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Happiness

I got this forwarded message from a friend this morning:

"We can be happy anytime once we understand that the only place we'll ever find genuine happiness... is right inside us. Happiness begins at the point of acceptance: the point when we stop questioning why life can't be perfect and just accept the world the way it is."

I couldn't agree more with this. It seems very simple yet very complicated. It's hard, even harder. I myself is not even sure if I'll be able to get to the point of acceptance soon. There are still lots of questions on my mind, there are so many cobwebs on my room that I can barely see the light coming in from the outside of the window. But tell you, this is an improvement because last time my room was totally dark, there's more than enough cobwebs that blocked the light that goes in through my window.

I am not in a hurry, I know in time I'll be able to clear everything. After cleaning everything I'll have my walls repainted and a total make-over for my room and it'll be as good as new.

Just want to thank all the people who's been there for me since day 1, my mom, I owe you big time. Thanks so much, really appreciate it. And thanks Ryan for the message, I miss you!

My Saturday

It's been a while since the last time I slacked off from work. So last Saturday I decided to do a little slacking, just the littlest slacking off from work. I worked just three hours and then by lunchtime I told my colleague that I would be taking half the day off from work since I've been working nonstop for 2 weeks, and when I say non-stop it means no RDs as in zero! After I went off from work, I met a friend to accompany her to the mall, then we had our late lunch out then I went straight home after. When I got home, I did a little tidying... just cleaned the major/obvious clutter. After de-cluttering I prepared my snack and got ready for a DVD marathon. I even turned off my phone so that I'll have no disturbances while I'm having my time alone. It was really fun doing those things on a Saturday instead of going shopping, which I see as a strenuous activity nowadays. Now that's weird... shopping is never strenuous, right? But trust me it's becoming strenuous and stressful when you're in the mall and drooling over so many things but you ain't got any money to spend. Now that's a headache and a heartache combined!

Anyway, I love spending days by myself. It's so quiet ad peaceful! I just love being with me! For many of you, my Saturday seemed to be uncool and boring, but I don't care 'coz all I had was fun! And nothing can beat a Saturday all by yourself cozying in your bed with nothing to worry about, even the outfit you should be wearing. And tell you, I also went down earlier than usual... I was already in dreamland at half past 9! That Saturday made me feel really better, I got enough sleep and I really felt good!

Second Most Expensive City in the World

I think I can never say "ahnnyonghaseo" this year. I've read it on Yahoo! that Seoul is the second most expensive city in the world. And that means that if I want to treat my mom for a trip to Korea I need to save more than I do. I really want to visit Korea, I want to see Jeju island, and the teddy bear museum there, I heard it is the largest (teddy bear museum) in the world. And I just love everything about Korea, hmmm maybe everything I saw on the Korean series that I've seen, I guess. Imagine how expensive is the cost of living in Seoul, living there is more expensive than living in San Francisco, LA, NYC even London or Paris! Haaayyyy... I just wish my mom or brother will bail me out in spending for the trip this year, it's my only chance to get there. But you know I would really like it and it would really mean much to me if I'll be paying for the trip because I never went to a trip that I've paid for (except for local trips/getaways which I often paid for myself but there were also times that I've asked my mom and bro for a little help). It would be an accomplishment for me being able to bring my mom to a place without her spending a cent... err she'll be spending a little too but not that much coz I want to pay for almost everything, except shopping.

I just wish that I'll be able to go to Korea if not this year... then someday... somehow....

Easily Stuffed

I am so not born for eat-all-you-can restos. Last week, my brother's friend invited me for a father's day dinner, of course that's with her dad. And you've guessed it right we went to an eat-all-you-can restaurant along West Ave. The food was so great! The only problem is that I can't eat that much... Before dinner, I already mapped out a plan which is getting only a little of every dish that I don't get to eat everyday. In fact, I went as planned but after eating only a little less than plateful I was already full. And when I say full I mean already bloated. I didn't get the chance to go back to the buffet table, it was so sad seeing all those sumptuous dish and not being able to take advantage of all the food that are being served. Sigh. My brother's friend and her cousins went to the buffet table more than thrice I think, but I only went there once. That is so sad man! And you can imagine me dragging myself to the dessert table, literally forcing to stuff some tasty desserts on my stomach. That was the first time that I didn't feel good eating desserts at all. It felt like any minute my tummy would burst open! It was really hard for me. I know what I did was sort of a gluttony but what can I do with all those tasty treats around me? And I was supposed to eat all that I can! I really don't know why I get easily stuffed these days, I used to be a monster when it comes to eating. What could have happened to me? Do you think there's something wrong with me? Anyway, after that dinner I only had one conclusion: I am not born for eat-all-you-can restos.

Trip to Baguio

Here are some pics that I have when we had this little unplanned trip to Baguio with my brother's friend. :D

Augustana in May

I'm into Augustuna these days...

I just love their music, I love the rhythm, the vocals and of course the piano! Oh I can't get enough of them!

Satur-Night-Out

Last Saturday Shein, K'Anne, Kuya Red and I agreed to have quality time together, to unwind from everything that we've been doing. Our meeting place was at NBS in Robinson's Pioneer. No one was late that afternoon, it was the first time that we were all early! Maybe it's because we were really excited to see each other because it was more than a couple of months since we've last seen each other, except for Shein and me because we work at the same place so we're like sick of our faces. Hahaha Just kidding, we'll never get tired of each other. Anyway, from Pioneer we took a cab to The Block, it was a really long cab ride, super heavy traffic jam! But it was ok with us, we have more than enough time to talk.

When we got offf at The Block, we went on finding Cerealicious. When we finally located it, we thought that it's best to have dinner first, and Cerealicious will just be a place for dessert. We searched for restaurants and we didn't expect to find Jatujak there, it is a Thai resto. We quickly decided to have our dinner there. We were really noisy, as in super kulitan! The food's great as in really great! I love the tom yum, it was sinigang-like but with a twist, it has a tangy flavor that makes it different and special, I also love the spring roll I just forgot what it's called, and the bagoong rice and pandan chicken... so yummy, and of course the Thai iced tea is the best! Our dinner was super duper extra special.... great food+great people = great time! We were almost done with our dinner so I called the waitress for bill out, so she went to our table and started clearing our table. She took my plate, then K'Anne's. Suddenly K'Anne beamed (screamed) "Hindi pa po ako tapos!", the waitress was surely shocked and we were all laughing out loud! :)) K'Anne explained that she wasn't finished yet, and added that she was saving the best (part) for last. If the waitress really took her plate, she said she would cry, as in she wasn't kidding!

After dinner we decided not to have dessert right away because we were so full. We jsut went to World of Fun at the main mall and played the piso game. We spent almost 400 pesos while playing it, and we had 846 tickets! Yey! We exchanged it for four coin purses and 5 lollipops. After WOF, we went to Cerealicious for our dessert. I had Nerd of the Rings (milkshake, mango bits, fruit loops and nerds), K'Anne had Nutting Hill (milkshake, different nuts and i forgot the kind of cereal), Shein had Apple-O 13 (milkshake,apple slices, cinammon..), and Kuya red had Mint Joe Black(milkshake, oreo, mint..) and all our cereals were topped with a scoop of ice cream.

We went to find ATM after our dessert and we were thinking about our next stop, since we didn't have an itinerary because it was a come-what-may day for us. We agreed then to go to The Loop, but instead of going there we ended up at the House of Big Brother because iwe saw a large crowd there... so we went with the flow and watched the eviction night. After some sneak peeks we went to Starbucks at ELJ bldg. to pee. Hehehe. Then went walking around the compound. We were supposed to get in at Esquinita, but changed our minds since it was already late and Shein need to attend church at 5:30AM the following day. We walked her to the bus stop and waited till she can get a ride home. When Shein went home we decided to continue the night at Off the Grill in Timog.

Kuya Red, K'Anne and I headed to Timog. There was a live band performing there and I must say their keyboardist is really hot! :blush: We ordered some onion rings, french fries, a bucket of booze for kuya Red and me and Pina colada cocktail for K'Anne. We left the place at around 3AM. We took a cab to Malabon (K'Anne's Place) pero madaya kami kasi K'Anne told us that we tell the driver that we're off to Malabon he won't take us, so we just told manong that we heading for Kalookan, pumayag naman sya. When we got in Kalookan nagdrama na kami:

Me: K'Anne super late na hatid ka nalang namin sa inyo...
Kuya Red: At antok na din ako pwede ba kami makitulog muna sa inyo sandali?
K'Anne: Ok, sge. Manong, pwede po ba diretso nalang tayo sa Malabon sa Sangandaan?

The manong can do nothing since our reason is "reasonable" enough. Hehehe

We arrived at K'Anne's at half past three, we were like sneaking in to their house.We don't want to wake her parents up so that they won't know that we got there late... uhmm i mean early in the morning already. We slept at their sala kasi ginagawa ang kwarto ni K'Anne. When we lay down, kuya Red went straight to dreamland but K'Anne and I talked till 5AM. We woke up at 6AM, but K'Anne told us that we should just sleep and leave after breakfast so that she can introduced us to her parents and it won't seem like snucking in and out of their house.

When we woke up at 7AM, K'Anne prepared breakfast for us. para kaming konsensya nya kasi buntot kami ng buntot kahit saan man sya magpunta, takot kami na i-interrogate ng parents nya! Hahaha! Buti nalang at ok naman yung parents nya. After we had our breakfast, uwian na kami ni Kuya Red, hinatid kami ni K'Anne hanggang sakayan. At muntik pa kami maligaw kasi nakalimutan ni kuya Red yung daan! hehehehe Pero buti nalang nakarating naman kami sa mga bahay namin ng walang masamang nangyari.

Sistahs and brotha thanks for our Saturnight out... "Sana maulit muli"... kailan pa kaya ulit? After na siguro ng exams ni K'Anne.

More pics on my multiply.

Loose Ends. Tied

Wednesday last week I got a call from my sister(half) inviting us (me and my brother) to our dad's birthday celebration (Saturday). I didn't really say yes, I just told her that we will try because I have work. Truth is I don't get to work on Saturdays, it was plain cold feet, and besides I need to consult my brother about it because we are both invited and that means we both need to decide about the matter.

Saturday, we both woke up late and when I say late its really late like 2 in the afternoon! We didn't hurry, we took all the time we can get because until that day we were not sure yet and we were both still convincing ourselves that we are doing the right thing. We rode the bus to Don Antonio's in Commonwealth, then we bought a cake and then took a cab ride to our dad's house. We didn't went straight to their house, we got off at their pharmacy and saw our stepmom there. We exchanged 'hellos' and then we went to their house. Our dad's not there yet, he went to the supermarket for some last minute shopping. We saw our little siblings there, they are both taller than before, they have grown so fast! At first our youngest was aloof but later he was already comfortable around us just like before.

When we heard the honking of horns on the gates we knew that my dad had arrived so we readied ourselves. When he came in kuya saw him first and greeted him, then i followed the gesture. Our dad hugged us both and I saw a couple of tears dropped from his eyes. And he asked us why didn't we visit them for a long time. We just let the question pass as if we didn't hear him asked, and he was too overwhelmed by our presence.

The birthday dinner went well. The food was great as expected, of course dad cooked it. Then we had rounds of tequilla with my dad, kuya, and our househelps (ang aming parating kainuman sa bahay na yun!) The drinking spree ended at around 10 in the evening. They also invited us to go swimming the following day at 9 waves in San Mateo, since we don't have anything to do we agreed to go with them. Then we went home, we took the bus and guess what? I puked on the bus a couple of times! I didn't notice that I had more than enough alcohol in my system that night. Gosh! I was wasted and I say really wasted. When we got home, I rushed to our floor because I felt like throwing up again but I was just on the second floor when I started barfing, I rushed to the nearest toilet to let it all out. My bro was laughing like a fool at me, and he was singing "for the first time....", because it was my first time to be that wasted. I was throwing up that night like every three hours, and my head was like spinning around.

I woke up at around 7AM the following day with headache and dysmenorrhea. Kuya prepared breakfast, but I didn't feel like eating. I just ate bread and a banana but not long after I started throwing up again. I already sent an SMS to my dad telling him that we can't go with them because of my situation, but my dad and sister can't take no for an answer so I didn't have a choice.

We went swimming with them, I had a great time though I had my dysmenorrhea. After swimming we went to dad's house again and had dinner there and after that we went to Baywalk. I really had a great time. And it really felt good having tied all loosed ends.

My 21st is Dunzo

As what the title of this post says, my 21st is finally dunzo. It's official. I am now on my 22nd year on this planet, but as always I don't really feel that I am again a year older. Feels like nothing :p. I am not asking or hoping for any present this year, just being with friends and people that matters to me is all that matters. Oops, did I just say that I'm not asking? Yeah, I did but if you have something for me it's ok, I mean very ok. I only have one wish for my birthday this year is for my daddy(my lolo) to have better health and a longer life.

For two consecutive years, I've been welcoming my birthday by being over 24-hours awake. It's like beginning to be a birthday tradition for me. I am sleepless on my birthdays! I haven't slept for more than an hour since Monday afternoon. Fortunately, I still have the energy to type some stuff here, but I really don't think about what I type. I just type everything that comes to my floating mind.:p This is like a floating birthday post. I know I am getting nowhere, so I better stop this. Anyway, for those who greeted me thank you and for those who haven't... you still have 23 hours to greet me. I'll be waiting...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm Back!

It's been three days since I sailed in here. My supposedly 10-days off was extended due to some reasons, also because of the holy week. Yeah, we had3 non-working days last week! And it's really great because it's the first time that we took off from work during the lent season.

My vacation was great, I met new friends while aboard the boat bound home, met my family and friends again. I had a great time in Margos. I don't want to write here all the things that I did because I could go on for days with my list. Just to sum everything that I/we did = Fun!

It's just 6 days before my birthday, I don't wish for material things anymore. I just want my dad(my grandfather) to have a longer life and great time on his birthday too.

Here are some pictures of my family:

One of the Longest Days

I can say that today is one of the longest days of my life. First, I went to work, after work this morning I went home, then me and my brother went shopping for stuff as 'pasalubong' for our family back in the province. I can say that it was like my first dreadful shopping experience. We've been literally running around, going up and down the stairs, went to three malls and stopped by at almost every shop we could see. I never thought that shopping would be this dreadful. I felt like the veins of my legs will explode any minute because of the walking/running we made. We didn't even have the chance to rest for even a while. We were so out of time, I need to be home by 6 since Sheina and I planned to watch a movie in our place and have dinner there too. Luckily before my veins thought about exploding we were able to buy everyone's 'pasalubong' and at long last, after fifty golden years we were finally heading home! What a relief!

When we got home my brother started unpacking our shopping bags and was like sorting it. I didn't feel like helping out, I was too exhausted to even lift a finger. I flopped down on my bed and was able to take a nap for about 10 minutes when my brother started screaming (well, it was like talking but just louder than the usual) that Sheina's already waiting for me at the place where I'm going to meet her. I quickly woke up and checked my phone but to my dismay it was just one of his pranks. I didn't react to his little prank, which is kinda surprising of me maybe because I was really too tired to argue. After twenty minutes or so I decided to go to to the place where Sheina and I agreed to meet. She was already there when I got there. After that we went to buy dinner since my cook (my brother) is exhausted too. After that we went to our place, we watched The Lake House, had dinner with occasional chats, then went back watching the movie. When the movie ended we decided to watch something else to pass the time and Sheina suggested that we watch The Hills season 2 episodes 1-10, but we didn't really finished watching the 10 episodes because it was getting a little late and Sheina needs to be home before 11 because she still have work later at 5:30AM. And after she left I went rummaging my closet and decide on what stuff I'm going to bring in going home.

I just finished sorting out my clothes but still not decided on what to bring, I still need to have an elimination round later I think... But before I do so, I decided on blogging first.:p I just want to blab about what happened today and I can't seem to ward off the travel bug in me. I AM JUST SO EXCITED ABOUT GOING HOME AND NOT TAKING THE PLANE after a half a decade. It is just less than 24 hours before we board the ship, the ship's ETD is 8:45PM that means we need to be there on or before 7:00PM and that's only 18 hours and a half! I am so so excited to meet everyone back there.

I am kinda sleepy now, I've been awake for 28 hours and a half, I better be doing the elimination round of the stuff I'm going to bring with me on the trip home later. Good night everyone err good morning! :p Wish us a safe trip tomorrow. Ciao.

Sarcastic. Not!

One more night and work will be over for me for this month and a couple of nights more before I can officially say "I'm home!". But until now we haven't decided yet whether we'll take the plane or boat, and that means we don't have our tickets yet. My brother and I have been thinking about riding a boat since it was half a decade ago since we had our last ride. We inquired for the fare, sadly the boat fare is even more expensive than the air fare, and to think riding a boat will take as three days and two nights before we reach our destination and plane ride will only take us a couple of hours max. So, as you see... maybe we'll just forget about the boat ride coz taking the plane is less expensive and of course faster. Sigh. Anyway, whatever will be decided will be fine for me as long as we can get home. I am so, so excited!

Anyway, my brother just got back from their Puerto Galera trip, which I wasn't able to go because of my work. How sad is that? So I was home alone Sunday and Monday. I haven't seen my brother since he got back but we already talked on the phone and he told me interesting things they did (sarcasm here) while they were in Puerto. I really wanted to go there again since my little Puerto adventure last year. And for a little consolation my brother bought me a shirt. Of course he did not do it in his own will, I forced him to buy me one. I just wish I was able to go with them, for sure it's a lot of fun and it will be very far better than last year.

Enough of this Kristina, 'have no time for regrets' remember? I'm quite excited to go home today though to see the shirt my brother bought me and of course to see him too and hear more of their story and see their pictures too. I swear no more sarcasm in here... ^__^

Another thing to be excited about is... The Hills Season 2's 10th Episode! Yay! And basing on the teaser it will be a great episode with lots of dramas... And Jenn Bunney and Brody Jenner will be there too! The nerve of those two! Well... let's just see what happens on Lauren's birthday.

Coffee Break

This morning Sheina and I planned on having a 'Tin and Shein's Day', we planned on having a movie marathon at my place, have dinner there and do some spontaneous bumming all afternoon. All were set. When I got home, I received an SMS from Sheina before reading her message I got this thought at the back of my head that maybe something came up and we won't be able to pursue with our plan. And I was right! She wrote in her message that we won't be able to do things as planned because Kuya Rod, our other dialer admin can't make it to work and Sheina needs to take over for his shift. Sigh. We were already excited and all of of a sudden somebody jinxed it! Arghhhh.... Grrrrr!!!! Anyway, so much of that, I just hope Kuya Rod's reason is 'reasonable' enough to ruin our day. Heheheh.

I watched Its a Boy/Girl Thing this morning its a cute movie. Full of funny and hilarious scenes! Cute couple too. By the way have you imagined yourself stuck in a guy's body or if you're a guy, the other way around? I just did. But I can hardly imagine how will I put up with it, like me (in a guy's body) drooling over a guy. People will think that I'm a fag! I'm ok with the clothes but I still love seeing myself in a girl's clothing. Though there are pros too being in this situation like being able to use the guy's locker room and bath (can you imagine the whole scenery in there?:p), being able to talk to them and all. But still those won't convince me... I'm a girl and will always be one. Oh crap, enough of this switching bodies thought. I'm not making sense anymore.

Ei, people out there if you are one of those coffeeholics (is there such a word?) drop by at any Starbucks nearest to you later at around 10AM-12NN, they're giving out free 12 oz coffee for their 'Coffee Break'. I would love to have a free coffee later but I can't stay that long, I need to sleep because I still have work come night time. Waaaaahhhhh another reason to cry. And because of that I'm planning to write to Starbucks.

"Dear Starbucks,I so HATE you!!!LOVE,Tin" ----Hahaha (I know I've earned 3-corny-points for this)

To all of us who can't make it to Starbucks' coffee break tomorrow, boohooo! Sorry, we still have next year... plan ahead, make sure you're free for the coffee break next year! And to all the others who can, boohoo to you too! May you be caffeine-overdosed. Hahahaha. Am I being mean or what? Just kidding though! May you all have a good time!

Thinking Way Too Hard

Hi Everyone! I know it's been ages since I last updated this little 'blogspot', its just that my hands were tied-up for the past weeks. I've been busy with... actually I don't know what I've been busy about. :p Hahaha I just remember something, there was this call that I got. It was from a girl telemarketer, she asked me if I am a citibank credit card holder and I said yes and she went on with her spiel, trying to sell something. I cut her off without being rude before she'll get me into buying a cellphone with vacuum cleaner and told her "Miss I know that you are only doing your job, but I should say that I don't really have time, my hands are quite tied-up today" and guess what she said? "Maam, ano po ba nangyari sa hands n'yo?" She really made my day, because of her comment I was laughing so hard, and I was able to wear a smile the entire day despite my toxic work.

Anyway, nothing much happened to me. Just the usual work-home routine. I wasn't able to go out with friends nor go malling or just anywhere, I was like possessed by my room, I don't feel like leaving it, aside from going to work of course, which is mandatory. And speaking of work, every thing's fine. I wasn't able to leave the company I've been working for for the past year and a half. I'm thinking about a career shift but seriously I still don't know what 'path' I'm going to take. Last week I asked my brother if he came to the point where he knows what he wants to do for the rest of his life, because I'm way far that stage. And he said that I don't need to worry 'coz I'm not the only person who feels that way, he shares the same sentiments and maybe there are lots of others out there too. He's been working for about five years now, he's been switching jobs, but he's still not sure of what he really wants to do for the rest of his life. I've been through three different jobs (same company) but none of those made me feel that I want to do that certain job for the rest of my life.

Though I don't want to pressure myself, but I can't help but think about it most of the time. Do you think I was just trying so hard? You can't blame me, its plain and simple I don't want to end up miserable doing things that are not really the things I want to do and regretting things I should have done. God I'm only (turning) 22 but I've been thinking a lot! I'm not really a planner but that thought really hit me big time. And makes me want to plan the future ahead. I'm planning on going back to school and study something different and I mean way far different from IT. I'm considering art, but what kind of art? Music? Fashion design? Fine arts? The heck, no one told me that planning the future could be this hard. Hmnn... but I think music should be taken off the list, so that left me with two choices. I must say I really need a break to think about stuff. I'm planning on taking off from work last week of this month... Its sort of getting away and thinking kind of thing for me. Because when I'm just around work, my thinking doesn't make sense sometimes, unfair, and biased.

Anyway, I'll be working 10 nights straight then I'm off to my much awaited vacay! Hope you guys have a great summer. And its almost my birthday don't forget to send me your your gifts! :p I just love presents!

Oh, I almost forgot I want to greet 'my friend' a happy birthday. I won't name names because he might make a big deal out of this greeting. CLUE: He's one of those unrequited love that I had experienced, and his birthday is sometime this week? :p

Way Back Into Love

My current LSS...
I love this song, and the movie as well...

Way Back Into Love (demo version)
by Hugh Grant and Drew Barrymore


Way Back Into Love
by Hugh Grant and Haley Bennet

I’ve been living with a shadow overhead
I’ve been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I’ve been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can’t seem to move on

I’ve been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I’ve been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can’t make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I’ve been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I’ve been searching but I just don’t see the signs
I know that it’s out there
There’s got to be something for my soul somewhere
I’ve been looking for someone to shed some light
Not just somebody just to get me throught the night
I could use some direction
And I’m open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can’t make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I’m hoping you’ll be there for me in the end
There are moments when I don’t know if it’s real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can’t make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I’m hoping you’ll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I’ll be there for you in the end

Boyfriends and Bestfriends

I just watched the latest episode of The Hills and I can't help myself not to make an entry about it. I can relate to it. Last week it was about team The Hills girls versus team Spencer. And now it's a match between Heidi and Spencer versus Lauren. I was ok with the idea of Heidi and Spencer getting back in each other's arms, though Spencer is not really the kind of guy I would like to go out with. He's some kind of a jerk. But if Heidi's happy with him then let her be, but I also want Heidi to understand Lauren, and listen to what she says about them being together and about Spencer being the cheater that he is. It's like their friendship is at stake with Heidi dating douchebag Spencer.

It's so sad when you know that your bestfriend's boyfriend is cheating on her and you tell her about it and she doesn't believe you. And sometimes she even take it against you. I've been in that kind of drama. And my friend thinks that I don't understand her and doesn't want to see her happy. And her boyfriend also constantly telling my bestfriend that I was just making up stories to ruin their relationship, and that I'm not being a true friend to my bestfriend. He even told her that I was just jealous of them because they were happy and thinks that I envy her because I just broke up with my cheating boyfriend that time. It is really disappointing to know that my bestfriend doesn't believe me and have chosen her cheating boyfriend over me when the whole world is telling her that her boyfriend is a jerk, nah its too harsh, ok a player. I was upset because I don't want to see her making the same mistakes that I did. I know what and how it feels like being cheated and being manipulated. And I really don't want our friendship to end because of a guy who's not even worth a cent. We've been there for each other for almost forever and in just a snap her boyfriend would take that away. We almost outgrown each other, but after some time my bestfriend woke up and realize that her boyfriend isn't worth our friendship. I was glad that she finally saw the light, but I was also sad because she have to learn it the hard way, even harder. When we fixed things up, she asked me "what was I thinking? I believed my boyfriend for three months over my bestfriend for forever!". I told her that was just a bump in our friendship, to test each other's trust. And now we're still bestfriends, though we don't see each other on a daily basis but we know in our hearts that we are friends and no one can tear us apart, even boyfriends!

I also bumped into a video in dailymotion, Tyra Banks Show and the guests were the The Hills Girls. Here it is...

the hills - the tyra banks show.

It's Getting Better

It's getting better each day, and I'm getting better with this too. Night shifts and no RDs are fine for me now, it's like I'm getting used to it. It's like a new habit for me, and I'm really getting better. I'm quite surprised because I don't whine about this kind of stuff now. I have accepted this lifestyle with arms wide open, I've learned to embrace it. Sleeping at daytime for me now is not a big deal anymore, I even have longer sleeping hours and I get to do the things I always wanted to do these past months. And no RDs? That's perfectly fine for me... I don't have enough time to be just bumming around, or just idling. And I don't get to think about anything. I'm living every single moment of my life now. I now focus on today and tomorrow and I no longer linger on the past. For quite sometime, I can say that I changed the way I lived my life. This is so great for me. And night shifts and no RDs for me makes time flies so quickly. And with this kind of life, I'm beginning to have a better perspective and appreciate simple things and joys of each day. I'm wondering why I wasn't able to see clearly before, my life was blurry. I am really thankful for this.

And I'm also considering patching some things up with my dad... My step sister sent me a message the other day, wanting me and my brother to visit them in Fairview. I almost said yes, but on second thought.. I think I'm not yet ready. Is there really a 'not ready' in patching up differences in one's family? Don't get me wrong but I don't think I can handle more drama and stress in my life now. Though I miss them a lot, my father and his cooking, my step siblings and the house helps there.

I don't want to hurry things... I want it to go slowly but surely. ..

The Week Never Ends For Me

I've been working for two weeks now, night shift, no RDs, and also my 4th night of working alone. Which means, I have my own time, I do everything my way, also I'll be the sole person to blame when something/everything goes wrong. Good thing, good luck's been with me. I'm not really complaining about this... In fact, I see it now as a blessing in disguise.. I'll earn more because of the night differential and RDOT! Yey! Can't wait till it's pay day! And also I'll get all the reason in this world to take a break from work next week, since I've been working non-stop! I'm also thankful for these RDOTs because I was able to watch all the Heroes episodes that I missed, and I was also able to watch Smallville's most recent episode. I'm excited on both series' upcoming episodes.

I am also excited 'coz Bridge to Terabithia will be showing soon, on the 21st to be exact. And we have plans of watching that movie on the first day of showing. Though I always tell myself not to be very excited about it because the movie might disappoint me. Because most books that I've read that were filmed were not that good. Maybe I expected to much, but I also understand that not every part of the book will be captured on film because the film will only run for about a couple of hours and they won't be able to put every single detail on it. But I'm still hoping that they will make a good film, that's worth the penny I'm going to pay to watch it.

Anyway, I'm going back to work.. Monitoring the dialer, YM, listening to music, reading an e-book and etc... That's work for me! :p

I'll leave you with one of the lines from Bridge to Terabithia, "Close your eyes, but keep your mind wide open". Hope you had a good weekend everyone! I didn't have a good one, simply because I never had a weekend. The week never ends for me, busy bee! :p

Merci... Gracias... Salamat... Thank You...

This entry is about the things that makes me feel alive. I feel so happy and grateful for everything that happened, is happening and will happen in my life. I have a good job, but I'll also have a great job after I quit my current job. :p I have great friends around me. I know I can call on them anytime that I need them, and I also get to hang out with them as often as I want/can. I feel so blessed for having a great family too! They were and will always be there for me. They share my ups and downs. They laugh when I laugh and they also cry when I feel bad. They all share my sentiments.

I know all people are thankful for those three that I've mentioned, but now I'll be thanking some things that we thought that are "just things" in our house, we see them plainly, but as plain as they may seem to you these things make my day and define the way I live my life.

I am also grateful for all the things that I have, I feel like I deserve them all, not only that I worked hard to earn or have them, but those things also makes me happy. I am thankful for my bed 'coz even I sleep at daytime I still feel comfortable lying on it, also special thanks to my soft pillows and my warm blanket. They all make my sleeping time special. I am thankful for our little idiot box at home, that little thing accompanies me when I'm home alone and bored. My dear laptop, who puts up with me the whole night when sleep refuses to visit me. And for my mobile phone who always helps me to get connected with the people I care about. I am also thankful for my piled up laundry, because that means I have enough clothes to wear. I am also thankful for my books they bring me to places that I have never been and they let me meet people that I never imagined meeting in the real world. They made me feel the things that I never felt in my entire life, and also made me feel how it feels like being in other people's shoes. For my COSMO magazines, that keeps me updated on everything that's happening and for keeping me motivated in everything that I do, and the best part of that is making me feel how fun it is being a girl... Oops, I think that's the slogan of Kamiseta.... Anyway, also a shout out to my alarm clock that goes off that means that I'm still alive and will be able to get up, get dress and go to work. And for my pen and paper that doesn't complain when sometimes all I do is just scribble on them. And for my paintbrushes and water colors that are even harder than a rock now... they remind me that I know how to appreciate things and is capable of painting them on a piece of canvass.

There are a lot of things that I am thankful for... for the MTV's The Hills, for Lauren and the girls for living up my Hollywood dream, which I came to finally accept that it will forever be a dream. For the 'The OC' people, for Smallville who gives me the illusion that super heroes exist. For the charmed ones, they made me realize that not all witches are bad.. In fact, I sometimes dream of being one of them. Oh my... I didn't realize that there so many things that I should be thankful for... If I'll go on I think it'll take me days to enumerate all the things that I'm thankful for. How about you? What are the things that you are grateful of?