Celebrate Love

Wow! It's barely a couple of weeks before Christmas. I am so excited to give presents to the people I love. I can't believe that I'm almost done with my Christmas shopping, as you can remember that last year I was on a last minute shopping. So this year is really different. I'm not in any sort of rush.

As to where to spend the holidays, I'm not really sure. My initial plan was to come home to the province and spend the holidays with my family there, but there are some major changes now. Turns out I'm not going to spend it in Zamboanga. Truth is, I really don't know where I'll be spending it. My mom and I are going to meet somewhere, she haven't told me the details yet, and by details I mean where and when. So it's really a surprise for me. I'm leaving everything to her now. I trust her because I know my mom too well and I know that she'll never put me in a bad position, and in my case, I place that I wouldn't like. And for sure that place will be really fun and cool. And knowing my mom, that place should have a very nice place for shopping. I am so excited! Or not. Because I so hate surprises! I've been begging my mom to give me some clues but her lips are very sealed. So I just need to be very patient.

I got my mom the phone that she's been lusting for quite sometime now. I also got my younger and college cousins some cool gadgets. Because I am a cool ate! Hahaha! I wish they see me as cool though. Ooops, I think I need to stop revealing my presents so not to spoil their excitement.

I don't expect any in return, because I give gifts because I wanted to and I think they deserve it not because I expect something in return.

Also, I've been listening to Jordan Pruitt's Celebrate Love. I really love the song.

Celebrate Love - Jordan Pruitt

Advance happy holidays everyone!

Don't Go Leaving...

Don't you just hate it when someone leaves without telling you the reason? And when they get back they pretend that everything's fine and like they didn't leave at all.

That's what I'm going through now, I have these 2 persons who left me without telling me why. Person A was the first to leave, mid August. I thought we were good and out of the blue he told me that he had to leave, and then he did and left me hanging. I was really devastated because I didn't see it coming, I didn't picture us apart that soon.

Well anyway, yesterday I got a call from him and told me that he got back the other day and wants to hang out the way we did before. "As if I never left" that's what he said. Say what? So, he just wants me to pretend that everything is cool between us when it's not? I can't do that! I just got over his leaving me, and now he wants to hang around because maybe... just maybe he wants to stick around longer? The hell he does. So what does that make me? A hotel receptionist welcoming him when he arrives and just smile and wave when he wants to take off again?

I got to admit, he's offer is tempting but I need to get my guards up this time. I don't want to go over brooding all over again.

And this Person B he left just recently, still I don't why. Actually, I have some idea why but I want to hear it straight from him. I know I'm not the reason he left but I can't just imagine him throwing away his life for just a person. Though I know that he needs to clear his mind and get his ducks in a row but still running away is not the answer. Maybe we're just two different persons because if something went wrong in my life I won't be running away. I face the problems and try to figure out where did I go wrong. Person B rarely communicates with me now. I know I'm not his favorite person now because he knows me well that I'm only going to give him a lecture about responsibilities and everything. I wish him well, specially in this season.

Well, I just hope everyone's well and good for the holidays. And please if you have any opinion or comment about what I'm going to do with person A, feel free to post your thoughts. :)

Diaphanous

"In a dream you appear,
For a while you are near,
So I keep sleeping,
Just to keep you with me..."

You think I'm pathetic for doing this? No, this isn't one of those "lover's dream", it's more than that. These dreams are about people who meant so much to me, my family and the person who's been my inspiration for the longest time ever.

I'm not really a blabber these days, I'm brooding on my own. As much as I want to share it with anyone, but I also don't want the world to know my story.

Life is complicated, but as they say "Life is what you make it".

"Life is hard or it's a party, the choice is up to YOU."

Thanks Hannah for the wonderful insights. :)