An Open Letter to Pepeng

Dear Pepeng,

You know we Filipinos are very hospitable but I'm really sorry, we can't accomodate you this time, it is known that your brother Ondoy just visited us last weekend and we have already given him almost everything we've got, even some of our loved ones and we are still coping with our loss.

Can you please skip our country and maybe go to South China sea instead? I know it's not as big as the Pacific Ocean where you came from but maybe you'll love it there. Who knows, right? Maybe a little fun under the sun will do you good.

I am hoping you'll grant my little request.

Your friend,

Kristin

Reverie

As much as possible I keep my mind from wandering when I'm off to bed, having no thoughts at all makes me drift off to sleep easily. But when I'm riding my way to work, that's when I let my thoughts go wandering.

Sometimes I think about having the coolest job ever, like being paid to travel the world, there are also times when I think about how I should've acted or reacted on situations that already happened. And often times I think about my dream job, and dream life. There's a dream job but of course it won't guarantee us the life that we dream about, but I still think about it. Who cares? These are my thoughts anyways!

So back to my thoughts today. I'm a rockstar. I was riding in a limo from the Ritz Hotel where I'm staying in London to the concert venue, the O2 arena. When I got off the limo, paparazzi were everywhere! And all the press were there hoping to score even a minute with me. The security had a hard time ushering me backstage, the crowd was mad! AfterI got backstage, I got ready. Had my costume and make-up and tuned my guitar, the concert was about to start. I was told by the production assistant that I'm on. I went center stage, just when I was about to start singing I heard a fan sigh "Oh my god", or so I thought. That's where I was pulled from my reverie. I realized I'm not in a limo nor going to MY concert, no fans waiting, cheering and screaming for me but I'm on a shuttle on my way to work, where my deskful of reports that needs to be done is waiting for me.

I don't know why I wrote this entry but I think part of me wants you to know what I dream about and how carried away I am sometimes with my thoughts. I don't really know. But one thing I'm sure about, I dream a lot! And I think that's the only way that I can be anything that I want to be.

I Love NYC

I went home for a week to contemplate over some things, unfortunately no contemplation was done back home. But I did just this past week. I've been thinking of leaving my job (again) but this time it's for real, no more cold feet and whatever it is that held me back before. My friend Joannie asked me to move to NYC with her next year, we'll be roomies for a while maybe until I can find a job that will be able to pay for a decent apartment. She's been asking me forever to move to the states, the other year she asked me to move in with her, but due to financial instability on my part (blame it on shopping and trips to wherever) I wasn't able to do so. But this time I'm kind of prepared already. I've been saving up for a while now, mind you no new expensive stuff for me this year (except for the shoes that I already paid and pre-ordered last year), and my mom is also on board about me moving to NYC. She promised to pay for my fare back home if ever I won't make it there, but I'm positive and crossing my fingers that I'll make it, not just make it but make it BIG in the BIG APPLE.

I always love New York, I love the weather there. I grew up in a tropical country but I sure love the four seasons! And I don't know if it's just me but I think the women there are very fashionable, very NY chic! And I won't mind taking the subways, walking five blocks or more nor the blaring sirens in the middle of the night. Moving in to the big city is a big step for me, but this is a once in a lifetime chance, I really need to take this. So what if I won't make it there? I can always find my way back home and shrug it off and say "at least I tried".

I am so excited about this that I don't spend my money anymore on anything 'cute' or 'nice' that I see. And I don't go out that much anymore, I spend most of my spare time in my room reading or having a DVD marathon of SATC and Gossip Girl. See, even my choices of TV programs are/were filmed in the city.

I am not expecting to go the SATC way, but maybe something similar. I'm not looking for love in NYC but I'm definitely looking for labels! We all know the biggest flagship stores of the biggest fashion labels are there. And definitely looking forward to Saks Fifth Avenue and Barneys New York! I know they're stores are bigger in NYC than in LA.

Ok stop. I need to focus on saving up first before drowning my hard earned money on all the designer stuff.

And by the way, the thing that sealed the deal? I took 2 different quizzes in facebook about "Where you should live" and "What state in the US you should live" and both resulted to New York City. I know it's lame but it only shows that I'll fit in New York. :)

Home Is Where The Heart Is

I'm back! Not only here in Blogger but also in the city and definitely at work. I went home last Saturday (18th) in the province for my dad's (my grandfather) birthday. I think the one-week break made me better physically, emotionally, spiritually as well as financially (thanks my dear family). When I was home, all I did was just eat, sleep and swimming almost everyday. I really had a great time. Unfortunately, I wasn't able to bond with one of my favorite people: my youngest cousin Krizle. She wasn't able to come home because of her summer internship. I only got to spend an hour with her when they sent me off at the airport.

I'm missing dad and mom, my momma, my aunts and cousins. Our gathering for our dad's birthday is not as fun as it used to because we're not complete. My brother and three cousins as well as my three nieces weren't there. But still it's fun. Just seeing some of our family members is fun enough for me.

It's just ironic because when I'm here in the city I always wish to come home, but when I was there I realized that the province is not my home anymore. It's our family's home but this city is my home now, it feels homier here than anywhere else. Maybe because I made this my home myself.

Why I'm Not Updating?

I'm blaming Plurk and Facebook. :p

Don't really have to think of something to write, all you got to do is just spew words! Hahaha.

Chasing Harry Winston, Are We?

I have some of my closest friends that already tied the knot and most of my not so close friends also want to go down that road too. I've been bombarded with questions lately by family members and mostly friends, either long time or just acquaintances, and every time I am asked that dreaded question my almost automatic answer would be "It's not on my 5 year timeline but I'm considering of getting there someday", and sometimes I just answer them back with a question "Is there one for sale?". And most times if not every time after I answered their question they have this look. the weird look., the what-planet-are you-from look! I must say that I'm amused of their reactions but often times confused. When a girl my age (23) is getting married some assumes that maybe that girl is knocked up, and if not they would question why is she doing it at such a young age, but on my case and cases of women like me who happen to be career-oriented we get raised eyebrows and lines like "You are not getting any younger", "you need to settle down". So it sometimes get really confusing. The people around us just need to figure where they stand.

Speaking for myself, I never really imagined myself getting married, even a sa kid. Ok, I think I had, when I had my first serious relationship that lasted longer than my affair with Karl Marx (Sociology 1). That time, dare I say it I was deeply in love, that's what I thought before he dumped me for a girl that his mom wants for him. And he said he's considering taking her as his wife even if he didn't like her because he didn't want to disappoint her mom. And to think he was only a Junior in college! And I think that marriage planning of me and him jinxed it all (but thinking about it now, I'm still thankful. I can't be with someone who can't decide for himself). So that was my first and only in 10 years I hope (6 years down). I can't really say that that that's the reason, but maybe it all boils down to me afraid of de javu, I came from a broken family and getting over your parents break up is a tough call. And I never want to go that road in this lifetime again. Call me selfish but I just happen to love me, and doesn't want me to get hurt again.

Maybe you're wondering why the serious post? Nothing really serious happened, I'm just turning 24 next month and within a week I got asked with that dreaded question more than 5 times in just a matter of week. Also I just happen to finish reading Lauren Weisberger's Chasing Harry Winston.

I'm not chasing *Harry Winston, not anytime soon. But I'm open to the idea when the timing is right and with the right person. Why not? But the much bigger question is when do we know if the person and timing is right?

*Harry Winston Diamond Corporation is a specialist diamond enterprise with premium assets in the mining and retail segments of the diamond industry. The Company supplies rough diamonds to the global market from its 40% interest in the Diavik Diamond Mine, located in Canada’s Northwest Territories. The Company’s retail division, Harry Winston Inc., is a premier diamond jeweler and luxury timepiece retailer with salons in key locations including New York, Paris, London, Beijing, Tokyo and Beverly Hills. Thus they are known for their engagement rings.

WE Came Back

I had one of those "awakening" moment in one's life over the weekend. And because it happened at the first day of the month, and of the week (Sunday) it must really mean something, right?

I thought I was having one of those lazy Sundays I'm used to have but out of the blue the least person that I expected to contact me did sent me a message. He wants us to meet up, it wasn't the first time he asked me that but I kept on delaying and there was one time that I ignored his message, as if I didn't receive it. But last Sunday was different, or should I say I felt different. I gave in to his suggestion and we met up. It's funny because what I thought to be an awkward situation, isn't 'that' awkward after all. I remembered the last time we talked I was hurting and acted like a total bitch to him (which I think is justifiable because of what he did to me). And it really surprised me because we took off the same place where we got off. As if nothing ever happened, as if one of us just went on a long vacation in a remote island with no means of communication whatsoever.

I never felt so relieved in my entire life (except for that one time I crashed my friend's motorcycle and I haven't had a scratch), he's like my other half, my life ain't complete without him. And not being able to talk to him for 4 months was the longest 4 months of my life. I was floating during those for months, I had happy moments but I can't be happier because I wasn't able to share it with him.

I know that we should talk things to be able to move on, but I think were not of that kind. In our species, we forgive and we forget. No ifs, no buts. Maybe that's always how it is when it comes to family. (No Sam, I'm not talking about Mr. D. I'm talking about my brother. And about Mr. D, we're friends (estranged friends! Hahaha) Because we know in our hearts that no matter what we do and what we'll ever do our family will always be there for us at the end of the day.

Movies Moved Me!

I finally watched Slumdog Millionaire and I can say that Slumdog is a great movie. To tell you the truth, while I was watching the Oscar's I was praying that Benjamin Button will win the Best Picture but when it didn't I was kind of disappointed so to prove myself wrong that maybe Slumdog deserves to win the Best Picture award I watched the movie.

After watching the movie I can finally agree with the Academy, I can tell a lot of good things about the movie, but sometimes I think that Slumdog is more like August Rush, the protagonist (Jamal) is either his life is just so full of coincidences or he's just plain lucky. Imagine the things he'd been through as well as Latika and yet they still find their way to each other. And the journey to each other's arms is just to tragic for me, it seemed like the universe conspired to break them apart since day 1, but at least the movie had a happy ending, right? Is dancing with "your destiny" on the train station considered a happy ending? I really hope so.

So if you want to watch an award worthy film, watch this movie. The next movie that I'll be watching later will be The Reader, I heard it's a great film too. Sad that I can't say the same for Revolutionary Road, the plot is just too complicated for me but the acting is really superb! Leo and Kate are more than great in this film. I cried with both of them, and Kate left me wondering what the h*ll could be possibly wrong with her, her character is tad complicated and problematic, one minute I thought she was having this psychological disorder. It's one of those movies that has a dark ending, or not so dark. Though I didn't like the plot of the movie, the actors and the acting is worth watching.

Day 13 - Little Thankies

1. Waking up late.
2. Problem solved! ☺

Day 12 - Little Thankies
Ferbuary 15

1. Waking up late!
2. Yummy lunch.
3. Sleeping in on a lazy Sunday.
4. Sleeping late.
   

Day 11 - Little Thankies
February 14, 2009

1. Last work day of the week!
2. Call from mom.
   
3. Finally our appointment at PAG-IBIG is done!
4. Valentine goodies from the management.
5. Sleeping late!
   

30 Random Facts About Me!

OK, so I've done this post before. But I am tagged again so that means I have to DO IT AGAIN. Please stop tagging me people, I might not be able to leave some mystery to the netizens anymore.

So here goes my list and this was my list a couple of years ago...

1. I love Amy Tan and Paulo Coelho so much.
2. I hate wearing sky high heels but most of my shoe collection is consisting of those. (How ironic is that? What can I do I love Carrie Bradshaw!)
3. I love watching cartoons and other tweens' show. (I am very young at heart)
4. I eat more veggies now than I used to.
5. I still paint and do some sketches every once in a while.
6. I still hate boy bands.
7. I love Stella McCartney, Marc Jacobs, Balenciaga and Vivienne Westwood's designs.
8. I watch too much TV, be it news or just another TV junk.
9. I read Cosmo and RDAsia every month. Also US InStyle and Vogue.
10. I love dressing up.
    
11. I still prefer sleeping over eating.
12. I get off a couple of blocks before our building when commuting so I can do a little walking.
13. I'm not really a drinker but when I do I prefer Cosmo and Margaritas.
14. I love Greek, Italian, American and Filipino dishes.
15. I always dream of meeting Jim Sturgess in person after watching him in Across the Universe. As well as Cameron Diaz, Kate Hudson and Julia Roberts.
16. Augustana, Bowling For Soup and Switchfoot are my fave bands.
    
17. I love reality TV. Stylista, Make me a Supermodel, ANTM, and Amazing Race. And other "reality" TV shows, The Hills, The City, Newport Harbor.
18. I daydream about being friends with some Hollywood celebrities and these amazing fashion designers.
19. I also daydream of writing this incredible script for a movie in Hollywood, and being one of the most sought after fashion designer. (My god, I live in a bubble!)
20. I tried Pilates, but I'm too lazy to continue the course.
21. I still have my baby pillow till now, can't sleep without it. I carry it in my luggage whenever I travel. Can this be our little secret please? ☺
22. I love going to the Salcedo Park weekend market.
23. My all time favorite song is You're So Vain by Carly Simon, I can sing and dance with it! "♪♪you walked in to a party like you were walking unto a yacht...♪♪"
24. I love reading and writing. I got bunch of books and lots of my "paper works".
    
25. I wrote a novel and the only person who read it is my bestfriend. I also wrote a TV script for Charmed when I was in HS (my friends and I were a fan), and a lot of short stories I published on the web and the greatest of them all is the short story that got published in RDAsia (My Story section)! I'll post it soon, I promised. I am just so excited now I can't stop thinking about it when they told me.
26. I used to dance during my grade and high school years.
27. I never been to a prom.
28. Everybody loves PBJ (Peanut Butter and Jelly) sandwich but I can't take it. I hate peanut butter.
29. I prefer sleeping in than partying out.
30. I only cut class once during my entire HS years.
    

Day 10 - Little Thankies

1. I tripped and ruined my shoe, good thing Donald, my officemate helped me fixed it. ☺
2. My (personal) errand today was completed.
   
3. Before I completely ruined my shoe, my cousin picked me up and brought me my filpflops.
4. Hot coffee bun greeted me when I came home.
5. Talked to my HS friend.
   

Day 9 - Little Thankies

1. Feeling good and psyched.
2. Short waiting line at KFC during lunch time.
3. Taylor Swift Fearless album.
   

Day 8 - Little Thankies
February 11, 2009

1. Getting the hang of waking up early.
2. Yummy breakfast
   
3. A happy lunch with 2 of my officemates, just like the good old times.
4. Potato salad and grilled chicken from World of Chicken
   

Day 7 - Little Thankies

1. Nutella sandwich for breakfast.
2. Morning breeze.
3. I woke up early for my first day on morning shift.
4. Patience towards effing clients.
5. Great day at work.
   

Day 6 - Little Thankies

1. Got home safely.
2. New schedule. (i don't know if I'm gonna like it, but at least it's a change)
3. SATC movie (I'm really a fan, watched it more than once actually)
   

Day 5 - Little Thankies

1. A very sound sleep.
2. Very nice weather (for sleeping)
3. So early for work.
4. A nice chat with officemates.
5. Bowling For Soup! Still the best!
   

Day 4 - Little Thankies

1. Waking up late
   
2. My favorite dish for lunch
3. SATC DVD
4. Carrie Bradshaw
   

Day 4 - Little Thankies
February 6, 2009

1. Still no work tonight
2. still looking forward to a good night sleep
3. SATC DVD!
   

Day 3 - Little Thankies
February 5, 2009

1. No work tonight!
2. Pay day!
   
3. Nutella sandwich
4. Looking forward to a good night sleep
   

Day 2 - Little Thankies

1. A sumptuous lunch.
2. Arrived at work on time (I woke up later than usual today)
3. David Lanz' (instrumental) music, which is good for *Pranayama.
4. Sheila's tips on yoga.
5. Van Houten chocolates after dinner.

*Yoga breathing, or Pranayama, is the science of breath control

Day 1 - Little Thankies

I've been planning on making a little list each day of the things that I am thankful for each day, I had the idea when I watched The Secret which was a couple of years ago. Then earlier today when I was doing my usual rounds of blog hopping, I noticed that one of the blogs that I've been following and haven't checked for about two weeks is making her "little graces" list each day, and with that I was inspired to start my own!

Day 1 - Little Thankies

1. Spam! I don't know what's with Spam but I really love it.
2. A gigantic jar of Nutella.
3. August Rush ( I watched it again, really love the music)
4. Ballet flats (I've been wearing stilettos for work for a week but today I chose flats)
5. Leo Tolstoy's Anna Karenina (still reading it)
6. Being able to watch 7 Pounds while at work. :)

So there goes my first day list, I am hoping I could kick this up for a month or forever!

Messed Up

I want to do many things this year, something that I haven't done in my entire life. Say bungee jumping, sky diving, whitewater rafting and the likes. For some who don't know me that much and have only seen me once or twice you'll never imagine that I'm that kind of person. Everyone's perception of me is that I'm the biggest dork they've ever seen! I don't look sporty nor dress up like one. I'm just your typical dorkerella, but deep inside me is an adventurer, a risk-taker (as long as the risk is not that much because I still believe in Spice Girls' "too much of something is bad enough"). But there are also some stuff I want to do that doesn't involve me breaking every bone in my body or drowning. I want to go and see the world. Meet people of different races, and try to live their life (way of living) for a while. I want to do so many things this year!

For starters, I want to read more books than last year. And so far I've read Amy Tan's Saving Fish from Drowning, reread Paulo's The Alchemist (I thought it was timely for the start of the year) and I'm starting to read another one, Leo Tolstoy's Anna Karenina. And I got a lot of books lined up for the upcoming months. The down part is, when I'm at home I don't get to read anything aside from my monthly subscriptions of Cosmo, RDAsia, and other mags that have my favorite stars on the cover. And mind you, reading these mags is a challenge to me already because there's just so much to do at home like keeping my closet tidy, doing the laundry (yes i do that on my own now to save some cash), drawing/sketching, watching movies (which I've been doing lately, averaging 2 movies a day) and of course the most important thing *drum roll* sleeping! So it's really tough to keep up with the things-i-wanna-do thingy.

And just like now, I've planned to continue reading the book but the computer and internet tandem is really a temptress! So now I ended up closing the book and blog! And speaking of blog I also want to change my blog's look but I just don't have the time now to make a new header. Sigh. I am pretty messed up. I need time-management tips (and can you also toss some financial management tips on the side?) pronto!

Since I'm pretty messed up... let's make this entry messed up too. And here's a segue to the Shopaholic series by Sophie Kinsella, they have a film version of it and will be realeased next month. I am not really excited about this movie because they made Becky Bloomwood all-American! She can't be! The Becky Bloomwood I know is bloody BRITISH as well as Luke and she shops at Harrod's not Barney's (not until she went to NYC)! I just can't get over it, Becky is supposed to be in London because New York is Lizzie Nichol's! Whatever !I'm still watching it! Just want to have a few good laughs. I miss watching chick flicks these days.

Speaking of chick flicks, I finally picked my favorite stars. It's a triple tie! Julia Roberts, Cameron Diaz and Kate Hudson. I figured they are my favorite because during my christmas vacay most of my days were spent watching every movies of these three ladies. I really, really want to be friends with them! I'm pretty messed up like that! Hahaha! And they're not just funny on movies, even in real life. You should watch Cam and Kate's tv show guestings, really funny!

Ok enough of this crap. I promise I'll post something better than this next time. Ok I take that back, I won't promise, I'll just try. Ciao!

New Year Update

It's been a year since the last time I was here. Yeah, it's already 2009 so there. I wouldn't dish about how I spent the holidays because I can't really remember all the details because I was either asleep or drunk! Just kidding (although partially true). But I'm certain of one thing... it was one of the best holidays of my life, I swear!

Anyway, I already got back to work a week ago but it's just now that I felt updating this blog since it's really outdated. This year I won't make any resolutions because I am also certain that I won't be able to live with it for the whole year. SO it just make sense that I just don't make any promises to others and to myself, specially. But new year's resolution aside I am or I will try to be always on time for work. Six working days have gone by and I only had one tardy and it was only a minute! Woohooo! I am doing great so far. I am also trying my best to stay fit and healthy so now for lunch break I am only going to have 2 packets of soda crackers and water. I think I still sounded like making my new year's resolution... Anyway, it doesn't matter because I didn't sign any contract regarding these.

By the way, I just finished reading Amy Tan's Saving Fish From Drowning and I like it! It's fun and funny! :) And I just watched The Curious Case of Benjamin Button today and it really made me cry. I hate you Brad and Cate you made me cry and look at my eyes now! They are so puffy! I like the screenplay, better than Fitzgerald's short story. The film made me realize that we don't have to judge a person because of his/her decisions because at the moment it might hurt us and feel really bad about life but in the future we'll realized that what we thought a bad decision was a great decision after all.

So there... I hope you'll watch the movie and read the book that I have just watched and read.

Celebrate Love

Wow! It's barely a couple of weeks before Christmas. I am so excited to give presents to the people I love. I can't believe that I'm almost done with my Christmas shopping, as you can remember that last year I was on a last minute shopping. So this year is really different. I'm not in any sort of rush.

As to where to spend the holidays, I'm not really sure. My initial plan was to come home to the province and spend the holidays with my family there, but there are some major changes now. Turns out I'm not going to spend it in Zamboanga. Truth is, I really don't know where I'll be spending it. My mom and I are going to meet somewhere, she haven't told me the details yet, and by details I mean where and when. So it's really a surprise for me. I'm leaving everything to her now. I trust her because I know my mom too well and I know that she'll never put me in a bad position, and in my case, I place that I wouldn't like. And for sure that place will be really fun and cool. And knowing my mom, that place should have a very nice place for shopping. I am so excited! Or not. Because I so hate surprises! I've been begging my mom to give me some clues but her lips are very sealed. So I just need to be very patient.

I got my mom the phone that she's been lusting for quite sometime now. I also got my younger and college cousins some cool gadgets. Because I am a cool ate! Hahaha! I wish they see me as cool though. Ooops, I think I need to stop revealing my presents so not to spoil their excitement.

I don't expect any in return, because I give gifts because I wanted to and I think they deserve it not because I expect something in return.

Also, I've been listening to Jordan Pruitt's Celebrate Love. I really love the song.

Celebrate Love - Jordan Pruitt

Advance happy holidays everyone!

Don't Go Leaving...

Don't you just hate it when someone leaves without telling you the reason? And when they get back they pretend that everything's fine and like they didn't leave at all.

That's what I'm going through now, I have these 2 persons who left me without telling me why. Person A was the first to leave, mid August. I thought we were good and out of the blue he told me that he had to leave, and then he did and left me hanging. I was really devastated because I didn't see it coming, I didn't picture us apart that soon.

Well anyway, yesterday I got a call from him and told me that he got back the other day and wants to hang out the way we did before. "As if I never left" that's what he said. Say what? So, he just wants me to pretend that everything is cool between us when it's not? I can't do that! I just got over his leaving me, and now he wants to hang around because maybe... just maybe he wants to stick around longer? The hell he does. So what does that make me? A hotel receptionist welcoming him when he arrives and just smile and wave when he wants to take off again?

I got to admit, he's offer is tempting but I need to get my guards up this time. I don't want to go over brooding all over again.

And this Person B he left just recently, still I don't why. Actually, I have some idea why but I want to hear it straight from him. I know I'm not the reason he left but I can't just imagine him throwing away his life for just a person. Though I know that he needs to clear his mind and get his ducks in a row but still running away is not the answer. Maybe we're just two different persons because if something went wrong in my life I won't be running away. I face the problems and try to figure out where did I go wrong. Person B rarely communicates with me now. I know I'm not his favorite person now because he knows me well that I'm only going to give him a lecture about responsibilities and everything. I wish him well, specially in this season.

Well, I just hope everyone's well and good for the holidays. And please if you have any opinion or comment about what I'm going to do with person A, feel free to post your thoughts. :)

Diaphanous

"In a dream you appear,
For a while you are near,
So I keep sleeping,
Just to keep you with me..."

You think I'm pathetic for doing this? No, this isn't one of those "lover's dream", it's more than that. These dreams are about people who meant so much to me, my family and the person who's been my inspiration for the longest time ever.

I'm not really a blabber these days, I'm brooding on my own. As much as I want to share it with anyone, but I also don't want the world to know my story.

Life is complicated, but as they say "Life is what you make it".

"Life is hard or it's a party, the choice is up to YOU."

Thanks Hannah for the wonderful insights. :)

What's the Deal?

Whoa for a while I forgot that I have a blog that needs to be updated. I'll be using the same lame old reason... I've been busy. (Duh as if I've got tons of readers, I'll be lucky if I have one, other than myself of course.) It's for real this time, I'm not busy doing nothing, rather I am busy doing EVERYTHING!

I've been spending toxic nights at work. And been doing sketches and plans for my future business. Don't ask me yet, coz if I'll tell you I'll have to kill you. Understood?! Just kidding! But still I can't spill it, not until it's realized.

And oh, I forgot to update you about the Deal or No Deal game. I already played, and I won 200 pesos! Hahaha! On the first round, I open the briefcase with 1 million pesos, on the second round, the 500K and 2M and it just went on and on. I kept opening the big amounts. So that's it, I ended up with 200 pesos. I have no regrets, I'm lucky enough to be playing there. And besides, there are about 20 thousand Filipinos who texted and I was lucky to be chosen. And hey, as Kris always say that when a person is unlucky in love, he/she gets to win big amounts. So does that mean that I'll be lucky in love soon? I can only wish!

I Got It All

I got the brother problem. I got the flu. I got tonsillitis. I got the biggest zits (3 of them). I got the stuffiest nose. But who cares? Who gets to play on Deal or No Deal on Tuesday? It's got to be me!

Wish me luck. :)

I'm Letting Go

... of the life I've planned for me and my dreams
I'm losing control of my destiny
Feels like I'm falling and that's what it's like to believe
So I'm letting go...

This is a giant leap of faith
Trusting and trying to embrace

The fear of the unknown
Beyond my comfort zone.

Giving in to your gravity
Knowing that you are holding me
I'm not afraid

Feels like I'm falling but that's what it's like to believe
Feels like I'm falling but this is the life for me

I' m letting go...

Sisterhood and Marciano's

As you all know I've been waiting for the Sisterhood of Traveling Pants 2 movie for like forever. So when it finally opened here in the country I was so excited to watch it. I already read all the books with the same title and I like it so I was really giddy to watch the movie. The fact that it stars the stars of my favorite TV characters, Serena Van Der Woodsen (Gossip Girl), Betty Suarez (Ugly Betty) and Rory Gilmore (Gilmore Girls). It's not like I don't like Amber Tamblyn because I totally dig and like her as Tibby, it's just that she isn't one of my favorite TV characters for the obvious reason that she doesn't have a TV show! Anyway, about the movie. I can't say that I was really thrilled after but I wasn't disappointed either. I should blame myself for reading those books first. I never learned that it would always be better if I watch the movie first before reading the books so that I won't be expecting that much and comparing it with the book after. I should always remember that books and movies are different. You can't fit a 500 something pages book to a 2 hour movie.

Anyway, have I told you that I watched the movie with Sheina? No? Ok, so I watched it with her last Monday. It was sort of a bonding time for us. After watching the movie, we had dinner at Marciano's on Greenbelt 3. The food there is superb! I love Tastes like Barney's salad and Peter Petrelli's grilled chicken is also yummy just like it's namesake! I also love the ambiance, it was so New Yorkish! The black and silver "royalty" chairs as I like to call it and the chandeliers are a big plus! We also had wine, even though I had to go to work after. I intended to blog about it right when I got to work that night, unfortunately I was so sleepy because of the wine and have completely forgotten about it.

A Night with Nights in Rodanthe

So I told you that after posting the entry before this I'll be reading the Nights in Rodanthe. I did not but did. I did not because I did not read it right after for no reason at all and I did because I've read it during my shift tonight. I also love (once again) and hate Nicholas Sparks at the same time. I love him because he wrote another good novel but I also hate him because he put me in the verge of tears. I really wanted to cry, if only I was at home I could have cried a bucket but then again I'm here at work. It was so hard for me reading the very tear-jerking part and not be able to let loose a single tear because my officemates might notice and would ask me why. If you didn't know, I'm the only femme working with a bunch of guys in our office so it's really hard. When I got to that 'part', my heart was really crushed and I think I felt what Adrienne felt that time. It was like I was the person in the book. The book is at the same time heart-warming and heart-breaking.

I know I've been making one to many contradicting points here, but it is what I'm feeling now. Unlike A Bend in the Road that's tragedy then happiness, this book it's like tragedy-happiness-tragedy-contentment. Though the protagonists of this book are of middle ages but still I can relate to them. I felt the lost of the lady protagonist who went through divorce and found a new love then dealt with the grief of the death of her new found love alone but still found her strength to live each day not just for herself but also for her family. It left me wondering if was there ever a time my mom went through this phase when she and my dad separated. I wondered if like Amanda, Adrienne's daughter I was blinded to my mom's grief and solitude because I was busy running away from everything that happend to our family, and was busy building my own world where I had a picture perfect family. I'm not insensitive when it comes to my family, but as I've been saying I'm no expert. And how would I know if my mom does cry herself to sleep like I do because where miles apart? And I bet she also didn't know that stage of my life because she was also busy dealing with her stuff.

But one thing I've learned from this book, is that nothing can ever make you feel better but yourself, and you won't get over losing someone/something you just get used to the pain and it's up to you if you'll let yourself be eaten by it. It all boils down to you wanting to give up or go on with life. It's a matter of choice.

I just hope that when all else fails life is as simple as CTRL-ALT-DEL.

Bummer's Weekend

So my weekend was a bummer! All I did was just sleep and eat, watch TV and surf the net. I didn't get to watch a movie, and the only time I went out of our place is when I bought a bottle of Coke, I had no choice because no drinking water have been delivered yet that time and the only drink we had was root beer and I'm not really a fan of root beers. So I had no choice but to drag my little butt to the nearest grocery store to savor the heavenly taste of Coke. Did I sound like an addict there?

Anyway, on second thought my weekend is not a total bummer because I was able to finish a book, Nicholas Sparks' "A Bend in the Road". I like it. It justified the saying "everything happens for a reason". I love the characters. It's the first time that I liked every character in the book, and I felt like if a single character will be taken off the novel I have the feeling that the book wouldn't be the same again. Did you ever read a book to the end then realized that there are some characters that are useless and better off? Don't get me wrong I'm no expert of writing of any sorts because I'm an IT graduate and I only took English courses that are suited for an IT degree. I do write some stuff, but basically those are just informal and stuff that wouldn't likely be published, except on our school paper in high school and college. Anyway, just read the book so that you'll know what I'm talking about.

After this post I will most likely be reading another work of Mr. Sparks "Nights in Rodanthe", I want to finish the book before watching the movie. So that maybe I can tell the difference between the book and the movie and maybe criticize what's lacking on the cinematography. Hahaha just kidding! After all who would believe me, I'm no expert on anything but playing Chocolatier 2 and Jane's realty. Hahaha.

Though my weekend is a loser/geek's weekend, I don't care. I had fun and I was able to rest to the max and I didn't spend on anything (except for the bottle of Coke. :p) I'm trying to save up for my Christmas shopping, I want to start early to avoid the holiday rush that I've experienced the past years. It's September already it's time to start saving up!

This Way is My Way

Neuroses? Let's see... I don't think I have one. So, bye.

Wait! I do! But I can only think of few! Good for me!

First stop: I don't let anybody read nor touch any of the books or magazines that I haven't read or scanned, even if he's Josh Duhamel or Zac Efron. No chance guys. I have my rules.

Second: I eat pizza upside down, my reason? To savor the toppings better! Geesh can I have a better reason than this?

Third: I don't get up before my alarm, even if it's 6:58 and my alarm's set at 7:00 I won't bother getting up. I know what alarm clocks are for and I let it do it's job.

Fourth: I don't take the firsts and last shots of alcoholic drinks, I feel like it'll make me drunk, which is just psychological but I don't care because I'm psycho.

Fifth: It's hard for me to think of books or TV characters merely as fictional characters. For me, they are real and I even dream of being friends with them.

I know, I'm kind of freaking you now... but this is real. This is me.

Movie Date

Ok, I'm coming out. I really feel the need to watch For The First Time this weekend. Not because of KC, definitely not because of Richard, but because some scenes are shot in Santorini, Greece! MY FAVORITE PLACE ON THE PLANET!!! The island is just so gorgeous, I can't help myself. This time it won't matter who I'm going to watch it with because I just have to watch it, even by myself. That's it. My Santorini craving is really high these days, that's because Sisterhood is not showing until the last week of September and they keep playing the trailer of For The First Time

Wanna watch it with me? :)
over and over again on TV.

Too Happy to be Sad

Screw the sad post below, I am too happy to be sad right now. I got the call that I've been waiting for, for like forever! I know I'm exaggerating again, but waiting for almost 3 weeks feels like forever to me, and besides I like to use the word. Anyway, this afternoon I got a call from an unknown number while I was napping, I didn't care to answer my phone suspecting it's from work, maybe they wanted to ask something or worst wants me to come to work earlier. So I didn't answer my phone and tried to sleep again. After my phone rang I regretted not answering it, what if that was the call that I've been waiting for? Then I remembered that I gave them two numbers so if it were the call that I've been waiting for maybe they'll call again through my other number. So I went back to sleep.

When I woke up, I had dinner, then showered after. As I was getting dressed for work my other phone rang and picked it up knowing that only my brother knows my other number and the caller that I've been waiting to call. And I was right! It was the call! I was really nervous at the same time excited. I was stuttering and blabbing maybe. I'm not really sure. All I know is that I'm on, on Monday.

I'll tell you about this call after Monday. I am really giddy and super excited right now.

I am now a fan of John Barrymore's quote "Happiness often sneaks in through a door you didn't know you left open."

Tell me a Funny Story Please

I am sad, not just sad but really,really sad. I can't let anyone know the reason of my sadness as of the moment because a.) I haven't figure out a way to spill it b.) I'm not really good at telling sad stories specially if it involves myself. I don't even know how and where to start.

I know that life is strange but I didn't think it could get this stranger. These past few days I've been having these weird dreams, which consists of a mammoth and an elephant rolled up in bed with me and living in a cave with all the latest technologies. See? It's past weird and went straight to strangeness! And this thing with me and my brother, I don't know what's the cause of this but I feel that's it's getting deeper and we're getting nowhere to clear the air between us. It's just hard because he's the person that I always hang out with, the only person who knows all my most embarrassing moments and the person that I can talk to when I'm feeling sad or just anything. But now I can't even talk to him, we don't see each other anymore. Life sucks when I'm not in talking terms with him.

I really need my mom and some mom meddling in this situation. I miss my brother, I miss my mom. I am really sad.

Can somebody cheer me up? A chat over coffee, smoothie or ice cream will make me feel better.

At this moment, I'm wishing I am friends with Rory and with her mom Lorelei even Lane and Mrs. Kim will do. They're really fun and quirky people. They always know what to say and they give the best punchlines! (I seriously think I better stop watching re-runs of Gilmore Girls anymore).

I watched the season premier of The Hills today because I love the show and it always makes me feel better, but after watching the show it even made me sadder. Lauren, Lo and Audrina are fighting! They can't fight! They are friends, they live together and they're such pretty, pretty friends wearing pretty pretty clothes. You know what's weird about this? I've read the news of them fighting last summer but still I'm affected.

Am I strange? Weird? Peculiar? Tell me.

Why, Oh Why?

I am so sad Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants 2 is not showing until September 24! That's so disappointing as I've been waiting for this movie for too long. And another thing, I can't join my friends (in the states) in talking about the film as they may give away spoilers and of course because I won't be able to watch the film sooner so basically I have nothing to say. I've been searching for a release date here in the Philippines for this film and I wasn't successful until today. I stumbled upon this site and he had a post of the movies that will be released in the country this year. To save you time, I'll just paste the movies and release dates here.

• Wed, Aug 20
  • Movies: Star Wars: The Clone Wars, My Sassy Girl, Room 213, Mother of Tears, Loving You
• Fri, Aug 22
  • Movie: Death Race
• Wed, Aug 27
  • Movies: She, Disaster Movie, Eating Out 2, Congkak
• Wed, Sep 3
  • Movies: Babylon A.D., Love Guru, Three Kingdoms
• Wed, Sep 10
  • Movies: Babang Luksa, Singles, Hellboy 2, Accidental Husband
• Wed, Sep 17
  • Movies: Step Brothers, Mr. Housewives, Crossing Over, BangkokDangerous
• Wed, Sep 24
  • Movies: Amnesya, Mirrors, Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants 2, Demi, Passengers
• Fri, Sep 26
  • Movie: Eagle Eye
• Wed, Oct 1
  • Movies: Land Down Under, American Idol, The House Bunny, Possession, Mutant Chronicles
• Wed, Oct 8
  • Movies: Ultramagnetic Love, Lake View Terrace, Tropic Thunder, The Bachelor 2, Outlander
• Thu, Oct 9
  • Movie: Body of Lies
• Wed, Oct 15
  • Movies: Sundo, Wild Child, Max Payne, The Strangers, City ofEmber
• Wed, Oct 22
  • Movies: Last Full Show, The Brothers Bloom, High School Musical 3, The Pineapple Express, Nights in Rodanthe, Crocodile
• Wed, Oct 29
  • Movies: Righteous Kill, Ace Venura 3, He’s Just Not that intoYou, Angus Thongs and Full Frontal Snogging
• Wed, Nov 5
  • Movie: James Bond: Quantum of Solace
• Fri, Nov 7
  • Madagascar: Escape to Africa
• Wed, Nov 12
  • Movies: Mag Pie, The Women, Buried Alive, Sex Drive
• Thu, Nov 20
  • Movie: Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince
• Wed, Nov 26
  • Movies: When I Met You, The Management, Beverly Hills Chihuahua, Minotaur
• Wed, Dec 3
  • Movies: Quarantine, Four Christmases
• Wed, Dec 10
  • Movies: Rocknrolla, Minimoys, Infestation
• Wed, Dec 17
  • Movies: Carolina, Spring Break

But if you want an updated list weekly you can visit the site.

Jeepney Ride

I've known that our country is undergoing a crisis but I never took it seriously not until yesterday morning when I was commuting my way home. I was waiting for a bus, since Wednesday is a no car/cab day for me. Unfortunately, buses are like cabs they're everywhere when you don't need them but if you do, they're nowhere to be found. After some time waiting, I decided to just take the jeepney since it's just a short commute. After all of us paid our share of fares there was this twenty-something lady asking the driver to give her her change which is Php1.50. The driver wasn't able to hear her because of the loud noise the engine of his jeepney was making. When the lady noticed that the driver wasn't listening to her she called out for her change again, and this time louder. But the driver seemed to not hear her at all. So the lady was like yelling and cursing the driver.

I can't explain what I trully felt that time. I felt sorry for the lady coz I think she really needs every cent she can lay her hands on, maybe her family is on a really tight budget. But I also felt bad for the driver because the lady was cursing him at the top of her lungs, and what if he simply just forgot or just didn't hear the lady?

I know nothing of the lady nor the driver's real side of the story. All I know is that we're all in a very uncovenient, tough, hard and whatever situation now. I really hope I can do something, anything just to be able to help.

Is it a DEAL or NO DEAL?

Not This Time

Why do I have to live my life according to your schedule?

What about my OWN LIFE and my OWN SCHEDULE???

You are so unfair! I've been very kind to you and it's always you who had the advantage of a better parking. THIS is the very first time that I'm actually living my life and there you go ruining it just to suit your whims.

I am not doing it again. FYI I'm trying to have a life here man! Really trying.

Fools Like Me

Here I am again on the road that I often travel, and often times I end up bruised or scraped a knee. But nevertheless when I get to the junction where I have to choose between these two roads: 1.) smooth and safe 2.) unpredictable; full of surprises. I always choose the latter. It’s not that I’m a masochist or anything like it, only that I want challenges and I don’t want to dwell on what ifs. I want to see what awaits for me at the end of the road. Whether it’s a happy ending or not, I don’t really care. At least I’ve tried. And that alone can let me sleep at night not wondering what could be and what not. I love taking risks even if its my own heart that’s at stake.

But I don’t know, I feel like I’m cursed or something… I want to borrow a line from Janet Jackson ‘every time I fall in love it seems to never last’ that best describes it. And more often than not I always fall for guys who think they are born just to play and fool around. And more often than not I’m always in a relationship situation that’s indefinable. The pseudo ones:almost but not quite. Ha! But sometimes it lasts longer than you can imagine, but still it’s just not the real deal.

And here I am again… risking it all for the nth time. But now, it’ll be different. I’ll play my cards well. And I won’t invest as much as I used to. I just hate it when I don’t know if what he’s saying is true or he’s just being funny? I really don’t know! No matter how I try to convince myself that I should just play cool and all, but still my convincing powers doesn’t work and my heart still hopes. I just hope it works and in the end it’ll be a win-win situation.

“Fools like me. How we love blindly. And the cracks won’t count. It’s got to break in front of me.”

One Step at a Time

Lesson learned from Jordin today that we don't have to be in a fuss, to be impatient if we want something to happen, it will happen at the right time. So for now, I'm just going to live one day at a time and take one step at a time.

"One Step At A Time"

Hurry up and wait
So close, but so far away
Everything that you've always dreamed of
Close enough for you to taste
But you just can't touch

You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet
Wonder when and where and how you're gonna make it
You know you can if you get the chance
In your face as the door keeps slamming
Now you're feeling more and more frustrated
And you're getting all kind of impatient waiting

[Chorus:]
We live and we learn to take
One step at a time
There's no need to rush
It's like learning to fly
Or falling in love
It's gonna happen and it's
Supposed to happen that we
Find the reasons why
One step at a time

You believe and you doubt
You're confused, you got it all figured out
Everything that you always wished for
Could be yours, should be yours, would be yours
If they only knew

You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet
Wonder when and where and how you're gonna make it
You know you can if you get the chance
In your face as the door keeps slamming
Now you're feeling more and more frustrated
And you're getting all kind of impatient waiting

[Chorus]

When you can't wait any longer
But there's no end in sight
when you need to find the strength
It's the faith that makes you stronger
The only way you get there
Is one step at a time

[Chorus x2]

Almost Adventure

It's such a long plane ride from Manila to Munich but I don't feel exhausted at all. The service, the food, the very comfy blanket are really superb as well as my flying companion! Oh the perks of flying first class with a close cousin. I'm here in our cozy hotel room with my cousin relaxing for a while before we explore the city and meet up with my other cousins who are based here in Germany. We'll have a dinner tonight with my cousin and her family in their place and maybe hit the hippest club after. We'll be staying here for about a week, we'll explore this city for a while then in August we'll be back but we'll be in Berlin. In a week we'll be strolling the streets of Prague and Vienna. I am so excited about this 2 month long trip! I know it'll be an awesome experience!

Earth to you Kristina! SIGH. Snap back to reality! I'm physically sitting at my post here at work, doing what else? WORK! Whatever happens to living like an European for a couple of months? Doing god knows what in god knows where? And maybe find some hot Euro guy along the way (or hookup with Prince William in London)? In short whatever happened to 'painting the continent scarlet red'? I DON'T KNOW.

I am supposed to be in Germany now! With my cousin. We were supposed to fly together last Friday and start with our 2-month long Euro tour. But because our company sold it's sister company including some of our IT staff I can't take a couple of months off as agreed before. I can't take my break because we are not even enough to cover a 24/7 shift so here I am! I don't know why I'm so good and so loyal that even when I had more than a couple of high paying job offers in other company I didn't accept it because I always said that it's not always about the money. It's about the people you work with, if you're comfortable working with them. And I already told myself that if ever I'll take another job I'll make sure it's not IT related. I want my next job to be the job that I really want. And I want my job to be screaming 'ME'! But now... I'm thinking about quitting and flying to Europe and follow my cousin. I just want to have some time away from work, away from everything. I'm missing the days when I was still in college, being carefree but not careless. And where else would I want to do that? In Europe! I'd rather decide fast before it's not yet too late.

I just hope that my delaying this trip is worth it. But maybe, just maybe.. god have some other (better) plan for me. I hope that plan involves winning the super lotto (though I've never placed any bet), being a rock star, a TV stint, or meeting a Prince (in the Philippines??? Dream on!)!

So much of this... I'm just rubbing it more. I'll just play Chocolatier now, making/eating chocolates can make me feel really better even it's just a game. I need to get my mind occupied till 12nn, because not only I'm working on a Saturday night but also I'll be working 12 hours! So, good luck to me.

MEME 101

Dear Edward.

I don't really know how to tell you this, but I'm selling myself. I think I realized it when I tripped on sesame seeds in your camping car and I saw you sit at my avocado plant.

I'm sure you're emtional enough to understand that Santa doesn't exist.

I'm returning your ring to you, but I'll keep your left ear as a memory.
You should also know that I was interviewed by the Times about the incarnation as an Eskimo.

Your ever lasting enemy,

Kriann

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Do it like this:
Dear (the person who last texted/smsed you).
I don't really know how to tell you this, but ___1___. I think I realized it ___2___ ___3___ and I saw you ___4___ ___5___.

I'm sure you're ___6___ enough to understand ___7___.

I'm returning ___8___ to you, but I'll keep ___9___ as a memory.
You should also know that I ___10___ ___11___.

___12___,
-Your name-

1. What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I'll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn't match
Grey - You're a pervert
Yellow - I'm selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You're a loser
Other - I'm inlove with your sister

2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the shrunken head
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
November - When your dog ran amok
December - When I changed tennis shoes

3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kebab - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women's clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
Annat; With George Bush and his wife

4. What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit at
Other - Drive out

5. What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My best friend
White - My father
Grey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflé
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My penpal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy-statue
Other - The crazy monk

6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs; Man
O.C.; Emotional
One Tree Hill; Open
Heroes; Frostbitten
Lost; High
House; Scarred
Simpsons; Cowardly
The news; Mongolic
Idol; Masochistic
Family Guy; Senile
Top Model; Middle-class
Annat; Ashamed

7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful I've felt
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That Santa doesn't exist
Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we're cousins
Excited - That there is no solution to this.
Nervous - The middle-east
Worried - That your Honda sucks
Apathetic - That I did a sex-change
Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your hamster
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Overjoyous - That I'm open
Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks

8. What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your ring
Yellow - Your love letters
Red - Your Darth Vader-poster
Black - Your tame stone
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - The pictures from LA
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your contact book
Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs
Purple - Your old lottery coupons
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your memories from the military service

9. The first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your photo
C/D - The oil stocks
E/F - Your neighbour Martin
G/H - My virginity
I/J - The results of blood-sample
K/L - Your left ear
M/N - Your suicide note
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X - David's tricot outfits
Y/Z - Your grades from college

10. The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Always will remember
C/D - Never will forget
E/F - Always wanted to break
G/H - Never openly mocked
I/J - Always have felt dirty before
K/L - Will tell the authorities about
M/N - Told in my confession today about
O/P - Was interviewed by the Times about
Q/R - Told my psychiatrist about
S/T - Get sick when I think of
U/V - Always will try to forget
W/X - Am better off without
Y/Z - Never liked

11. What do you prefer to drink?
Water- Our friendship
Beer - Senility
Soft drink - A new life as a clone
Soda - The incarnation as an eskimo
Milk - The apartment building
Wine - Cocaine abuse
Cider - A passionate interest for mice
Juice - Oprah Winfrey imitations
Mineral water - Embarrassing rash
Hot chocolate - Eggplant-fetishism
Whisky - To ruin the second world war
Other - To hate the Boston Celtics

12. To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand - Warm regards
USA - Best regards
England - Good luck on your short-term leave from jail
Spain - Go and drown yourself
China - Disgusting regards
Germany - With ease
Japan - Go burn
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
Australia - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt - Fuck off now
France - In pain
Other - Greetings to your freaky family

Jam Packed Weekend

As the title states I had a very jam packed weekend. So jam packed that I am so exhausted to write all the stuff that I/we did.

FRIDAY night I met up with my MIS buddies, and it's really historical because it's the first time that we had more than 5 people gathered. We planned to meet up at Cappriciosa in Greenbelt 3 at 7 for dinner. But Sheina and I agreed to meet up at 4:30 to catch a movie at G4. Unfortunately, she didn't make it on time for the movie so we just skipped that part. She came from a jamming in QC, and when she was on her way to Makati she was caught up in the heaviest traffic jam in EDSA.(She arrived at past 7)

While waiting for everyone to arrived I stayed seated on the benches near the cinema in G4 for a couple of hours (imagine me seated for 2 hours and all alone), then before 7 I went to Powerbooks in G3 to find some books and do a little reading. After reading about 2 chapters of Like Water for Chocolate, Kuya Red arrived and we went to Capricciosa to score us a table since it's a Friday night the place can get a little crowded.

When we got there we started updating each other with our lives and after a few moments Kitty arrived, then Sheina, then K'Anne (with the boyfs) and lastly Sir Wilson. We had a roller coaster ride of emotions that night, we were excited, happy, shocked, saddened but all in all it was all clean fun! We just love being with each other, and we can make any moment turn into a very unforgettable one.

After dinner we waited for Shein to get a ride home, then we were off to K'Anne's house in Malabon, but we dropped Sir Wil to his workplace before going to K'Anne's place. After dropping K'Anne home we decided to have a quick stop at Metrowalk since the night is still young (1AM). We went to Seafoofd Grill, and talked over a bucket of booze, sisig and baked oysters. I tell you their oysters are superb! At par with the ones from Mr. Rockefeller, Oyster Boy and Murray's in High Street. And after some drunken talking we decided to walk to 'wash down' the booze. We've gone to the Banchetto day on Emerald Ave, and tried hard not to get tempted with the food and tried not to smell like food! The air was filled with seafood aroma. Then we walked a bit further to find a drugstore but all we've passed by are already closed so we end up walking from Metrowalk to Crossing! We let Kitty get into her cab and then kuya Red and I stayed at a fast food and had our drunken sleepy conversation over a hot fudge sundae. Then at 4:30AM we then went our separate ways and headed home.

SATURDAY

I woke up past noon and (oh god) I missed the 12NN mass. My officemates and I had a SMS conference. We were finalizing our night out together. At first it was like stop and go but we settled at go. And so our Saturday night out was set. They were going to pick me up along EDSA near Poveda at past 8. But before I went to our meeting place I stop by the shrine and said my prayers. I also asked for forgiveness for missing mass, and for everything that I was about to do (e.g. getting drunk). Then we headed to West Ave. to spend a comedic night. It was really fun, the acts are really funny hilarious! And good thing that I capped off the night with only 3 bottles of Coors, some nachos and no drunk-related episodes for me and for anyone in the group. And take note I got home earlier, like two-ish early.

SUNDAY

The the most productive of all days. Though I woke up past noon again, I was able to squeeze some "laundry business", and tidied up my place a little. Then I got a text message from Kuya Red inviting me to watch a movie with his officemates. And so I did go, but we heard mass first. Unfortunately, I only understood a phrase or three because the presiding priest had this really heavy Asian accent. It was like Indonesian-Vietnamese-Thai with a provincial Filipino accent. That heavy man! So we had a hard time deciphering the words that he said.

At 5PM, we were still in EDSA shrine and we need to get to Mega (where kuya Red's friends are waiting) before the movie starts at 5:15. We were almost running just to get to the cab lane which is at the far end of Galleria. Luckily we got to the cinema at 5:10 but the line at the ticket counters are effing long, as well as the snacks section! Good thing we got to the cinema not long after the movie started. So it was still well and good for us, the running was worth it. (we watched Wanted, I know I'm late again, ok?).

After the movie we ate at Dencio's. THEN. I headed to work. Yes, I had a shift at work that night. And the most productive part is... I've acquired all the factories in Chocolatier 2! Huh! I'm very good at it! And not only that I also have more than $20 mil! I'm so rich! I spent 8 hours playing Chocolatier (shhh don't tell my boss). But there was nothing else to do that night... I made sure that I've finished all the reports that I need to do and I wasn't like not monitoring our dialers. In fact I did, and there was a supervisor who's really annoying he kept on calling for every 5 minutes. So annoying, specially when I'm playing Chocolatier! Hahaha.

Anyway, that's how my weekend was. My body was dead tired but my spirit is glowing. And I went to bed this morning with a huge smile on my face.

Answered Prayers

It's already the 1st of July! We're halfway to 2009, how quickly time flies. The past week I got a forwarded SMS from a very close friend that says "It's funny how day by day nothing changes, but when you look back everything is different." This is so true. I'm talking about personal experience here people. It seemed to me that I lived and based my life in a time table. Work and home and a little shopping and going out on the side. I used to complain on the way I live my life because it seemed to me that everything is just the same. Same old boring life. But looking back now, I realized that even I thought I lived the same day everyday, everything is so different now. Am I making any sense to you? I hope so, because knowing myself I tend to blab about anything that comes to my head then I tend to deviate from what I just blabbed about.

Anyway I never thought that I'd come this far before I'll figure what I would really want to be doing (not for the rest of my life), let's say before my retirement years. I wouldn't say that I want to be doing this for the rest of my life because who wouldn't want to enjoy spending all day at the beach or in a farm just doing anything you feel like doing? Raise your feet! Ok, snap back to what I'm talking about. I had all the signs all along, I just didn't recognize it, I was busy looking for something that's not there and I bet it won't be there for a long time. I figured this when I was on my way home yesterday. I thought about my high school friends and I recalled our graduation day and the class prophecy that we had. When we were asked what we wanted to be years after graduation I placed there that I would be hosting CNN style. See? It was in me all along! And I recall that I begged my dad (grandfather) to let me take up Broadcast Journalism in college. And now I wonder no more why I'm drawn to news personalities and why I am such a news junkie. I've been fervently praying to god to help me find my way, and alas yesterday it dawned on me. After realizing this, the only thing that I need to figure out is how will I make it come true.

Maybe I'll practice "The Secret" way of doing things, perhaps... do other than that. Or just wait till everything falls right into their proper places. Let's wait and see.

The Waiting Game

It's hard to wait for something to happen specially when the chance for it to come true is very measly. I just wish I know when to stop waiting, and start to accept that it may never happen.

I really think there should be a deadline in waiting or just an alarm/warning to tell you not to wait for something anymore when it's way far from happening.

But knowing myself, I rarely give up on anything. So, even if that means waiting forever... I'll do it. Specially when I know it'll be worth all the waiting. And I know deep in me that god will make a way when there seems to be no way. I trust him.