Monday, December 15, 2008

Celebrate Love

Wow! It's barely a couple of weeks before Christmas. I am so excited to give presents to the people I love. I can't believe that I'm almost done with my Christmas shopping, as you can remember that last year I was on a last minute shopping. So this year is really different. I'm not in any sort of rush.

As to where to spend the holidays, I'm not really sure. My initial plan was to come home to the province and spend the holidays with my family there, but there are some major changes now. Turns out I'm not going to spend it in Zamboanga. Truth is, I really don't know where I'll be spending it. My mom and I are going to meet somewhere, she haven't told me the details yet, and by details I mean where and when. So it's really a surprise for me. I'm leaving everything to her now. I trust her because I know my mom too well and I know that she'll never put me in a bad position, and in my case, I place that I wouldn't like. And for sure that place will be really fun and cool. And knowing my mom, that place should have a very nice place for shopping. I am so excited! Or not. Because I so hate surprises! I've been begging my mom to give me some clues but her lips are very sealed. So I just need to be very patient.

I got my mom the phone that she's been lusting for quite sometime now. I also got my younger and college cousins some cool gadgets. Because I am a cool ate! Hahaha! I wish they see me as cool though. Ooops, I think I need to stop revealing my presents so not to spoil their excitement.

I don't expect any in return, because I give gifts because I wanted to and I think they deserve it not because I expect something in return.

Also, I've been listening to Jordan Pruitt's Celebrate Love. I really love the song.

Celebrate Love - Jordan Pruitt

Advance happy holidays everyone!

Thursday, December 11, 2008

Don't Go Leaving...

Don't you just hate it when someone leaves without telling you the reason? And when they get back they pretend that everything's fine and like they didn't leave at all.

That's what I'm going through now, I have these 2 persons who left me without telling me why. Person A was the first to leave, mid August. I thought we were good and out of the blue he told me that he had to leave, and then he did and left me hanging. I was really devastated because I didn't see it coming, I didn't picture us apart that soon.

Well anyway, yesterday I got a call from him and told me that he got back the other day and wants to hang out the way we did before. "As if I never left" that's what he said. Say what? So, he just wants me to pretend that everything is cool between us when it's not? I can't do that! I just got over his leaving me, and now he wants to hang around because maybe... just maybe he wants to stick around longer? The hell he does. So what does that make me? A hotel receptionist welcoming him when he arrives and just smile and wave when he wants to take off again?

I got to admit, he's offer is tempting but I need to get my guards up this time. I don't want to go over brooding all over again.

And this Person B he left just recently, still I don't why. Actually, I have some idea why but I want to hear it straight from him. I know I'm not the reason he left but I can't just imagine him throwing away his life for just a person. Though I know that he needs to clear his mind and get his ducks in a row but still running away is not the answer. Maybe we're just two different persons because if something went wrong in my life I won't be running away. I face the problems and try to figure out where did I go wrong. Person B rarely communicates with me now. I know I'm not his favorite person now because he knows me well that I'm only going to give him a lecture about responsibilities and everything. I wish him well, specially in this season.

Well, I just hope everyone's well and good for the holidays. And please if you have any opinion or comment about what I'm going to do with person A, feel free to post your thoughts. :)


Tuesday, December 2, 2008

Diaphanous

"In a dream you appear,
For a while you are near,
So I keep sleeping,
Just to keep you with me..."

You think I'm pathetic for doing this? No, this isn't one of those "lover's dream", it's more than that. These dreams are about people who meant so much to me, my family and the person who's been my inspiration for the longest time ever.

I'm not really a blabber these days, I'm brooding on my own. As much as I want to share it with anyone, but I also don't want the world to know my story.

Life is complicated, but as they say "Life is what you make it".

"Life is hard or it's a party, the choice is up to YOU."

Thanks Hannah for the wonderful insights. :)

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

What's the Deal?

Whoa for a while I forgot that I have a blog that needs to be updated. I'll be using the same lame old reason... I've been busy. (Duh as if I've got tons of readers, I'll be lucky if I have one, other than myself of course.) It's for real this time, I'm not busy doing nothing, rather I am busy doing EVERYTHING!

I've been spending toxic nights at work. And been doing sketches and plans for my future business. Don't ask me yet, coz if I'll tell you I'll have to kill you. Understood?! Just kidding! But still I can't spill it, not until it's realized.

And oh, I forgot to update you about the Deal or No Deal game. I already played, and I won 200 pesos! Hahaha! On the first round, I open the briefcase with 1 million pesos, on the second round, the 500K and 2M and it just went on and on. I kept opening the big amounts. So that's it, I ended up with 200 pesos. I have no regrets, I'm lucky enough to be playing there. And besides, there are about 20 thousand Filipinos who texted and I was lucky to be chosen. And hey, as Kris always say that when a person is unlucky in love, he/she gets to win big amounts. So does that mean that I'll be lucky in love soon? I can only wish!

Saturday, November 1, 2008

I Got It All

I got the brother problem. I got the flu. I got tonsillitis. I got the biggest zits (3 of them). I got the stuffiest nose. But who cares? Who gets to play on Deal or No Deal on Tuesday? It's got to be me!

Wish me luck. :)

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

I'm Letting Go

... of the life I've planned for me and my dreams
I'm losing control of my destiny
Feels like I'm falling and that's what it's like to believe
So I'm letting go...

This is a giant leap of faith
Trusting and trying to embrace

The fear of the unknown
Beyond my comfort zone.

Giving in to your gravity
Knowing that you are holding me
I'm not afraid

Feels like I'm falling but that's what it's like to believe
Feels like I'm falling but this is the life for me

I' m letting go...

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

Sisterhood and Marciano's

As you all know I've been waiting for the Sisterhood of Traveling Pants 2 movie for like forever. So when it finally opened here in the country I was so excited to watch it. I already read all the books with the same title and I like it so I was really giddy to watch the movie. The fact that it stars the stars of my favorite TV characters, Serena Van Der Woodsen (Gossip Girl), Betty Suarez (Ugly Betty) and Rory Gilmore (Gilmore Girls). It's not like I don't like Amber Tamblyn because I totally dig and like her as Tibby, it's just that she isn't one of my favorite TV characters for the obvious reason that she doesn't have a TV show! Anyway, about the movie. I can't say that I was really thrilled after but I wasn't disappointed either. I should blame myself for reading those books first. I never learned that it would always be better if I watch the movie first before reading the books so that I won't be expecting that much and comparing it with the book after. I should always remember that books and movies are different. You can't fit a 500 something pages book to a 2 hour movie.

Anyway, have I told you that I watched the movie with Sheina? No? Ok, so I watched it with her last Monday. It was sort of a bonding time for us. After watching the movie, we had dinner at Marciano's on Greenbelt 3. The food there is superb! I love Tastes like Barney's salad and Peter Petrelli's grilled chicken is also yummy just like it's namesake! I also love the ambiance, it was so New Yorkish! The black and silver "royalty" chairs as I like to call it and the chandeliers are a big plus! We also had wine, even though I had to go to work after. I intended to blog about it right when I got to work that night, unfortunately I was so sleepy because of the wine and have completely forgotten about it.





Wednesday, September 3, 2008

A Night with Nights in Rodanthe


So I told you that after posting the entry before this I'll be reading the Nights in Rodanthe. I did not but did. I did not because I did not read it right after for no reason at all and I did because I've read it during my shift tonight. I also love (once again) and hate Nicholas Sparks at the same time. I love him because he wrote another good novel but I also hate him because he put me in the verge of tears. I really wanted to cry, if only I was at home I could have cried a bucket but then again I'm here at work. It was so hard for me reading the very tear-jerking part and not be able to let loose a single tear because my officemates might notice and would ask me why. If you didn't know, I'm the only femme working with a bunch of guys in our office so it's really hard. When I got to that 'part', my heart was really crushed and I think I felt what Adrienne felt that time. It was like I was the person in the book. The book is at the same time heart-warming and heart-breaking.

I know I've been making one to many contradicting points here, but it is what I'm feeling now. Unlike
A Bend in the Road that's tragedy then happiness, this book it's like tragedy-happiness-tragedy-contentment. Though the protagonists of this book are of middle ages but still I can relate to them. I felt the lost of the lady protagonist who went through divorce and found a new love then dealt with the grief of the death of her new found love alone but still found her strength to live each day not just for herself but also for her family. It left me wondering if was there ever a time my mom went through this phase when she and my dad separated. I wondered if like Amanda, Adrienne's daughter I was blinded to my mom's grief and solitude because I was busy running away from everything that happend to our family, and was busy building my own world where I had a picture perfect family. I'm not insensitive when it comes to my family, but as I've been saying I'm no expert. And how would I know if my mom does cry herself to sleep like I do because where miles apart? And I bet she also didn't know that stage of my life because she was also busy dealing with her stuff.

But one thing I've learned from this book, is that nothing can ever make you feel better but yourself, and you won't get over losing someone/something you just get used to the pain and it's up to you if you'll let yourself be eaten by it. It all boils down to you wanting to give up or go on with life. It's a matter of choice.

I just hope that when all else fails life is as simple as CTRL-ALT-DEL.

Monday, September 1, 2008

Bummer's Weekend

So my weekend was a bummer! All I did was just sleep and eat, watch TV and surf the net. I didn't get to watch a movie, and the only time I went out of our place is when I bought a bottle of Coke, I had no choice because no drinking water have been delivered yet that time and the only drink we had was root beer and I'm not really a fan of root beers. So I had no choice but to drag my little butt to the nearest grocery store to savor the heavenly taste of Coke. Did I sound like an addict there?

Anyway, on second thought my weekend is not a total bummer because I was able to finish a book, Nicholas Sparks' "A Bend in the Road". I like it. It justified the saying "everything happens for a reason". I love the characters. It's the first time that I liked every character in the book, and I felt like if a single character will be taken off the novel I have the feeling that the book wouldn't be the same again. Did you ever read a book to the end then realized that there are some characters that are useless and better off? Don't get me wrong I'm no expert of writing of any sorts because I'm an IT graduate and I only took English courses that are suited for an IT degree. I do write some stuff, but basically those are just informal and stuff that wouldn't likely be published, except on our school paper in high school and college. Anyway, just read the book so that you'll know what I'm talking about.

After this post I will most likely be reading another work of Mr. Sparks "Nights in Rodanthe", I want to finish the book before watching the movie. So that maybe I can tell the difference between the book and the movie and maybe criticize what's lacking on the cinematography. Hahaha just kidding! After all who would believe me, I'm no expert on anything but playing Chocolatier 2 and Jane's realty. Hahaha.

Though my weekend is a loser/geek's weekend, I don't care. I had fun and I was able to rest to the max and I didn't spend on anything (except for the bottle of Coke. :p) I'm trying to save up for my Christmas shopping, I want to start early to avoid the holiday rush that I've experienced the past years. It's September already it's time to start saving up!

Saturday, August 30, 2008

This Way is My Way

Neuroses? Let's see... I don't think I have one. So, bye.

Wait! I do! But I can only think of few! Good for me!

First stop: I don't let anybody read nor touch any of the books or magazines that I haven't read or scanned, even if he's Josh Duhamel or Zac Efron. No chance guys. I have my rules.

Second: I eat pizza upside down, my reason? To savor the toppings better! Geesh can I have a better reason than this?

Third:
I don't get up before my alarm, even if it's 6:58 and my alarm's set at 7:00 I won't bother getting up. I know what alarm clocks are for and I let it do it's job.

Fourth:
I don't take the firsts and last shots of alcoholic drinks, I feel like it'll make me drunk, which is just psychological but I don't care because I'm psycho.

Fifth: It's hard for me to think of books or TV characters merely as fictional characters. For me, they are real and I even dream of being friends with them.

I know, I'm kind of freaking you now... but this is real. This is me.

Movie Date

Ok, I'm coming out. I really feel the need to watch For The First Time this weekend. Not because of KC, definitely not because of Richard, but because some scenes are shot in Santorini, Greece! MY FAVORITE PLACE ON THE PLANET!!! The island is just so gorgeous, I can't help myself. This time it won't matter who I'm going to watch it with because I just have to watch it, even by myself. That's it. My Santorini craving is really high these days, that's because Sisterhood is not showing until the last week of September and they keep playing the trailer of For The First Time

Wanna watch it with me? :)
over and over again on TV.

Friday, August 22, 2008

Too Happy to be Sad

Screw the sad post below, I am too happy to be sad right now. I got the call that I've been waiting for, for like forever! I know I'm exaggerating again, but waiting for almost 3 weeks feels like forever to me, and besides I like to use the word. Anyway, this afternoon I got a call from an unknown number while I was napping, I didn't care to answer my phone suspecting it's from work, maybe they wanted to ask something or worst wants me to come to work earlier. So I didn't answer my phone and tried to sleep again. After my phone rang I regretted not answering it, what if that was the call that I've been waiting for? Then I remembered that I gave them two numbers so if it were the call that I've been waiting for maybe they'll call again through my other number. So I went back to sleep.

When I woke up, I had dinner, then showered after. As I was getting dressed for work my other phone rang and picked it up knowing that only my brother knows my other number and the caller that I've been waiting to call. And I was right! It was the call! I was really nervous at the same time excited. I was stuttering and blabbing maybe. I'm not really sure. All I know is that I'm on, on Monday.

I'll tell you about this call after Monday. I am really giddy and super excited right now.

I am now a fan of John Barrymore's quote "Happiness often sneaks in through a door you didn't know you left open."

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Tell me a Funny Story Please

I am sad, not just sad but really,really sad. I can't let anyone know the reason of my sadness as of the moment because a.) I haven't figure out a way to spill it b.) I'm not really good at telling sad stories specially if it involves myself. I don't even know how and where to start.

I know that life is strange but I didn't think it could get this
stranger. These past few days I've been having these weird dreams, which consists of a mammoth and an elephant rolled up in bed with me and living in a cave with all the latest technologies. See? It's past weird and went straight to strangeness! And this thing with me and my brother, I don't know what's the cause of this but I feel that's it's getting deeper and we're getting nowhere to clear the air between us. It's just hard because he's the person that I always hang out with, the only person who knows all my most embarrassing moments and the person that I can talk to when I'm feeling sad or just anything. But now I can't even talk to him, we don't see each other anymore. Life sucks when I'm not in talking terms with him.

I really need my mom and some mom meddling in this situation. I miss my brother, I miss my mom. I am really sad.

Can somebody cheer me up? A chat over coffee, smoothie or ice cream will make me feel better.

At this moment, I'm wishing I am friends with Rory and with her mom Lorelei even Lane and Mrs. Kim will do. They're really fun and quirky people. They always know what to say and they give the best punchlines! (I seriously think I better stop watching re-runs of Gilmore Girls anymore).

I watched the season premier of The Hills today because I love the show and it always makes me feel better, but after watching the show it even made me sadder. Lauren, Lo and Audrina are fighting! They can't fight! They are friends, they live together and they're such pretty, pretty friends wearing pretty pretty clothes. You know what's weird about this? I've read the news of them fighting last summer but still I'm affected.

Am I strange? Weird? Peculiar? Tell me.

Thursday, August 14, 2008

Why, Oh Why?

I am so sad Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants 2 is not showing until September 24! That's so disappointing as I've been waiting for this movie for too long. And another thing, I can't join my friends (in the states) in talking about the film as they may give away spoilers and of course because I won't be able to watch the film sooner so basically I have nothing to say. I've been searching for a release date here in the Philippines for this film and I wasn't successful until today. I stumbled upon this site and he had a post of the movies that will be released in the country this year. To save you time, I'll just paste the movies and release dates here.

  • Wed, Aug 20
    • Movies: Star Wars: The Clone Wars, My Sassy Girl, Room 213, Mother of Tears, Loving You
  • Fri, Aug 22
    • Movie: Death Race
  • Wed, Aug 27
    • Movies: She, Disaster Movie, Eating Out 2, Congkak
  • Wed, Sep 3
    • Movies: Babylon A.D., Love Guru, Three Kingdoms
  • Wed, Sep 10
    • Movies: Babang Luksa, Singles, Hellboy 2, Accidental Husband
  • Wed, Sep 17
    • Movies: Step Brothers, Mr. Housewives, Crossing Over, BangkokDangerous
  • Wed, Sep 24
    • Movies: Amnesya, Mirrors, Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants 2, Demi, Passengers
  • Fri, Sep 26
    • Movie: Eagle Eye
  • Wed, Oct 1
    • Movies: Land Down Under, American Idol, The House Bunny, Possession, Mutant Chronicles
  • Wed, Oct 8
    • Movies: Ultramagnetic Love, Lake View Terrace, Tropic Thunder, The Bachelor 2, Outlander
  • Thu, Oct 9
    • Movie: Body of Lies
  • Wed, Oct 15
    • Movies: Sundo, Wild Child, Max Payne, The Strangers, City ofEmber
  • Wed, Oct 22
    • Movies: Last Full Show, The Brothers Bloom, High School Musical 3, The Pineapple Express, Nights in Rodanthe, Crocodile
  • Wed, Oct 29
    • Movies: Righteous Kill, Ace Venura 3, He’s Just Not that intoYou, Angus Thongs and Full Frontal Snogging
  • Wed, Nov 5
    • Movie: James Bond: Quantum of Solace
  • Fri, Nov 7
    • Madagascar: Escape to Africa
  • Wed, Nov 12
    • Movies: Mag Pie, The Women, Buried Alive, Sex Drive
  • Thu, Nov 20
    • Movie: Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince
  • Wed, Nov 26
    • Movies: When I Met You, The Management, Beverly Hills Chihuahua, Minotaur
  • Wed, Dec 3
    • Movies: Quarantine, Four Christmases
  • Wed, Dec 10
    • Movies: Rocknrolla, Minimoys, Infestation
  • Wed, Dec 17
    • Movies: Carolina, Spring Break
But if you want an updated list weekly you can visit the site.

Thursday, August 7, 2008

Jeepney Ride


I've known that our country is undergoing a crisis but I never took it seriously not until yesterday morning when I was commuting my way home. I was waiting for a bus, since Wednesday is a no car/cab day for me. Unfortunately, buses are like cabs they're everywhere when you don't need them but if you do, they're nowhere to be found. After some time waiting, I decided to just take the jeepney since it's just a short commute. After all of us paid our share of fares there was this twenty-something lady asking the driver to give her her change which is Php1.50. The driver wasn't able to hear her because of the loud noise the engine of his jeepney was making. When the lady noticed that the driver wasn't listening to her she called out for her change again, and this time louder. But the driver seemed to not hear her at all. So the lady was like yelling and cursing the driver.


I can't explain what I trully felt that time. I felt sorry for the lady coz I think she really needs every cent she can lay her hands on, maybe her family is on a really tight budget. But I also felt bad for the driver because the lady was cursing him at the top of her lungs, and what if he simply just forgot or just didn't hear the lady?


I know nothing of the lady nor the driver's real side of the story. All I know is that we're all in a very uncovenient, tough, hard and whatever situation now. I really hope I can do something, anything just to be able to help.

Monday, July 21, 2008

Not This Time

Why do I have to live my life according to your schedule?

What about my
OWN LIFE and my OWN SCHEDULE???

You are so unfair! I've been very kind to you and it's always you who had the advantage of a better parking.
THIS is the very first time that I'm actually living my life and there you go ruining it just to suit your whims.

I am not doing it again. FYI I'm trying to have a life here man! Really trying.

Thursday, July 17, 2008

Fools Like Me

Here I am again on the road that I often travel, and often times I end up bruised or scraped a knee. But nevertheless when I get to the junction where I have to choose between these two roads: 1.) smooth and safe 2.) unpredictable; full of surprises. I always choose the latter. It’s not that I’m a masochist or anything like it, only that I want challenges and I don’t want to dwell on what ifs. I want to see what awaits for me at the end of the road. Whether it’s a happy ending or not, I don’t really care. At least I’ve tried. And that alone can let me sleep at night not wondering what could be and what not. I love taking risks even if its my own heart that’s at stake.

But I don’t know, I feel like I’m cursed or something… I want to borrow a line from Janet Jackson ‘every time I fall in love it seems to never last’ that best describes it. And more often than not I always fall for guys who think they are born just to play and fool around. And more often than not I’m always in a relationship situation that’s indefinable. The pseudo ones:almost but not quite. Ha! But sometimes it lasts longer than you can imagine, but still it’s just not the real deal.

And here I am again… risking it all for the nth time. But now, it’ll be different. I’ll play my cards well. And I won’t invest as much as I used to. I just hate it when I don’t know if what he’s saying is true or he’s just being funny? I really don’t know! No matter how I try to convince myself that I should just play cool and all, but still my convincing powers doesn’t work and my heart still hopes. I just hope it works and in the end it’ll be a win-win situation.

“Fools like me. How we love blindly. And the cracks won’t count. It’s got to break in front of me.”

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

One Step at a Time

Lesson learned from Jordin today that we don't have to be in a fuss, to be impatient if we want something to happen, it will happen at the right time. So for now, I'm just going to live one day at a time and take one step at a time.


"One Step At A Time"

Hurry up and wait
So close, but so far away
Everything that you've always dreamed of
Close enough for you to taste
But you just can't touch

You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet
Wonder when and where and how you're gonna make it
You know you can if you get the chance
In your face as the door keeps slamming
Now you're feeling more and more frustrated
And you're getting all kind of impatient waiting

[Chorus:]
We live and we learn to take
One step at a time
There's no need to rush
It's like learning to fly
Or falling in love
It's gonna happen and it's
Supposed to happen that we
Find the reasons why
One step at a time

You believe and you doubt
You're confused, you got it all figured out
Everything that you always wished for
Could be yours, should be yours, would be yours
If they only knew

You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet
Wonder when and where and how you're gonna make it
You know you can if you get the chance
In your face as the door keeps slamming
Now you're feeling more and more frustrated
And you're getting all kind of impatient waiting

[Chorus]

When you can't wait any longer
But there's no end in sight
when you need to find the strength
It's the faith that makes you stronger
The only way you get there
Is one step at a time

[Chorus x2]


Sunday, July 13, 2008

Almost Adventure

It's such a long plane ride from Manila to Munich but I don't feel exhausted at all. The service, the food, the very comfy blanket are really superb as well as my flying companion! Oh the perks of flying first class with a close cousin. I'm here in our cozy hotel room with my cousin relaxing for a while before we explore the city and meet up with my other cousins who are based here in Germany. We'll have a dinner tonight with my cousin and her family in their place and maybe hit the hippest club after. We'll be staying here for about a week, we'll explore this city for a while then in August we'll be back but we'll be in Berlin. In a week we'll be strolling the streets of Prague and Vienna. I am so excited about this 2 month long trip! I know it'll be an awesome experience!

Earth to you Kristina! SIGH. Snap back to reality! I'm physically sitting at my post here at work, doing what else? WORK! Whatever happens to living like an European for a couple of months? Doing god knows what in god knows where? And maybe find some hot Euro guy along the way (or hookup with Prince William in London)? In short whatever happened to 'painting the continent scarlet red'? I DON'T KNOW.

I am supposed to be in Germany now! With my cousin. We were supposed to fly together last Friday and start with our 2-month long Euro tour. But because our company sold it's sister company including some of our IT staff I can't take a couple of months off as agreed before. I can't take my break because we are not even enough to cover a 24/7 shift so here I am! I don't know why I'm so good and so loyal that even when I had more than a couple of high paying job offers in other company I didn't accept it because I always said that it's not always about the money. It's about the people you work with, if you're comfortable working with them. And I already told myself that if ever I'll take another job I'll make sure it's not IT related. I want my next job to be the job that I really want. And I want my job to be screaming 'ME'! But now... I'm thinking about quitting and flying to Europe and follow my cousin. I just want to have some time away from work, away from everything. I'm missing the days when I was still in college, being carefree but not careless. And where else would I want to do that? In Europe! I'd rather decide fast before it's not yet too late.

I just hope that my delaying this trip is worth it. But maybe, just maybe.. god have some other (better) plan for me. I hope that plan involves winning the super lotto (though I've never placed any bet), being a rock star, a TV stint, or meeting a Prince (in the Philippines??? Dream on!)!

So much of this... I'm just rubbing it more. I'll just play Chocolatier now, making/eating chocolates can make me feel really better even it's just a game. I need to get my mind occupied till 12nn, because not only I'm working on a Saturday night but also I'll be working 12 hours! So, good luck to me.

Friday, July 11, 2008

MEME 101

Dear Edward.

I don't really know how to tell you this, but I'm selling myself. I think I realized it when I tripped on sesame seeds in your camping car and I saw you sit at my avocado plant.

I'm sure you're emtional enough to understand that Santa doesn't exist.

I'm returning your ring to you, but I'll keep your left ear as a memory.
You should also know that I was interviewed by the Times about the incarnation as an Eskimo.

Your ever lasting enemy,

Kriann
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Do it like this:
Dear (the person who last texted/smsed you).
I don't really know how to tell you this, but ___1___. I think I realized it ___2___ ___3___ and I saw you ___4___ ___5___.

I'm sure you're ___6___ enough to understand ___7___.

I'm returning ___8___ to you, but I'll keep ___9___ as a memory.
You should also know that I ___10___ ___11___.

___12___,
-Your name-

1. What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I'll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn't match
Grey - You're a pervert
Yellow - I'm selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You're a loser
Other - I'm inlove with your sister

2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the shrunken head
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
November - When your dog ran amok
December - When I changed tennis shoes

3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kebab - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women's clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
Annat; With George Bush and his wife

4. What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit at
Other - Drive out

5. What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My best friend
White - My father
Grey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflƩ
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My penpal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy-statue
Other - The crazy monk

6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs; Man
O.C.; Emotional
One Tree Hill; Open
Heroes; Frostbitten
Lost; High
House; Scarred
Simpsons; Cowardly
The news; Mongolic
Idol; Masochistic
Family Guy; Senile
Top Model; Middle-class
Annat; Ashamed

7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful I've felt
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That Santa doesn't exist
Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we're cousins
Excited - That there is no solution to this.
Nervous - The middle-east
Worried - That your Honda sucks
Apathetic - That I did a sex-change
Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your hamster
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Overjoyous - That I'm open
Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks

8. What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your ring
Yellow - Your love letters
Red - Your Darth Vader-poster
Black - Your tame stone
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - The pictures from LA
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your contact book
Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs
Purple - Your old lottery coupons
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your memories from the military service

9. The first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your photo
C/D - The oil stocks
E/F - Your neighbour Martin
G/H - My virginity
I/J - The results of blood-sample
K/L - Your left ear
M/N - Your suicide note
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X - David's tricot outfits
Y/Z - Your grades from college

10. The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Always will remember
C/D - Never will forget
E/F - Always wanted to break
G/H - Never openly mocked
I/J - Always have felt dirty before
K/L - Will tell the authorities about
M/N - Told in my confession today about
O/P - Was interviewed by the Times about
Q/R - Told my psychiatrist about
S/T - Get sick when I think of
U/V - Always will try to forget
W/X - Am better off without
Y/Z - Never liked

11. What do you prefer to drink?
Water- Our friendship
Beer - Senility
Soft drink - A new life as a clone
Soda - The incarnation as an eskimo
Milk - The apartment building
Wine - Cocaine abuse
Cider - A passionate interest for mice
Juice - Oprah Winfrey imitations
Mineral water - Embarrassing rash
Hot chocolate - Eggplant-fetishism
Whisky - To ruin the second world war
Other - To hate the Boston Celtics

12. To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand - Warm regards
USA - Best regards
England - Good luck on your short-term leave from jail
Spain - Go and drown yourself
China - Disgusting regards
Germany - With ease
Japan - Go burn
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
Australia - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt - Fuck off now
France - In pain
Other - Greetings to your freaky family

Tuesday, July 8, 2008

Jam Packed Weekend

As the title states I had a very jam packed weekend. So jam packed that I am so exhausted to write all the stuff that I/we did.

FRIDAY night I met up with my MIS buddies, and it's really historical because it's the first time that we had more than 5 people gathered. We planned to meet up at Cappriciosa in Greenbelt 3 at 7 for dinner. But Sheina and I agreed to meet up at 4:30 to catch a movie at G4. Unfortunately, she didn't make it on time for the movie so we just skipped that part. She came from a jamming in QC, and when she was on her way to Makati she was caught up in the heaviest traffic jam in EDSA.(She arrived at past 7)

While waiting for everyone to arrived I stayed seated on the benches near the cinema in G4 for a couple of hours (imagine me seated for 2 hours and all alone), then before 7 I went to Powerbooks in G3 to find some books and do a little reading. After reading about 2 chapters of Like Water for Chocolate, Kuya Red arrived and we went to Capricciosa to score us a table since it's a Friday night the place can get a little crowded.

When we got there we started updating each other with our lives and after a few moments Kitty arrived, then Sheina, then K'Anne (with the boyfs) and lastly Sir Wilson. We had a roller coaster ride of emotions that night, we were excited, happy, shocked, saddened but all in all it was all clean fun! We just love being with each other, and we can make any moment turn into a very unforgettable one.

After dinner we waited for Shein to get a ride home, then we were off to K'Anne's house in Malabon, but we dropped Sir Wil to his workplace before going to K'Anne's place. After dropping K'Anne home we decided to have a quick stop at Metrowalk since the night is still young (1AM). We went to Seafoofd Grill, and talked over a bucket of booze, sisig and baked oysters. I tell you their oysters are superb! At par with the ones from Mr. Rockefeller, Oyster Boy and Murray's in High Street. And after some drunken talking we decided to walk to 'wash down' the booze. We've gone to the Banchetto day on Emerald Ave, and tried hard not to get tempted with the food and tried not to smell like food! The air was filled with seafood aroma. Then we walked a bit further to find a drugstore but all we've passed by are already closed so we end up walking from Metrowalk to Crossing! We let Kitty get into her cab and then kuya Red and I stayed at a fast food and had our drunken sleepy conversation over a hot fudge sundae. Then at 4:30AM we then went our separate ways and headed home.

SATURDAY

I woke up past noon and (oh god) I missed the 12NN mass. My officemates and I had a SMS conference. We were finalizing our night out together. At first it was like stop and go but we settled at go. And so our Saturday night out was set. They were going to pick me up along EDSA near Poveda at past 8. But before I went to our meeting place I stop by the shrine and said my prayers. I also asked for forgiveness for missing mass, and for everything that I was about to do (e.g. getting drunk). Then we headed to West Ave. to spend a comedic night. It was really fun, the acts are really funny hilarious! And good thing that I capped off the night with only 3 bottles of Coors, some nachos and no drunk-related episodes for me and for anyone in the group. And take note I got home earlier, like two-ish early.

SUNDAY

The the most productive of all days. Though I woke up past noon again, I was able to squeeze some "laundry business", and tidied up my place a little. Then I got a text message from Kuya Red inviting me to watch a movie with his officemates. And so I did go, but we heard mass first. Unfortunately, I only understood a phrase or three because the presiding priest had this really heavy Asian accent. It was like Indonesian-Vietnamese-Thai with a provincial Filipino accent. That heavy man! So we had a hard time deciphering the words that he said.

At 5PM, we were still in EDSA shrine and we need to get to Mega (where kuya Red's friends are waiting) before the movie starts at 5:15. We were almost running just to get to the cab lane which is at the far end of Galleria. Luckily we got to the cinema at 5:10 but the line at the ticket counters are effing long, as well as the snacks section! Good thing we got to the cinema not long after the movie started. So it was still well and good for us, the running was worth it. (we watched Wanted, I know I'm late again, ok?).

After the movie we ate at Dencio's. THEN. I headed to work. Yes, I had a shift at work that night. And the most productive part is... I've acquired all the factories in Chocolatier 2! Huh! I'm very good at it! And not only that I also have more than $20 mil! I'm so rich! I spent 8 hours playing Chocolatier (shhh don't tell my boss). But there was nothing else to do that night... I made sure that I've finished all the reports that I need to do and I wasn't like not monitoring our dialers. In fact I did, and there was a supervisor who's really annoying he kept on calling for every 5 minutes. So annoying, specially when I'm playing Chocolatier! Hahaha.

Anyway, that's how my weekend was. My body was dead tired but my spirit is glowing. And I went to bed this morning with a huge smile on my face.

Wednesday, July 2, 2008

Answered Prayers

It's already the 1st of July! We're halfway to 2009, how quickly time flies. The past week I got a forwarded SMS from a very close friend that says "It's funny how day by day nothing changes, but when you look back everything is different." This is so true. I'm talking about personal experience here people. It seemed to me that I lived and based my life in a time table. Work and home and a little shopping and going out on the side. I used to complain on the way I live my life because it seemed to me that everything is just the same. Same old boring life. But looking back now, I realized that even I thought I lived the same day everyday, everything is so different now. Am I making any sense to you? I hope so, because knowing myself I tend to blab about anything that comes to my head then I tend to deviate from what I just blabbed about.

Anyway I never thought that I'd come this far before I'll figure what I would really want to be doing (not for the rest of my life), let's say before my retirement years. I wouldn't say that I want to be doing this for the rest of my life because who wouldn't want to enjoy spending all day at the beach or in a farm just doing anything you feel like doing? Raise your feet! Ok, snap back to what I'm talking about. I had all the signs all along, I just didn't recognize it, I was busy looking for something that's not there and I bet it won't be there for a long time. I figured this when I was on my way home yesterday. I thought about my high school friends and I recalled our graduation day and the class prophecy that we had. When we were asked what we wanted to be years after graduation I placed there that I would be hosting CNN style. See? It was in me all along! And I recall that I begged my dad (grandfather) to let me take up Broadcast Journalism in college. And now I wonder no more why I'm drawn to news personalities and why I am such a news junkie. I've been fervently praying to god to help me find my way, and alas yesterday it dawned on me. After realizing this, the only thing that I need to figure out is how will I make it come true.

Maybe I'll practice "The Secret" way of doing things, perhaps... do other than that. Or just wait till everything falls right into their proper places. Let's wait and see.

Saturday, June 21, 2008

The Waiting Game

It's hard to wait for something to happen specially when the chance for it to come true is very measly. I just wish I know when to stop waiting, and start to accept that it may never happen.


I really think there should be a deadline in waiting or just an alarm/warning to tell you not to wait for something anymore when it's way far from happening.


But knowing myself, I rarely give up on anything. So, even if that means waiting forever... I'll do it. Specially when I know it'll be worth all the waiting. And I know deep in me that god will make a way when there seems to be no way. I trust him.

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

The Fringe Benefits of Failure, and the Importance of Imagination

J.K. Rowling, author of the best-selling Harry Potter book series, delivers her Commencement Address, “The Fringe Benefits of Failure, and the Importance of Imagination,” at the Annual Meeting of the Harvard Alumni Association.

Text as prepared follows.
Copyright of JK Rowling, June 2008

President Faust, members of the Harvard Corporation and the Board of Overseers, members of the faculty, proud parents, and, above all, graduates.

The first thing I would like to say is ‘thank you.’ Not only has Harvard given me an extraordinary honour, but the weeks of fear and nausea I’ve experienced at the thought of giving this commencement address have made me lose weight. A win-win situation! Now all I have to do is take deep breaths, squint at the red banners and fool myself into believing I am at the world’s best-educated Harry Potter convention.

Delivering a commencement address is a great responsibility; or so I thought until I cast my mind back to my own graduation. The commencement speaker that day was the distinguished British philosopher Baroness Mary Warnock. Reflecting on her speech has helped me enormously in writing this one, because it turns out that I can’t remember a single word she said. This liberating discovery enables me to proceed without any fear that I might inadvertently influence you to abandon promising careers in business, law or politics for the giddy delights of becoming a gay wizard.

You see? If all you remember in years to come is the ‘gay wizard’ joke, I’ve still come out ahead of Baroness Mary Warnock. Achievable goals: the first step towards personal improvement.

Actually, I have wracked my mind and heart for what I ought to say to you today. I have asked myself what I wish I had known at my own graduation, and what important lessons I have learned in the 21 years that has expired between that day and this.

I have come up with two answers. On this wonderful day when we are gathered together to celebrate your academic success, I have decided to talk to you about the benefits of failure. And as you stand on the threshold of what is sometimes called ‘real life’, I want to extol the crucial importance of imagination.

These might seem quixotic or paradoxical choices, but please bear with me.

Looking back at the 21-year-old that I was at graduation, is a slightly uncomfortable experience for the 42-year-old that she has become. Half my lifetime ago, I was striking an uneasy balance between the ambition I had for myself, and what those closest to me expected of me.

I was convinced that the only thing I wanted to do, ever, was to write novels. However, my parents, both of whom came from impoverished backgrounds and neither of whom had been to college, took the view that my overactive imagination was an amusing personal quirk that could never pay a mortgage, or secure a pension.

They had hoped that I would take a vocational degree; I wanted to study English Literature. A compromise was reached that in retrospect satisfied nobody, and I went up to study Modern Languages. Hardly had my parents’ car rounded the corner at the end of the road than I ditched German and scuttled off down the Classics corridor.

I cannot remember telling my parents that I was studying Classics; they might well have found out for the first time on graduation day. Of all subjects on this planet, I think they would have been hard put to name one less useful than Greek mythology when it came to securing the keys to an executive bathroom.

I would like to make it clear, in parenthesis, that I do not blame my parents for their point of view. There is an expiry date on blaming your parents for steering you in the wrong direction; the moment you are old enough to take the wheel, responsibility lies with you. What is more, I cannot criticise my parents for hoping that I would never experience poverty. They had been poor themselves, and I have since been poor, and I quite agree with them that it is not an ennobling experience. Poverty entails fear, and stress, and sometimes depression; it means a thousand petty humiliations and hardships. Climbing out of poverty by your own efforts, that is indeed something on which to pride yourself, but poverty itself is romanticised only by fools.

What I feared most for myself at your age was not poverty, but failure.

At your age, in spite of a distinct lack of motivation at university, where I had spent far too long in the coffee bar writing stories, and far too little time at lectures, I had a knack for passing examinations, and that, for years, had been the measure of success in my life and that of my peers.

I am not dull enough to suppose that because you are young, gifted and well-educated, you have never known hardship or heartbreak. Talent and intelligence never yet inoculated anyone against the caprice of the Fates, and I do not for a moment suppose that everyone here has enjoyed an existence of unruffled privilege and contentment.

However, the fact that you are graduating from Harvard suggests that you are not very well-acquainted with failure. You might be driven by a fear of failure quite as much as a desire for success. Indeed, your conception of failure might not be too far from the average person’s idea of success, so high have you already flown academically.

Ultimately, we all have to decide for ourselves what constitutes failure, but the world is quite eager to give you a set of criteria if you let it. So I think it fair to say that by any conventional measure, a mere seven years after my graduation day, I had failed on an epic scale. An exceptionally short-lived marriage had imploded, and I was jobless, a lone parent, and as poor as it is possible to be in modern Britain, without being homeless. The fears my parents had had for me, and that I had had for myself, had both come to pass, and by every usual standard, I was the biggest failure I knew.

Now, I am not going to stand here and tell you that failure is fun. That period of my life was a dark one, and I had no idea that there was going to be what the press has since represented as a kind of fairy tale resolution. I had no idea how far the tunnel extended, and for a long time, any light at the end of it was a hope rather than a reality.

So why do I talk about the benefits of failure? Simply because failure meant a stripping away of the inessential. I stopped pretending to myself that I was anything other than what I was, and began to direct all my energy into finishing the only work that mattered to me. Had I really succeeded at anything else, I might never have found the determination to succeed in the one arena I believed I truly belonged. I was set free, because my greatest fear had already been realised, and I was still alive, and I still had a daughter whom I adored, and I had an old typewriter and a big idea. And so rock bottom became the solid foundation on which I rebuilt my life.

You might never fail on the scale I did, but some failure in life is inevitable. It is impossible to live without failing at something, unless you live so cautiously that you might as well not have lived at all - in which case, you fail by default.

Failure gave me an inner security that I had never attained by passing examinations. Failure taught me things about myself that I could have learned no other way. I discovered that I had a strong will, and more discipline than I had suspected; I also found out that I had friends whose value was truly above rubies.

The knowledge that you have emerged wiser and stronger from setbacks means that you are, ever after, secure in your ability to survive. You will never truly know yourself, or the strength of your relationships, until both have been tested by adversity. Such knowledge is a true gift, for all that it is painfully won, and it has been worth more to me than any qualification I ever earned.

Given a time machine or a Time Turner, I would tell my 21-year-old self that personal happiness lies in knowing that life is not a check-list of acquisition or achievement. Your qualifications, your CV, are not your life, though you will meet many people of my age and older who confuse the two. Life is difficult, and complicated, and beyond anyone’s total control, and the humility to know that will enable you to survive its vicissitudes.

You might think that I chose my second theme, the importance of imagination, because of the part it played in rebuilding my life, but that is not wholly so. Though I will defend the value of bedtime stories to my last gasp, I have learned to value imagination in a much broader sense. Imagination is not only the uniquely human capacity to envision that which is not, and therefore the fount of all invention and innovation. In its arguably most transformative and revelatory capacity, it is the power that enables us to empathise with humans whose experiences we have never shared.

One of the greatest formative experiences of my life preceded Harry Potter, though it informed much of what I subsequently wrote in those books. This revelation came in the form of one of my earliest day jobs. Though I was sloping off to write stories during my lunch hours, I paid the rent in my early 20s by working in the research department at Amnesty International’s headquarters in London.

There in my little office I read hastily scribbled letters smuggled out of totalitarian regimes by men and women who were risking imprisonment to inform the outside world of what was happening to them. I saw photographs of those who had disappeared without trace, sent to Amnesty by their desperate families and friends. I read the testimony of torture victims and saw pictures of their injuries. I opened handwritten, eye-witness accounts of summary trials and executions, of kidnappings and rapes.

Many of my co-workers were ex-political prisoners, people who had been displaced from their homes, or fled into exile, because they had the temerity to think independently of their government. Visitors to our office included those who had come to give information, or to try and find out what had happened to those they had been forced to leave behind.

I shall never forget the African torture victim, a young man no older than I was at the time, who had become mentally ill after all he had endured in his homeland. He trembled uncontrollably as he spoke into a video camera about the brutality inflicted upon him. He was a foot taller than I was, and seemed as fragile as a child. I was given the job of escorting him to the Underground Station afterwards, and this man whose life had been shattered by cruelty took my hand with exquisite courtesy, and wished me future happiness.

And as long as I live I shall remember walking along an empty corridor and suddenly hearing, from behind a closed door, a scream of pain and horror such as I have never heard since. The door opened, and the researcher poked out her head and told me to run and make a hot drink for the young man sitting with her. She had just given him the news that in retaliation for his own outspokenness against his country’s regime, his mother had been seized and executed.

Every day of my working week in my early 20s I was reminded how incredibly fortunate I was, to live in a country with a democratically elected government, where legal representation and a public trial were the rights of everyone.

Every day, I saw more evidence about the evils humankind will inflict on their fellow humans, to gain or maintain power. I began to have nightmares, literal nightmares, about some of the things I saw, heard and read.

And yet I also learned more about human goodness at Amnesty International than I had ever known before.

Amnesty mobilises thousands of people who have never been tortured or imprisoned for their beliefs to act on behalf of those who have. The power of human empathy, leading to collective action, saves lives, and frees prisoners. Ordinary people, whose personal well-being and security are assured, join together in huge numbers to save people they do not know, and will never meet. My small participation in that process was one of the most humbling and inspiring experiences of my life.

Unlike any other creature on this planet, humans can learn and understand, without having experienced. They can think themselves into other people’s minds, imagine themselves into other people’s places.

Of course, this is a power, like my brand of fictional magic, that is morally neutral. One might use such an ability to manipulate, or control, just as much as to understand or sympathize.

And many prefer not to exercise their imaginations at all. They choose to remain comfortably within the bounds of their own experience, never troubling to wonder how it would feel to have been born other than they are. They can refuse to hear screams or to peer inside cages; they can close their minds and hearts to any suffering that does not touch them personally; they can refuse to know.

I might be tempted to envy people who can live that way, except that I do not think they have any fewer nightmares than I do. Choosing to live in narrow spaces can lead to a form of mental agoraphobia, and that brings its own terrors. I think the willfully unimaginative see more monsters. They are often more afraid.

What is more, those who choose not to empathize may enable real monsters. For without ever committing an act of outright evil ourselves, we collude with it, through our own apathy.

One of the many things I learned at the end of that Classics corridor down which I ventured at the age of 18, in search of something I could not then define, was this, written by the Greek author Plutarch: What we achieve inwardly will change outer reality.

That is an astonishing statement and yet proven a thousand times every day of our lives. It expresses, in part, our inescapable connection with the outside world, the fact that we touch other people’s lives simply by existing.

But how much more are you, Harvard graduates of 2008, likely to touch other people’s lives? Your intelligence, your capacity for hard work, the education you have earned and received, give you unique status, and unique responsibilities. Even your nationality sets you apart. The great majority of you belong to the world’s only remaining superpower. The way you vote, the way you live, the way you protest, the pressure you bring to bear on your government, has an impact way beyond your borders. That is your privilege, and your burden.

If you choose to use your status and influence to raise your voice on behalf of those who have no voice; if you choose to identify not only with the powerful, but with the powerless; if you retain the ability to imagine yourself into the lives of those who do not have your advantages, then it will not only be your proud families who celebrate your existence, but thousands and millions of people whose reality you have helped transform for the better. We do not need magic to change the world, we carry all the power we need inside ourselves already: we have the power to imagine better.

I am nearly finished. I have one last hope for you, which is something that I already had at 21. The friends with whom I sat on graduation day have been my friends for life. They are my children’s godparents, the people to whom I’ve been able to turn in times of trouble, friends who have been kind enough not to sue me when I’ve used their names for Death Eaters. At our graduation we were bound by enormous affection, by our shared experience of a time that could never come again, and, of course, by the knowledge that we held certain photographic evidence that would be exceptionally valuable if any of us ran for Prime Minister.

So today, I can wish you nothing better than similar friendships. And tomorrow, I hope that even if you remember not a single word of mine, you remember those of Seneca, another of those old Romans I met when I fled down the Classics corridor, in retreat from career ladders, in search of ancient wisdom:
As is a tale, so is life: not how long it is, but how good it is, is what matters.
I wish you all very good lives.
Thank you very much.

Source: harvard magazine

Sunday, May 18, 2008

Book Blabbing


I'm at work right now but I don't feel like I'm at work at all. Since my shift started all I did was just surf the net, listen to music, IM and occasionally search for videos on the web. I just wish everyday is Saturday or Sunday at work. The workplace is just so peaceful during these days unlike the market-like environment during the weekdays. Weekdays can go pretty crazy here, like a mad house! But I just don't like to spend the entire night staring at my monitor. It's soo boring, I would like to have little challenges on the side. Like some problems that I need to attend to. But on second thought.. Nah! I'd rather be here doing nothing than cramming my butt trying to be some superhero who'll save the day from further system downtime.

Anyway for the lack of something to do, I did read some chick lits that I have downloaded before. It's no ordinary chick lits, it's Meg Cabot's the author of Princess Diaries, which the movie almost all girls happen to love. For the record I only read the (chick lits) works of Sophie Kinsella and now Meg Cabot. I have read all books of Sophie, it started with the Confessions of a Shopaholic because I was kind of curious about this book and how almost all girls talk about this for hours. And I kinda admit that I've read that book because I was kind of ... just a little I think, of a shopaholic myself. After reading the 'confessions' of Becky Bloomwood, I kinda got hooked up and I ended up reading all Sophie's books.

Tonight, I've finished reading two of Meg Cabot's books, How To Be Popular and Queen of Babble. I also started reading She Went All The Way but I ditched it, for now, thinking that my shift's about to end and I won't be able to finish it today. Maybe tonight. I had fun reading How To Be Popular, you can score a tip or two! But I just think that it was a teenybopper one. Basing on the fact that the leads were 16 year olds. I had a great time reading Queen of Blabble. I love the fashion freak Lizzie Nichols and the uber hot Jean-Luc. The plot is similar to Sophie's Can You Keep a Secret but Jean-Luc is hotter and the setting/scenery is superb. A French chateau in the countryside with the vineyard, a real windmill and the Dordogne river! Lizzie and I share the same passion which is fashion and her love for vintage clothes. Oh my! I am already morphing into a Queen of Babble! I need to stop this nonsense blabbing. I suggest you read the book so that you'll know what I'm blabbing about. :)

I am so not ashame that I've read those books. I love Paulo Coelho, Amy Tan, Sydney Sheldon, Mitch Albom and a few more but Meg and Sophie's humor is incomparable. They are both hilarious! And reading a chick lit is like my own diversion, it's like watching a funny movie after a stressful day to relax yourself and forget about anything that matters even for a while.

How about you? Have you read any chick lit? And what book was it?

Thursday, May 15, 2008

Heeby Jeebies

I received more than 5 messages yesterday about the earthquake 'forecast'. When in fact nobody or nothing can predict an upcoming earthquake. It's just so annoying, because earthquakes gives me the heeby jeebies and those messages reminds me of the time back in the province when we experienced an earthquake and I was like crying and screaming like crazy. I don't know but earthquake is my biggest fear... my hydrophobia, acrophobia and claustrophobia are just ants compared to my elephant fear of earthquakes. I don't really know why I freak out when I hear about earthquakes maybe it's because of something I watched from a movie when I was little. In that movie I saw the earth cracked open and all/most of the things living or not living were eaten alive (in living things' case). And also it's because of the stories my grandma told me about the earthquake in some parts of the country particularly the HYATT hotel in Baguio thingy.


It really gives me the goosebumps just remembering what I was told that took place there. And about those people who ate tissue papers and other non-edible stuff just to survive because they were trapped down low. God knows where and when will they be able to get rescued. OK, enough of this earthquake stories, I'm only rubbing more salt to the wound... Whatever. I just need to stop this blabbing.


The only thing that made me happy about this earthquake messages spreading around is that the least person I thought who would send me a message did sent me one! Even if it was the earthquake warning it felt so good knowing that he still cares. And it was my dad. I don't know but my earthquake fear yesterday was eased up by the message that I got from him. Thanks papa.


Anyway, got to rush. I'm meeting my mom and brother at the mall. I don't care if I won't be able to sleep today. I have all night to sleep tonight coz I'm off from work! Have a happy weekend to me! :)

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

For Real.

Today I got the biggest surprise ever! And I was really surprised, I didn't see it coming. The day started just like any other day. I came home from work, did an hour of exercise while having my dose of morning news, then went to sleep. At past noon, my mom asked me to come with her to the bank, I was hesitant because I didn't get enough sleep yet. But I know my mom and my cousin they just won't let me be, they'll drag me if they have to. So I gave in. In return we'll have dinner at the mall.

After my mom went to the bank, we went around the mall for a while. Suddenly, my phone rang and it was my brother calling! I answered the phone, then my brother was asking if we were at home. I told him that we're at the mall because we went to BDO which happens to be inside the mall, then we'll buy some groceries and have dinner there. He was like "you should come home now, I'm on the cab from the airport. I won't be able to enter the house if you wouldn't be home." After we hung up, we were arguing if it's for real, if my brother is not playing games with us.

Though we're not sure, we didn't have our dinner at the mall instead we just bought the groceries and headed home. When we almost reached our gate, my brother called again and he was there! Riding on the airport taxi! He's here! For real! We were really surprised, coz we only talked a day ago and he never mentioned anything about coming home.

We found out that he'll be moving to Helsinki, Finland. He'll be working in another hotel there. And he just came home because he needs to leave to Helsinki from his country of origin. We were so happy that he's here, aside from the fact that he gave me a Coco Mademoiselle by Chanel perfume as a gift and a purse from the same label! Too bad he wasn't able to hand carry my bag because it wasn't delivered yet, but sure thing it'll be here soon. :)

I am just so happy that he's here, even for a while! Thanks kuya for the surprise! Love you!

Monday, May 12, 2008

B is for Balenciaga Brief Bag

If you noticed in my previous post I didn't drool over any bag it's because I am already fantasizing over a bag from Balenciaga from their F/W2007 collection. It's the Giant brief bag. I don't care what color will I get as long as I can have that bag! I just so loveeeet! The bag is spacious (it's giant, right?) and I just love the style/design. It's not like any of the Balenciaga bags I've seen before.

I've asked my brother for it as a post birthday gift and hopefully he'll be able to buy one for me and send it as soon as he can. Not so demanding huh!

I am so jealous because he sent me pictures of him with a LV Keepall 50, a large Gucci toiletry case (A GUCCI FOR A TOILETRY CASE? £150? WHAT THE?) a pair of H&M shoes and Prada shades! I am so green-eyed now! How did he get all those stuff? He was there for less than a couple of months. Kuya do you have a fairy godmother there? Can you ask her to visit me even for a day? I am so jealous that I even asked him to send me all the paper bags that came with it!

Here's what the Balenciaga Giant brief bag looks like:


You'll find the details of the bag on the Balenciaga website. It's the 10th bag/item. Isn't it pretty?

Lucky Mom's Day!

This afternoon I, my mom, my cousin Don, and a couple of friends (distant relatives) went to the Sto, NiƱo chapel in Greenbelt to hear mass. When we got there the mass has already started. Plus it was raining so hard, so there's no way for us to be somewhere near the chapel without getting wet. So we just decided to loiter around the area and just visit the chapel after the mass. We went around the shops in Greenbelt 3 that we (my mom, kuya Don and I) like the most. We went to Marc Jacobs, LV, Burberry and Gucci's. Mom found a really nice bag in LV but had second thoughts in getting it 'cos she found a bag exactly like it in F when we went there a few days ago. I on the other hand gawked over a scarf in Burberry and LV. I just can't help myself, the scarves are so gorgeous. And since summer is almost over, or should I say it is over but unofficially (since it's still May). Whatevs! I feel like the scarves are perfect for the rainy season coz it's like cold, during this season, right?! Say that you agree with me, please?

Anyway, after loitering around we had dinner around the area. It was supposedly a Mother's day celebration, but my mom ended up paying for our dinner! Hahaha. It's because I forgot my wallet, and all my cash, credit cards and ATM cards are there. So there, I just told my mom to pay for our dinner and I'll just pay her back when I get home tomorrow after working tonight. We had a great time while having dinner. My cousin Don and Sheila goofed around that let everyone of us guffaw. My kuya Don and Sheila did like a role playing. Kuya Don is a first time tourist in the Philippines and Sheila is like befriending her and they were really acting it out! You should have seen them, they're really good at it and add the fact that they're super hilarious!

Almost all people who heard them at the resto laughed really hard! I was like in the middle of being ashamed at the same time enjoying what my cousins are doing.

I didn't want to be a party pooper, but I left just when the real party started because I got work at 8 o'clock and I can't afford to be absent since I already slacked off from work Saturday night.

I'm here at work but I don't feel like I'm working now. All I did so far is just surf the net, listen to music, IM and blog! There are some few work-related stuff that I did but out of the almost 5 hours that I've been here.. I worked for less than half an hour I think. Lucky me! :)

It wouldn't be long till I get off from work, but I got a teeny weeny problem. What will I put in my shift report? I can't like place surf the net, read photoshop tutorials, listen to music, IM and update my blog. Ahhh this is the price I have to pay for this! Anyway, I'm thankful for everything.

How about you how did you celebrate Mother's day?