Day 13 - Little Thankies

1. Waking up late.
2. Problem solved! ☺

Day 12 - Little Thankies
Ferbuary 15

1. Waking up late!
2. Yummy lunch.
3. Sleeping in on a lazy Sunday.
4. Sleeping late.
   

Day 11 - Little Thankies
February 14, 2009

1. Last work day of the week!
2. Call from mom.
   
3. Finally our appointment at PAG-IBIG is done!
4. Valentine goodies from the management.
5. Sleeping late!
   

30 Random Facts About Me!

OK, so I've done this post before. But I am tagged again so that means I have to DO IT AGAIN. Please stop tagging me people, I might not be able to leave some mystery to the netizens anymore.

So here goes my list and this was my list a couple of years ago...

1. I love Amy Tan and Paulo Coelho so much.
2. I hate wearing sky high heels but most of my shoe collection is consisting of those. (How ironic is that? What can I do I love Carrie Bradshaw!)
3. I love watching cartoons and other tweens' show. (I am very young at heart)
4. I eat more veggies now than I used to.
5. I still paint and do some sketches every once in a while.
6. I still hate boy bands.
7. I love Stella McCartney, Marc Jacobs, Balenciaga and Vivienne Westwood's designs.
8. I watch too much TV, be it news or just another TV junk.
9. I read Cosmo and RDAsia every month. Also US InStyle and Vogue.
10. I love dressing up.
    
11. I still prefer sleeping over eating.
12. I get off a couple of blocks before our building when commuting so I can do a little walking.
13. I'm not really a drinker but when I do I prefer Cosmo and Margaritas.
14. I love Greek, Italian, American and Filipino dishes.
15. I always dream of meeting Jim Sturgess in person after watching him in Across the Universe. As well as Cameron Diaz, Kate Hudson and Julia Roberts.
16. Augustana, Bowling For Soup and Switchfoot are my fave bands.
    
17. I love reality TV. Stylista, Make me a Supermodel, ANTM, and Amazing Race. And other "reality" TV shows, The Hills, The City, Newport Harbor.
18. I daydream about being friends with some Hollywood celebrities and these amazing fashion designers.
19. I also daydream of writing this incredible script for a movie in Hollywood, and being one of the most sought after fashion designer. (My god, I live in a bubble!)
20. I tried Pilates, but I'm too lazy to continue the course.
21. I still have my baby pillow till now, can't sleep without it. I carry it in my luggage whenever I travel. Can this be our little secret please? ☺
22. I love going to the Salcedo Park weekend market.
23. My all time favorite song is You're So Vain by Carly Simon, I can sing and dance with it! "♪♪you walked in to a party like you were walking unto a yacht...♪♪"
24. I love reading and writing. I got bunch of books and lots of my "paper works".
    
25. I wrote a novel and the only person who read it is my bestfriend. I also wrote a TV script for Charmed when I was in HS (my friends and I were a fan), and a lot of short stories I published on the web and the greatest of them all is the short story that got published in RDAsia (My Story section)! I'll post it soon, I promised. I am just so excited now I can't stop thinking about it when they told me.
26. I used to dance during my grade and high school years.
27. I never been to a prom.
28. Everybody loves PBJ (Peanut Butter and Jelly) sandwich but I can't take it. I hate peanut butter.
29. I prefer sleeping in than partying out.
30. I only cut class once during my entire HS years.
    

Day 10 - Little Thankies

1. I tripped and ruined my shoe, good thing Donald, my officemate helped me fixed it. ☺
2. My (personal) errand today was completed.
   
3. Before I completely ruined my shoe, my cousin picked me up and brought me my filpflops.
4. Hot coffee bun greeted me when I came home.
5. Talked to my HS friend.
   

Day 9 - Little Thankies

1. Feeling good and psyched.
2. Short waiting line at KFC during lunch time.
3. Taylor Swift Fearless album.
   

Day 8 - Little Thankies
February 11, 2009

1. Getting the hang of waking up early.
2. Yummy breakfast
   
3. A happy lunch with 2 of my officemates, just like the good old times.
4. Potato salad and grilled chicken from World of Chicken
   

Day 7 - Little Thankies

1. Nutella sandwich for breakfast.
2. Morning breeze.
3. I woke up early for my first day on morning shift.
4. Patience towards effing clients.
5. Great day at work.
   

Day 6 - Little Thankies

1. Got home safely.
2. New schedule. (i don't know if I'm gonna like it, but at least it's a change)
3. SATC movie (I'm really a fan, watched it more than once actually)
   

Day 5 - Little Thankies

1. A very sound sleep.
2. Very nice weather (for sleeping)
3. So early for work.
4. A nice chat with officemates.
5. Bowling For Soup! Still the best!
   

Day 4 - Little Thankies

1. Waking up late
   
2. My favorite dish for lunch
3. SATC DVD
4. Carrie Bradshaw
   

Day 4 - Little Thankies
February 6, 2009

1. Still no work tonight
2. still looking forward to a good night sleep
3. SATC DVD!
   

Day 3 - Little Thankies
February 5, 2009

1. No work tonight!
2. Pay day!
   
3. Nutella sandwich
4. Looking forward to a good night sleep
   

Day 2 - Little Thankies

1. A sumptuous lunch.
2. Arrived at work on time (I woke up later than usual today)
3. David Lanz' (instrumental) music, which is good for *Pranayama.
4. Sheila's tips on yoga.
5. Van Houten chocolates after dinner.

*Yoga breathing, or Pranayama, is the science of breath control

Day 1 - Little Thankies

I've been planning on making a little list each day of the things that I am thankful for each day, I had the idea when I watched The Secret which was a couple of years ago. Then earlier today when I was doing my usual rounds of blog hopping, I noticed that one of the blogs that I've been following and haven't checked for about two weeks is making her "little graces" list each day, and with that I was inspired to start my own!

Day 1 - Little Thankies

1. Spam! I don't know what's with Spam but I really love it.
2. A gigantic jar of Nutella.
3. August Rush ( I watched it again, really love the music)
4. Ballet flats (I've been wearing stilettos for work for a week but today I chose flats)
5. Leo Tolstoy's Anna Karenina (still reading it)
6. Being able to watch 7 Pounds while at work. :)

So there goes my first day list, I am hoping I could kick this up for a month or forever!

Messed Up

I want to do many things this year, something that I haven't done in my entire life. Say bungee jumping, sky diving, whitewater rafting and the likes. For some who don't know me that much and have only seen me once or twice you'll never imagine that I'm that kind of person. Everyone's perception of me is that I'm the biggest dork they've ever seen! I don't look sporty nor dress up like one. I'm just your typical dorkerella, but deep inside me is an adventurer, a risk-taker (as long as the risk is not that much because I still believe in Spice Girls' "too much of something is bad enough"). But there are also some stuff I want to do that doesn't involve me breaking every bone in my body or drowning. I want to go and see the world. Meet people of different races, and try to live their life (way of living) for a while. I want to do so many things this year!

For starters, I want to read more books than last year. And so far I've read Amy Tan's Saving Fish from Drowning, reread Paulo's The Alchemist (I thought it was timely for the start of the year) and I'm starting to read another one, Leo Tolstoy's Anna Karenina. And I got a lot of books lined up for the upcoming months. The down part is, when I'm at home I don't get to read anything aside from my monthly subscriptions of Cosmo, RDAsia, and other mags that have my favorite stars on the cover. And mind you, reading these mags is a challenge to me already because there's just so much to do at home like keeping my closet tidy, doing the laundry (yes i do that on my own now to save some cash), drawing/sketching, watching movies (which I've been doing lately, averaging 2 movies a day) and of course the most important thing *drum roll* sleeping! So it's really tough to keep up with the things-i-wanna-do thingy.

And just like now, I've planned to continue reading the book but the computer and internet tandem is really a temptress! So now I ended up closing the book and blog! And speaking of blog I also want to change my blog's look but I just don't have the time now to make a new header. Sigh. I am pretty messed up. I need time-management tips (and can you also toss some financial management tips on the side?) pronto!

Since I'm pretty messed up... let's make this entry messed up too. And here's a segue to the Shopaholic series by Sophie Kinsella, they have a film version of it and will be realeased next month. I am not really excited about this movie because they made Becky Bloomwood all-American! She can't be! The Becky Bloomwood I know is bloody BRITISH as well as Luke and she shops at Harrod's not Barney's (not until she went to NYC)! I just can't get over it, Becky is supposed to be in London because New York is Lizzie Nichol's! Whatever !I'm still watching it! Just want to have a few good laughs. I miss watching chick flicks these days.

Speaking of chick flicks, I finally picked my favorite stars. It's a triple tie! Julia Roberts, Cameron Diaz and Kate Hudson. I figured they are my favorite because during my christmas vacay most of my days were spent watching every movies of these three ladies. I really, really want to be friends with them! I'm pretty messed up like that! Hahaha! And they're not just funny on movies, even in real life. You should watch Cam and Kate's tv show guestings, really funny!

Ok enough of this crap. I promise I'll post something better than this next time. Ok I take that back, I won't promise, I'll just try. Ciao!

New Year Update

It's been a year since the last time I was here. Yeah, it's already 2009 so there. I wouldn't dish about how I spent the holidays because I can't really remember all the details because I was either asleep or drunk! Just kidding (although partially true). But I'm certain of one thing... it was one of the best holidays of my life, I swear!

Anyway, I already got back to work a week ago but it's just now that I felt updating this blog since it's really outdated. This year I won't make any resolutions because I am also certain that I won't be able to live with it for the whole year. SO it just make sense that I just don't make any promises to others and to myself, specially. But new year's resolution aside I am or I will try to be always on time for work. Six working days have gone by and I only had one tardy and it was only a minute! Woohooo! I am doing great so far. I am also trying my best to stay fit and healthy so now for lunch break I am only going to have 2 packets of soda crackers and water. I think I still sounded like making my new year's resolution... Anyway, it doesn't matter because I didn't sign any contract regarding these.

By the way, I just finished reading Amy Tan's Saving Fish From Drowning and I like it! It's fun and funny! :) And I just watched The Curious Case of Benjamin Button today and it really made me cry. I hate you Brad and Cate you made me cry and look at my eyes now! They are so puffy! I like the screenplay, better than Fitzgerald's short story. The film made me realize that we don't have to judge a person because of his/her decisions because at the moment it might hurt us and feel really bad about life but in the future we'll realized that what we thought a bad decision was a great decision after all.

So there... I hope you'll watch the movie and read the book that I have just watched and read.

Celebrate Love

Wow! It's barely a couple of weeks before Christmas. I am so excited to give presents to the people I love. I can't believe that I'm almost done with my Christmas shopping, as you can remember that last year I was on a last minute shopping. So this year is really different. I'm not in any sort of rush.

As to where to spend the holidays, I'm not really sure. My initial plan was to come home to the province and spend the holidays with my family there, but there are some major changes now. Turns out I'm not going to spend it in Zamboanga. Truth is, I really don't know where I'll be spending it. My mom and I are going to meet somewhere, she haven't told me the details yet, and by details I mean where and when. So it's really a surprise for me. I'm leaving everything to her now. I trust her because I know my mom too well and I know that she'll never put me in a bad position, and in my case, I place that I wouldn't like. And for sure that place will be really fun and cool. And knowing my mom, that place should have a very nice place for shopping. I am so excited! Or not. Because I so hate surprises! I've been begging my mom to give me some clues but her lips are very sealed. So I just need to be very patient.

I got my mom the phone that she's been lusting for quite sometime now. I also got my younger and college cousins some cool gadgets. Because I am a cool ate! Hahaha! I wish they see me as cool though. Ooops, I think I need to stop revealing my presents so not to spoil their excitement.

I don't expect any in return, because I give gifts because I wanted to and I think they deserve it not because I expect something in return.

Also, I've been listening to Jordan Pruitt's Celebrate Love. I really love the song.

Celebrate Love - Jordan Pruitt

Advance happy holidays everyone!

Don't Go Leaving...

Don't you just hate it when someone leaves without telling you the reason? And when they get back they pretend that everything's fine and like they didn't leave at all.

That's what I'm going through now, I have these 2 persons who left me without telling me why. Person A was the first to leave, mid August. I thought we were good and out of the blue he told me that he had to leave, and then he did and left me hanging. I was really devastated because I didn't see it coming, I didn't picture us apart that soon.

Well anyway, yesterday I got a call from him and told me that he got back the other day and wants to hang out the way we did before. "As if I never left" that's what he said. Say what? So, he just wants me to pretend that everything is cool between us when it's not? I can't do that! I just got over his leaving me, and now he wants to hang around because maybe... just maybe he wants to stick around longer? The hell he does. So what does that make me? A hotel receptionist welcoming him when he arrives and just smile and wave when he wants to take off again?

I got to admit, he's offer is tempting but I need to get my guards up this time. I don't want to go over brooding all over again.

And this Person B he left just recently, still I don't why. Actually, I have some idea why but I want to hear it straight from him. I know I'm not the reason he left but I can't just imagine him throwing away his life for just a person. Though I know that he needs to clear his mind and get his ducks in a row but still running away is not the answer. Maybe we're just two different persons because if something went wrong in my life I won't be running away. I face the problems and try to figure out where did I go wrong. Person B rarely communicates with me now. I know I'm not his favorite person now because he knows me well that I'm only going to give him a lecture about responsibilities and everything. I wish him well, specially in this season.

Well, I just hope everyone's well and good for the holidays. And please if you have any opinion or comment about what I'm going to do with person A, feel free to post your thoughts. :)

Diaphanous

"In a dream you appear,
For a while you are near,
So I keep sleeping,
Just to keep you with me..."

You think I'm pathetic for doing this? No, this isn't one of those "lover's dream", it's more than that. These dreams are about people who meant so much to me, my family and the person who's been my inspiration for the longest time ever.

I'm not really a blabber these days, I'm brooding on my own. As much as I want to share it with anyone, but I also don't want the world to know my story.

Life is complicated, but as they say "Life is what you make it".

"Life is hard or it's a party, the choice is up to YOU."

Thanks Hannah for the wonderful insights. :)

What's the Deal?

Whoa for a while I forgot that I have a blog that needs to be updated. I'll be using the same lame old reason... I've been busy. (Duh as if I've got tons of readers, I'll be lucky if I have one, other than myself of course.) It's for real this time, I'm not busy doing nothing, rather I am busy doing EVERYTHING!

I've been spending toxic nights at work. And been doing sketches and plans for my future business. Don't ask me yet, coz if I'll tell you I'll have to kill you. Understood?! Just kidding! But still I can't spill it, not until it's realized.

And oh, I forgot to update you about the Deal or No Deal game. I already played, and I won 200 pesos! Hahaha! On the first round, I open the briefcase with 1 million pesos, on the second round, the 500K and 2M and it just went on and on. I kept opening the big amounts. So that's it, I ended up with 200 pesos. I have no regrets, I'm lucky enough to be playing there. And besides, there are about 20 thousand Filipinos who texted and I was lucky to be chosen. And hey, as Kris always say that when a person is unlucky in love, he/she gets to win big amounts. So does that mean that I'll be lucky in love soon? I can only wish!

I Got It All

I got the brother problem. I got the flu. I got tonsillitis. I got the biggest zits (3 of them). I got the stuffiest nose. But who cares? Who gets to play on Deal or No Deal on Tuesday? It's got to be me!

Wish me luck. :)

I'm Letting Go

... of the life I've planned for me and my dreams
I'm losing control of my destiny
Feels like I'm falling and that's what it's like to believe
So I'm letting go...

This is a giant leap of faith
Trusting and trying to embrace

The fear of the unknown
Beyond my comfort zone.

Giving in to your gravity
Knowing that you are holding me
I'm not afraid

Feels like I'm falling but that's what it's like to believe
Feels like I'm falling but this is the life for me

I' m letting go...

Sisterhood and Marciano's

As you all know I've been waiting for the Sisterhood of Traveling Pants 2 movie for like forever. So when it finally opened here in the country I was so excited to watch it. I already read all the books with the same title and I like it so I was really giddy to watch the movie. The fact that it stars the stars of my favorite TV characters, Serena Van Der Woodsen (Gossip Girl), Betty Suarez (Ugly Betty) and Rory Gilmore (Gilmore Girls). It's not like I don't like Amber Tamblyn because I totally dig and like her as Tibby, it's just that she isn't one of my favorite TV characters for the obvious reason that she doesn't have a TV show! Anyway, about the movie. I can't say that I was really thrilled after but I wasn't disappointed either. I should blame myself for reading those books first. I never learned that it would always be better if I watch the movie first before reading the books so that I won't be expecting that much and comparing it with the book after. I should always remember that books and movies are different. You can't fit a 500 something pages book to a 2 hour movie.

Anyway, have I told you that I watched the movie with Sheina? No? Ok, so I watched it with her last Monday. It was sort of a bonding time for us. After watching the movie, we had dinner at Marciano's on Greenbelt 3. The food there is superb! I love Tastes like Barney's salad and Peter Petrelli's grilled chicken is also yummy just like it's namesake! I also love the ambiance, it was so New Yorkish! The black and silver "royalty" chairs as I like to call it and the chandeliers are a big plus! We also had wine, even though I had to go to work after. I intended to blog about it right when I got to work that night, unfortunately I was so sleepy because of the wine and have completely forgotten about it.

A Night with Nights in Rodanthe

So I told you that after posting the entry before this I'll be reading the Nights in Rodanthe. I did not but did. I did not because I did not read it right after for no reason at all and I did because I've read it during my shift tonight. I also love (once again) and hate Nicholas Sparks at the same time. I love him because he wrote another good novel but I also hate him because he put me in the verge of tears. I really wanted to cry, if only I was at home I could have cried a bucket but then again I'm here at work. It was so hard for me reading the very tear-jerking part and not be able to let loose a single tear because my officemates might notice and would ask me why. If you didn't know, I'm the only femme working with a bunch of guys in our office so it's really hard. When I got to that 'part', my heart was really crushed and I think I felt what Adrienne felt that time. It was like I was the person in the book. The book is at the same time heart-warming and heart-breaking.

I know I've been making one to many contradicting points here, but it is what I'm feeling now. Unlike A Bend in the Road that's tragedy then happiness, this book it's like tragedy-happiness-tragedy-contentment. Though the protagonists of this book are of middle ages but still I can relate to them. I felt the lost of the lady protagonist who went through divorce and found a new love then dealt with the grief of the death of her new found love alone but still found her strength to live each day not just for herself but also for her family. It left me wondering if was there ever a time my mom went through this phase when she and my dad separated. I wondered if like Amanda, Adrienne's daughter I was blinded to my mom's grief and solitude because I was busy running away from everything that happend to our family, and was busy building my own world where I had a picture perfect family. I'm not insensitive when it comes to my family, but as I've been saying I'm no expert. And how would I know if my mom does cry herself to sleep like I do because where miles apart? And I bet she also didn't know that stage of my life because she was also busy dealing with her stuff.

But one thing I've learned from this book, is that nothing can ever make you feel better but yourself, and you won't get over losing someone/something you just get used to the pain and it's up to you if you'll let yourself be eaten by it. It all boils down to you wanting to give up or go on with life. It's a matter of choice.

I just hope that when all else fails life is as simple as CTRL-ALT-DEL.