4 - Clouds

June 5 - Breakfast Today

June 6 - Books

June 7 - High Angle

June 8 - Sunset

June 9 - Fresh Fruit

June 10 - Animal

June 11 - Silhouette

June 12 - Sun Flare

June 13 - Reminds You of Childhood

June 14 - Someone You Love

June 15 - Action

June 16 - Mason Jar/Jelly Jar

June 17 - Bokeh

June 18 - Eyes

June 19 - Summertime

June 20 - Water

June 21 - Micro (Up Close)

June 22 - Landscape

June 23 - Black and White

June 24 - Love

June 25 - Citrus

June 26 - Favorite Color

June 27 - Your Weakness

June 28 - Transportation

June 29 - Trees

June 30 - Family

13 Things I Don't Like #2

I'm only on the 2nd of the 13 things I don't like but I'm already running out of ideas. It's so hard to make a list like this when you like almost everything! At the top of my head the 2nd on my list will be....

#2 Waking up early/or before the alarm goes off

I'm definitely not a morning person! I could stay wide awake all night every night if I had to, but I just can't wake up early. It's a surprise that I still get to work on time when I'm on the morning shift. It's hard for me to wake up early as I don't like going to bed early, and I don't know how other people get by with just at least 4 hours of sleep, but I just can't. I need at least 7 hours of sleep. Also I don't like waking up before the alarm goes off. Alarm clocks were invented for a reason, right? Let them do their jobs. Like this morning I woke up at 4:23AM and my alarm's set at 4:30. 7 precious minutes of sleep just went down the drain! I ended up resetting my alarm to 4:50AM and so I had to rush my bathing and all just to get to work at 6AM.

Each night before I go to sleep I keep telling myself to literally get up when my alarm goes off to not rush, but no matter how I coach myself I just don't have the willpower.

13 Things I Don't Like

#13ThingsIHate

I saw this as a trending topic on twitter so I've decided to make my own list here on blogger. Hate is a big word so I'm going to rename my list as 13 Things That I don't Like. I'm going to write a post for each of the thirteen things that I don't like.

#1 Peanut Butter

Peanut butter may be the most favorite spread but not for me. I don't like the taste and smell of peanut butter, I know I'm weird, and I may be the only person in the world who doesn't like it but I just can't stand it. I'm sorry. Maybe something happened between me and the peanut butter in my past life so we're now destined to not like each other.

I remember when my brother and I were kids and my mom would bring out peanut butter on the table because it's my brother's favorite and the moment my mom opens the jar I will wrinkle my nose and immediately my stomach will churn and I bet you a grand that in less than a minute I will start throwing up.

You can't say that I didn't try to like it because I did, a lot of times. I wanted to be like my brother and friends that love peanut butter more than anything in the world but as you now know, I failed. Big time.

With this post you may think I'm the shallowest person on earth. You ask this lady for a list of the things she doesn't like and the first thing that comes to her mind is peanut butter. I know this isn't the kind of things you expect on top of someone's list but you must know I am me. Weird. And I deviate. Anything but ordinary.

It's Kind of a Funny/Stupid Story

I went out of the office this morning to grab some breakfast, I got myself a cream cheese bagel and a strawberry and kiwi tea. I don't know what got into me but I just spaced out while the guy was preparing my bagel. Staring at nothing. And then I noticed the guy behind the counter telling me something, I didn't really get what he was saying but I think he was trying to do some up-selling, wanting me to buy an egg pie. Since I already had my bagel I simply declined by shaking my head. And he had this confused look! That's when I realized that I was being stupid and he wasn't asking me to buy some stupid egg pies! He was telling me that my bill was eight-five! To save myself from more humiliation I told him to wait for I am still thinking of getting something else. So I ended up buying a chocolate muffin. Hahaha! Next time I need to focus when getting breakfast so I won't end up buying some more.

PS This isn't the first time that something like this happened. It already happened before, I was at the counter paying for the stuff I bought from ZARA and then I spaced out again and the lady on the counter asked me if I bought 5 items and I just nodded when in fact I only got three items: 2 tops and a pair of jeans. So I ended up paying for 2 more tops (which I didn't choose by the way, good thing they're my size).

Obsessing.

April is over but I am still not over obsessing on what or where my life should lead. I am nowhere near in getting answers to my questions. They say it's normal to feel this way when you're at this age, it's the age where you want so many things to happen. But no matter how hard you've worked for it, sometimes it just don't work out the way you've planned. I've accepted that it's normal but it just sucks. And it gets really frustrating at times.

I am not a planner but it doesn't mean that I don't have plans for my life, because I do. I just don't write it on paper or draw my own time table but I still want to accomplish some things at certain points of my life. And at this certain point, I have certain things that I wanted to accomplish but unfortunately, I am nowhere near. But it doesn't mean that I am giving up, I'll keep on trying. Because I know that I am going to regret this someday if I didn't give it more than a shot.

So I have to log off now and get back to obsessing.

Happy Birthday!

Today's my birthday and I've been looking forward to this day for months. Not because I get to have presents, but I'm actually looking forward about getting older. Don't ask me why because I'm also asking myself the same question. Believe me this is only the third time that I got really excited for my birthday, not counting of course the birthdays I had before my teenage years. Those birthday parties were tantrums induced and I was always on sugar high and was being a nosy brat.

Anyway, the first time that I got this excited for my birthday was when I turned 18. Who doesn't? Every teenager dreams of turning 18, and every eighteen year old thinks that when you're 18 you can do anything. Including but not limited to: 1) legally get drunk 2) watch R18 movies unaccompanied 3) get married but with parents' consent 5) get a driver's license 6) get a job 7) but also do time in jail if you do anything stupid or heinous as juvy is no longer for you "GROWN-UP". Sounds interesting, right?

The second time was when I turned 21. It was like graduating from being a probationary adult to a full-fledged grown-up. Being 21 is just like turning 18 but with full benefits! You can now get married without your parents' consent. Not like we planned on getting hitched before 21, but who knows right? You might be walking in the street one day and you bump into a really hot guy and for some reasons he asks you to marry him. It'll be awkward if you go on like this "yes, I'll marry you but can we please go to my parents' and ask them if they'll let me?" but if you're already 21 you can automatically say yes with an exclamation point and a smiley. Hahaha! Not so grown up if you ask me, but see my point?

Those two birthdays are like milestones, rite of passage but being at this age (I won't tell, it's for you to figure out) I can't find a reason what I'm so excited about. But who cares, I'm excited and happy that's what matters to me.

Happy birthday to me! And also to my buds Conan O'Brien and America Ferrera. *wishful thinking

PS I just came from a graveyard shift when the pic was taken and I haven't slept at all.

Baby and Friends

My closest buds here in the office are teasing me, they say that they would like to see the day when I have my first baby. 


And while watching one of my fave TV shows, their conversation kind of remind me of my office buds.


Monica: He hates me! My nephew hates me! What if my own baby hates me? What am I gonna do then?


Chandler: Monica, will you stop? This is nuts! Do you know how long it's gonna be before you actually have to deal with this problem? I mean you don't even have a boyfriend yet.


Ouch but hahaha!


Me watching Friends again. :-)

It's about time

It's not April yet but I already got my first birthday present this year! When I got home from my Cebu trip last Saturday this little canister was waiting for me, it's from my brother. When he handed me the present it was wrapped in a National Bookstore bag, and he asked me to guess and I just couldn't make out what's inside the bag. I was excited and a bit disappointed. I didn't know what to feel, I kept racking my brains of what would be a nice present from National Bookstore that isn't a book, I thought of a pencil case but it's just way too small to fit even half of a pencil. And what will I do of a pencil case if ever it was a pencil case?

I studied the canister and that's when I saw the logo.

I hurriedly opened the canister, I think I almost ripped it off because I got really excited.

It's a watch! If you've met me you'll know that I'm not a watch person, I only wore one when I was in first grade when I just learned how to tell time. I need one to show off to my friends that I am capable of telling time. And when I was in high school when Baby G was a very big hit, and you'll look like a sore looser if you don't own one.

Anyway, my brother is also the same, he don't wear a watch. But he said that it's about time that we started wearing one.

I so love it kuya! The following day I had it fitted to my wrist and started wearing it.

C for Cebu

Hey everyone, summer's here, or is it? Summer or not I already had my little summer getaway. Though it didn't turn out the way I planned but it's still so worth it. I went to Cebu last week to bring my friend's stuff, I was sort of like the FedEx guy, only I stayed a little longer, ate the recipient's food and slept on her bed for a few nights. Haha. Did I mention that she also paid for my airfare? Lucky me! But thinking about it now, and you reading further you'll know that I'm not that lucky.

Anyway, my trip started on the wrong foot. I was certain I booked a 9PM flight to Cebu, but just a few days before my trip I found out that I booked a 4AM flight. If I didn't check it when I did I could have missed my flight and just stayed home, sulking in my room for 5 days for being utterly stupid. Anyway, I got to Cebu earlier than I've planned but it's all good. I spent my first day in Cebu in bed, sleeping. The only time I got out of bed was when I had to pee and when my friend dragged me out of bed to have dinner out. The second day I went to meet my father's brother and his family, they are all so warm, I love them! I got to meet my 2 cousins again and I got to meet their youngest for the first time. My cousin and my aunt showed me around the city. 

The third day we were supposed to head to Bantayan island. But Cebu's weather wasn't so cooperative, it rained almost everyday that I was there, except for the first day when all I did was sleep. Anyway, so my beach-y plan was cancelled. But it's still ok, I had a great time with friends from home, and from college. Also I got to meet 2 new friends: Alexa a fashion blogger from Cebu and Hadie, my brother. Seriously, he's my friend's nephew but he's like my friend's son, and that same friend was and still my 'mom' from way back in college. Do I make sense to you?

If you ask me what I really did in Cebu, there're only two words: sleep and eat. It was a getaway for the lazies, hey that's me! Well, I think most of my trips are just spent sleeping in in hotels, my family and friends can attest to that.  And you don't even have to bribe them for them to spill that. That's just my kind of vacation. But sometimes I think that I'm being so overly lazy, I spend most of my weekends sleeping and when I take a break away from work, sleeping is still what I do. 

If I had to rate my Cebu trip from 1 - 5, 5 as the highest I'd give it a 5! It was perfect the way it was. And if you ask me what I like and didn't like about Cebu, I'd say it's food and food. I like the food because it's so yummy (just the thought of it makes me drool now) and very inexpensive. And it's also the thing that I don't like about Cebu, because the food is really good and inexpensive you tend to forget about your diet and just give in to your tummy's desire. And all your hard work and discipline just go down the drain. But it's all so worth it. 


I'll see you again Cebu, soon I hope.

I'll upload the pics soon, I misplaced my data cable and card reader is busted. :-)