Yesterday.... Today.... Tomorrow.....

Yesterday, when i came to the office my supervisor gave me my 'red card', its because of my habitual tardiness last month. ahehehehe. its no surprise coz everyone in our team got the 'red card', so its not a big deal anymore! And after giving my memo, he also broke the good news.... roll the drums please..... he said that the HR wants to see me on the 1st of February because I'll no longer be a probationary employee, I'll be regularized soon!!! Don't you think that's really good news? Anyway, yesterday also i went home earlier than usual...coz i can't wait to tell my bro about the great news!

Today, i had a great start, though my day is kinda busy but still i managed to chat with my friends and update this blog... (wasting company time again!) I'm going home early today too because I'm planning to fix my place and I'm planning to throw a house party within this week. Its some kind of a 'house warming' and despedida... err no... not despedida.. haven't thought of it yet.... just a house party. I'm planning to invite some close friends, officemates, and my band mates. I'm planning to have a pajama party... do you think its nice? Anyway, it doesn't matter what kind of party I'm going to throw, what's important is everybody will have a great time. I need to do some extensive planning tonight!!!! On what food to prepare... the drinks... the music... and the guests. Maybe I'll ask mom's help tonight, not just to ask her plain suggestions but also i need ask for the funds! Hehehehe. Lucky me!

Hope tomorrow will be as good as today and yesterday.... We'll have our band rehearsal tomorrow and Sheina and Nhez will be here too. I'll have company here tomorrow. I'm missing them now. And also i hope that i can come out with a plan tomorrow morning. And up to now... i still can't decide whether to leave or not to leave.... sigh. Please enlighten my mind!!! Please... please... please... Please show me a sign! But Lord please make it noticeable... so that I'll see it right away.:)

till then......

Is it Really Goodbye Philippines... and Hello France?

Late last year i've decided to submit to what my parents wanted me to do, that is to study abroad. Everything is settled, my credentials, my visa, plane ticket.. everything! In fact, I'm already enrolled for the Spring term and I already made plans on how to make my stay there enjoyable and at the same time productive. The only thing i need to do is pack my things so that i can leave. I've already thought about this a thousand times and i was sure that i want to leave. But now, i'm having doubts. I'm not sure anymore if i really want to leave the country, coz i'm just starting to live and love the life i have now.. Let's say i'm having cold feet, its not because i'll be doing my laundry,cook my own food or do household chores that i don't get to do here,but its because i know that if i'll go there i'll start all over again, unlike here that i have rooted. And also i don't want to leave my family, my friends (they're the best ever) and my work.. coz it seems like i won't be able to find officemates like them, they're the coolest ever. And also, i already made lot of friends here at work. If i'll leave i'll be missing them all and the moments we shared together. February is fast approaching and i'm bound to leave on the 25th, i wish that i could stop the time so that i don't have to leave. But hey, there are still 33 days to go, a lot of things may happen within that span of time... i might change my mind! :)

Picture! Picture!

Some of the pictures that i took this afternoon:

Sheina and I...

How do we look? :)

We look pretty of course!

We're the MIS' Morning girls!

Living alone...

Last night i slept at 'my place', its the first time that i slept there alone (ever) coz i had no choice. i spent the night cleaning and arranging my clutter. I also unpacked all the stuff i brought there. i enjoyed making up my place! I also cooked dinner for myself, i had beef steak for dinner, it was yummy! Its not because i'm the one who cooked it, but it really is! Believe me! Anyway, after dinner i washed the dishes and continued tidying the place. It look so different now than it was before. It looks like a 'real home' now, its well tidied and arranged. Its an 85 sqm unit, with two bedrooms, located on the 21st floor of a building along Leviste. What i love most about the place is the sight you'll see up there. I just love the sight of Makati at night! Its really relaxing. After doing the dishes, i pampered myself with a buble bath, then sipped a glass of red wine (i only have red wine and juice, haven't went to the grocery yet) while listening to music then i didn't notice that i had fallen asleep. I woke up when i heard my phone ringing, it was my brother asking me how was my first night alone, we talked for a while, then when i hung up the phone i gazed at the alarm clock beside my bed and i realized that it was already 7:05! I hurried to the bathroom and after that i got myself ready for work, i didn't even get to eat breakfast. I hurried to the office, good thing i'm just in the vicinity of the Peak Tower. Its just a 10 minute walk to the office from my place. when i arrived at the office the time at the bundy clock is 7:55, which means i'm not yet late! Went to our office, check my mails, and did the requests of some campaigns, after that i went to 711 to buy C2 then went back to the office to eat my breakfast in our pantry.

We also attended Miss Lelli's birthday bash today on the 11th floor we ate pizza (again!) and spaghetti! Yummy! After eating, we went back to work then did some picture taking with Sheina! And now, its already 5:59PM but i'm still here in the office, i'm waiting for my brother to fetch me coz we're eating out. And also, i'm not yet decided where to spend the night: at my place, my bro's or my dad's? Do i have to deal with this question everyday? Hope not! Coz its tiring... Why can't we be in the same place? Duh! Kristina stop complaining, this is what you wanted, so you have to deal with this!

Anyway, I almost forgot, tomorrow's my last day at work! I'll have my rest day on Saturday, yehey! But we still have band rehearsal tomorrow night. Its ok! Its Friday anyway... think i wrote enough... need to stop this now... need to decide first where to sleep tonight, tomorrow, the next evening and for the nights that are yet to come.... sigh

For the lack of something to post!

1. Are you male or female?:
...FeMale?

2.Height?:
...5'3"

3.Why are you taking this quiz?
...got nothing to do..

~*~More into your personal life~*~

4.Who do you live with?:
...myself!

5.how do you feel about this?:
...about what?living with myself? its hard but fullfilling

6.Favorite family member?:
...my mom and bro

7.Do you have your own bedroom?:
...have my own place

8.Is it messy? Don't lie.:
...i'm obssessive-compulsive these days...

9.Is your bedroom away from everyoneelse's?:
...my bro's in ortigas,mom's in zamboanga and dad's in fairview and i'm in makati so what you think?

10.Do you feel you have enough privacyin your home?:
...refer on question #9!

11.How often are you on the computer?:
...at least 10 hrs a day

12.Do you have your own computer?:
...yupp

13.Is it in your room?:
...yupp

14.Are you single?:
...uhuh!

15.Any crushes?:
...yeah

16.Do you have a best friend?:
...i do

17.Do you like to shop?:
...i love shopping but now i'm trying very hard not to shop that much anymore.. i wanna save...save... save... good luck to me!

18.Let's move on, shall we?:
...to where?

~*~ Which do you like better ~*~

19.Being single or being in arelationship?
...everybody has relationships, be it withyourself or some other physical body... how canyou be single?

20.Being alone or being with friends?
...it depends, there are times that i prefer to be alone

21.Being alone or being with family?
...i live on my own but i also love being with them

22.Weekend at home or weekend out?:
...i love curling in bed.

23.Sleeping with the lights on or off?:
...i can't sleep with the lights on

24.Being outdoors or indoors on abeautiful day?:
...outdoors

25.Showering in the morning or at night?:
...i shower in the morning and at night before slumbering

We brought home a 'chunk' of the bacon!

Yesterday was the elimination of the the CCAP (Contact Center Association of the Phils.) Jammin '06 Battle of the bands, and was held in Glorietta activity center. And... tadaa... we made it to the grand finals, we ranked 5th out of 14! Considering that they'll only get 8 out of 14 band competitors. Not bad. And the finals night will be held at the NBC tent, The Fort!
The executive board director of CCAP, Jay Uligan, told us yesterday that the grand finals night will be flooding with booze, unlike yesterday that only iced tea flooded the floor. And he also promised that there will be professional bands, the like of bamboo, rivermaya, parokya, hale, cueshe and others... Wow! Can't wait till the finals night.

Before the performance--
I think i peed thrice before our performance, i was really tensed. I was afraid that i'll be the cause of failure of the band coz i had this peculiar feeling yesterday that i'll be the jinx of the group. Good thing it didn't happen.

During the performance--
I just set my mind that it was just our final rehearsal so so i won't be that tensed. I just danced to the beat of the music that we were playing, and that really is effective... it swept my tension away! And i was so overwhelmed seeing the audience screaming and dancing with our music. Its already an exhiliration of victory!

After the performance--
We were all satisfied with our performance as well as our officemates. But there's still the tension... though our big boss' told us that it would be ok if we don't get in but still we want to be in the grand finals, who doesn't, right?

The verdict--
When we heard Jay Uligan announcing the top 8 then we heard him shout 'Screenpop" Touch Asia as top 5, we were screaming! Though we were already anticipating that we will get in, it still surprised us. we were like little children screaming while jumping up and down! Then we went to the stage... we can't contain our happiness. We were gamely posing for the cameras! Actualy, i wasn't able to figure where the flickers came from coz it was like in every angle there's a camera! All i did was just smile.. smile... grin... and smile! Feeling celebrity! hahahahaha

I'm happy that we got in because our hard work paid off, but i'm also sad coz that means more upcoming rehearsals and also we need to change our repertoire. So, we really need to work our ass off learning new songs, rehearsing and of course at the same time we need to catch up with our work in the office! Whew! Why can't we be happy without being sad afterwards? Is it what they call balance? Oh my God! But hey, i didn't regret that we got in... i'm very happy in fact. Its quite an honor representing our company in a competition like that. And you just don't know the 'package' that comes with it. All bands will be featured in a lifestyle publication! Do you think that's great enough? That's not yet all... wait till MTV airs the video of the competition. And we also have this HUGE companies as our sponsors, we have Globe, Plantronics, Nestle, TGI Fridays, Enerva, Maalox and a lot more... i just forgot the names of the not so 'HUGE' ones! Apologies....

And the grand prize? Its only a hundred and fifty thousand! See? Can you imagine how big the competition is? The competion is sooooooo overwhelming! Its really, really great!

Hope that we can make it to the top 3 during the grand finals night, but if not... it would be fine. Being one of the finalist is already a great honor! But one thing's for sure... we'll give this our best shot! If that means more sleepless nights of rehearsing that would be fine as long as its for our own good, why not! So see you at the NBC Tent, February 5, 2006 is the date! Rock on Touch Asia!!!! Next time we'll not only bring home the chunk... but the whole pack of bacon! hahahahaha

(We didn't get to have our celebration last night coz my bandmates had individual 'engagements'. So after the competition, i went home straight coz i need to be early the following day, my shift starts at 8:00AM. And also, i would like to thank my brother who went to watch... my valued friends: Nhez, Rey, Joey and Tin. Though Kate and Nathan didn't make it there i'm still thankful for their moral support! Love you so much gels! And to all the Touch Asia peole who went there. And also to my bandmates... who were very patient and supportive. Thank you guys!We'll continue rocking on!:))

What a day!

Its supposed to be my day off but we had a team meeting this morning so I'm obliged to render a RDOT from 8:00AM-5:00PM but since there are tasks that needs to be done I'm still here in the office though its already past 8 o'clock. Its a good thing because I'll be paid with a higher rate for today because its my rest day but bad thing is I'll be deducted with higher tax too! But I don't care 'bout the deductions, all i care is that I'm enjoying my staying late here in the office with my MIS buddy, Sheina. Though its a 'toxic' day for us, we still had time to chat and laugh once in a while. When you're with the person/s that you like you don't mind the time, all you can think of is the great time that you're having with that person/s. That's what I'm feeling right now, i don't care if i get myself home later than usual because the time that I'm having now is worth more than anything.

Flashback...

Jerryl, Sheina and I had pizza for lunch at Yellow Cab, we pigged on an 18" pizza! We spent our whole 1 and a half hour break for eating and talking sense and nonsense! I had a great time with those guys, they're not just 'officemates' they really are friends... buddies! I really enjoyed being with them.... they have this crazy ideas.... but they can also talk sense if the situation calls for it! Yeah, really... they can! Its not just obvious... and they also have the power fool you in a wink of an eye! They're really talented, not just in computer programming but also in fooling people! Hahahahaha (peace out to you Sheina and jerryl!) I'm just kidding!

back to reality....

The Stone Ground' gang texted me that they're going to Kalipay tonight coz its Friday (Kalipay night for the gang), i told them that i'm not sure if i could come with them coz i'm having my Over-over time! I missed hanging out with them too.... its been a month since the last time i went out with them. sigh. I really missed their company... our endless kulitan and asaran... our petty quarrels... food trips and most of all our road trips! Our escapades after every gimik night. Its like a routine that every after our night out we go out of town. like before we went to Baguio and the last time we went to Tagaytay. our roadtrips are always spontaneous, we don't know where were heading... we just go where the car will take us! hahahaha (as if the car has its own mind!) and every time we go out of town or just driving around town we often meet this accidents... minor or major! But it doesn't matter to us now... we're immune to it! hope that i can be with them at Kalipay tonight... i'l keep my fingers crossed! (But i need to save... I'm torn between saving and gimmick waaaaahhhh)

Ok... so much for blogging... we're done with our tasks! We'll be leaving the office in 8 minutes! Thank God! Whew! Be back on Sunday... tomorrow's my rest day (my real rest day!)

Mushy... Cheesy...

Here I go again... got so many ideas battling in my head but i don't know how i'll start to weave all these together in just one posting!

Anyway, I just read the Y!M status message of a close friend this morning, and i know i read it a gazillion times before but i'm surprised that it appealed so differently to me today. His status message is "I hate to see the one I love happy with somebody but surely i hate it more to see the one i love unhappy with me." It appealed so 'plainly' to me before, i thought it was just another 'love quote' that i'll soon forget, and i thought the author of the quotable qoute is just so 'martyr'. But it dawned on me that what he said, or should i say wrote is true! Really! I figured it out that if its 'love' you're feeling towards a person... you'll do or give anything that will make him/her happy, no matter what it takes. And now i chose to give that special person in my life his happiness, if i can't make him happy then i'll 'entrust' him to the person who can give him bliss. I know its sad, but knowing that you did or gave everything for a certain being to be happy that's a great thing! Its an accomplishment, coz in this lifetime not everyone is willing to give up their happiness for the sake of others.

And for the past days, i've been trying to convince my self that i'm just in love with the idea of being in love. And i fervently hope that my magic wand (convincing powers) will work on me, like the way it should be. I'm doing this not to fool myself but to prevent myself from misery. I know you would say that i'm coward...No, this isn't just plain 'cold feet', there's a deeper explanation for this action that rooted a couple of years ago. (Maybe i should also write something about that next (life)time! Until now i keep uttering my mantra on my head,"inlove with the idea of being inlove", so to convince my subconscious mind and my freaking emotion.
And i also went bloghopping earlier and here's this line that caught my attention it goes "Smart and talented people find love the longest, and sometimes even like, never." And as the blogger said "Try not to laugh." I've been asking myself 'am i smart?' coz until now haven't found someone that i love and will love me, coz if i am i prefer to be dumb and stupid!:) On second thought, nah! I'd rather be smart, and be miserable than be dumb and happy!:))

Oh my... been writing a lot of cheesy stuff again, why am i so emotional these days? I hate myself for being so stupid when it comes to this kind of stuff, i feel like there's so many things that i ought to learn that can't be acquired from book and that can't be acquired without hurting! Haaaaayyyyy.... Life! Need to keep these musings out of my mind, need to divert my attention. I'll just focus on my work today... Work... work... work...

One of the Greatest Days of my Life!

Last Saturday i asked my immediate supervisor for a change of schedule the following day instead of 8:00AM-5:00PM, i asked to change it to 10:00AM-7:00PM. Good thing Sir Wilson (my sup) let me, but he asked me to come earlier for he'll be serving my appraisal. I was skeptical why is he giving my appraisal this early coz the HR already told me that they will serve my appraisal after 6 months of being a Database Developer and that would be on April. I was kinda anxious, coz i was thinking that he will serve my appraisal this early coz he isn't satisfied with my performance and he wants to fire me. God! That would be very sad... I told G-Boy 'bout it and he told me to be optimistic, he said that maybe he is satisfied with my performance and i might get an early regularization. I thought about it, he might be right... but what if he isn't? Oh my God! I don't want to leave my work, and worst case scenario is... i don't wanna go home to the province and tell them that i got fired! I didn't get to have a good night sleep last Saturday, i can't stop thinking about my appraisal the following day.

Sunday morning, i woke up at 8:00AM then i reached the office at 9:30AM. When i arrived at the office Sir Wilson gave me my appraisal form, when i saw it i was delighted! G-Boy was right! My supervisor was pleased with my proficiency and productivity, and my rating is good! And his overall comment is "Recommended for early regularization."! Wow! I can't believe what i read, i can't contain my happiness! I called my mom right away to share the good news, and she was also very proud of me! Oh thank God for all the blessings that he's showered me. I promise that i'll do better in my work, so that they won't regret that they hired me.
Maybe i should stop here... need to work now... I'll write more next time.

Manila to Zamboanga to Manila...

Last Thursday i decided to spend the night in my papa's house in Fairview, when i got there my papa told me that my daddy(my maternal grandfather) sent us(me and my brother) a plane ticket for Zamboanga in time for his birthday. When my papa handed me the ticket, i was kinda hesitant. Its not that i don't want to go home, but its because i don't have enough time. I have band practise come Saturday and work on Sunday. I called my daddy 'bout my dilemma and he told me that he would be happier if i could go home even just for his birthday. So, i have decided to just go home with my brother. We took the first flight to Zamboanga last Friday, we arrived there at 6:30AM. We went straight to our grandparents house, and we also met our mom, aunts and cousins there. We had breakfast together then i excused myself to get some rest coz i slept at around 3AM that morning, and woke up 30 minutes after so we won't be late for our flight. I went to our house and i noticed that there are so many changes, its totally different! So different that i began to think if i were in the right house. I stopped doubting when i saw my nana(my nanny since birth) in the kitchen. She told me that they'd already prepared mine and kuya's room, so i went upstairs directly to my room. Its so ironic coz when i entered my room i saw that no thing's changed, it was just like the way i left it (minus the clutter of course). Nana saw the expression on my face and she told me that mama didn't alter anything in our rooms coz she wants it the way we "arranged" and left it. And i was like "Ah,ok",then nana left me so i could get some sleep.

i woke up at around 11AM, i took a shower then went to my grandparents house to have lunch coz everyone was there busy preparing for daddy's birthday.

After lunch, we spent the whole afternoon 'updating' each family member with our lives. I was like on a 'hotseat' that afternoon. They were asking me sooooo many questions like: "Do you have a boyfriend?","How is it working in Manila?", "Are you enjoying your independence?" and many more! So many that i can't remember them all. Oh my...! Why do they need to know if i have a boyfriend? And why should they ask how's it working in Manila when they had experienced it when they were still young? And 'am i enjoying my independence?' of course i do! If i didn't i should have went back home a long time ago. I'm loving my life here! Away from they're prying eyes...(i'm not bitter, i'm just enjoying my independence!)
When sunset came, visitors were flooding to my daddy's house.... senior citizens(my daddy's 'kaberks'), teenagers (my cousins' friends)... and many more. T'was like 'fiesta' that night! There's music... and lights and lamps everywhere! There were also lots of food(delicious food) on the tables.

After dinner, daddy gave a speech that broke me to tears. He said that he's thankful coz he reached his age (he's already 83), he's able to see his grandchildren and great grandchildren. he's thankful for his family and friends and for 'daddy's li'l girl',Ann (ehem,that's me) for being there on his birthday,even i have this 'hectic' schedule. He also said that his birthday won't be happier if i wasn't there(favoritism?), and that he misses 'daddy's girl' so much. When i heard those, i ran to him and hugged him. Damn! Though I'm enjoying my totally different life here in Manila, i realized that I'm still missing something, i missed my family so much! I missed my daddy, my daddy who stood as my father when papa and mama separated. My daddy, who gave me everything that i need. My daddy who's always there for me. Ahh, so much of the cheesy stuff Kristina! Anyway, though there was a 'drama' part, i did enjoy the night! I missed partying the old way! I missed my family and my hometown.

Saturday morning, i woke up at 8:00AM, checked my mails then i got myself ready for my flight back to Manila. At 1 o'clock i left Zamboanga, while i was still on the plane, i can't help but cry, i miss my family so much. To divert my attention, i kept myself busy by reading the magazine that i brought with me from Manila. Then i didn't notice that I'm already in Manila.

From the airport i hailed a cab to Taft (MRT)Stn.,then from there i took the MRT to Quezon Ave., when i got there our house help was already there waiting for me. I gave her some of my things then took the train again to Ayala for our band practice. While on the train i saw a familiar face standing in front of me, t'was G-Boy, my band mate! He was also on the way to our band practice. Good thing i have somebody to talk to on the way to Perfect Pitch.

When we got to the venue, our band mates were already there. Then we started our practise. The practise went well. After our practise we had a great dinner at NorthPark with the band. Then we called it a night. G-Boy and i took a bus from Ayala to Quezon Ave., unfortunately we weren't able to notice that the bus we took was Quezon Ave. ibabaw, so we had no choice but to get off at SM North then from there we took a jeep to PANTRANCO. When we reached PANTRANCO we waited for a cab that will take me home. Luckily, i easily got a cab. I bade my goodbye to G-Boy then I'm off home! I got home at around 12:00AM.
Whew, what an itinerary! Its tiring, but its worth it!

My First Blog for 2006 and my first blog for Kristinions...

I have nothing much to write now, it's just that my friend and officemate asked me to create an account here and just write anything. it seems so hard for me to compose a post here, its like my first time blogging ,though it isn't, coz i have my spots in friendster and 360 as well. This is my first entry here so don't expect much coz i'm having my 'first time jitters' all over again! In fairness to this site, the page is so manageable. you can create your page the way you wanted it to be. Unlike the others. Don't get me wrong i'm not talking on behalf of the other bloggers, i'm only talking for myself!
Next time that i'll have nice stories or thoughts to share, i'll post it here. And that's for sure!