Dare Day 1

It's already November and as I backtracked all my blog entries I only made a total of 21 as opposed to the 44 I had at this time of the year last year. It's not that I packed all my stuff up and lived in a cave, nor did I go backpacking in Mars. Blogging requires a lot of thinking but this doesn't necessarily means that all my posts made sense, it's just that tweeting is easier to do. Just spew words less than 140 characters and you're good to go. So I got into a dare with my friends that I'll be blogging every single day that I tweet. I'm not really sure if I'm up for this but the dare was already made so that left me with no choice.

And this is my first entry since the dare started, so please bear with the very sensible post that I'm making. I promise (again) I'll be better.

Sammie and Lexi are you happy now? Hahaha! Love you gels.

Dream, Dream, Dream

I have this recurring dream for the past 3 days. I'm always someplace where I've never been in real life. At first, the setting was in a forest, with foliages, and waterfalls, the place reminds me of the waterfalls in Puerto Rico where they filmed Wizards of Waverly Place the Movie. Then there's this guy, I don't know who he was because I can't see his face but I'm pretty sure he was a guy. He held my hand and ushered me near the falls, his touch felt so warm and safe. I felt like I know him forever and.. hate to say this but I felt like I love him. I can feel a connection between us. We never got to the falls because I woke up.

The second dream, we met again, in a beaten path on a cliff. This time I can almost see his face, just almost but I never got to see it. We talked about the things that we saw along the way, his voice doesn't sound familiar but I know that I could trust him. When we reach the top of the cliff he told me to stay close to him, because somewhere along the climb I know I told him that I have fear of heights. Then my alarm went off and I woke up again.

And in the third dream, I was on a secluded beach. I saw someone parasailing, and I knew that it was him again. I don't know how he did it but after I blinked he was right beside me. He told me that a little sunshine does me good. He asked if I want to go sailing with him or just lay on the sand. I said that I'd love it if we'll just stay on the hammock tied between the two coconut trees. He let me stay in the hammock, and I fell asleep (in the dream). Then my alarm went off again. Damn this alarm.

So last night, I decided not to set my alarm because there's a part of me that wishes to see him again and maybe see his face too. Lucky me, I didn't dream of him last night and I was almost late for work because I overslept, and because some pathetic loser DID NOT SET HER ALARM.

An Open Letter to Pepeng

Dear Pepeng,

You know we Filipinos are very hospitable but I'm really sorry, we can't accomodate you this time, it is known that your brother Ondoy just visited us last weekend and we have already given him almost everything we've got, even some of our loved ones and we are still coping with our loss.

Can you please skip our country and maybe go to South China sea instead? I know it's not as big as the Pacific Ocean where you came from but maybe you'll love it there. Who knows, right? Maybe a little fun under the sun will do you good.

I am hoping you'll grant my little request.

Your friend,

Kristin

Reverie

As much as possible I keep my mind from wandering when I'm off to bed, having no thoughts at all makes me drift off to sleep easily. But when I'm riding my way to work, that's when I let my thoughts go wandering.

Sometimes I think about having the coolest job ever, like being paid to travel the world, there are also times when I think about how I should've acted or reacted on situations that already happened. And often times I think about my dream job, and dream life. There's a dream job but of course it won't guarantee us the life that we dream about, but I still think about it. Who cares? These are my thoughts anyways!

So back to my thoughts today. I'm a rockstar. I was riding in a limo from the Ritz Hotel where I'm staying in London to the concert venue, the O2 arena. When I got off the limo, paparazzi were everywhere! And all the press were there hoping to score even a minute with me. The security had a hard time ushering me backstage, the crowd was mad! AfterI got backstage, I got ready. Had my costume and make-up and tuned my guitar, the concert was about to start. I was told by the production assistant that I'm on. I went center stage, just when I was about to start singing I heard a fan sigh "Oh my god", or so I thought. That's where I was pulled from my reverie. I realized I'm not in a limo nor going to MY concert, no fans waiting, cheering and screaming for me but I'm on a shuttle on my way to work, where my deskful of reports that needs to be done is waiting for me.

I don't know why I wrote this entry but I think part of me wants you to know what I dream about and how carried away I am sometimes with my thoughts. I don't really know. But one thing I'm sure about, I dream a lot! And I think that's the only way that I can be anything that I want to be.

I Love NYC

I went home for a week to contemplate over some things, unfortunately no contemplation was done back home. But I did just this past week. I've been thinking of leaving my job (again) but this time it's for real, no more cold feet and whatever it is that held me back before. My friend Joannie asked me to move to NYC with her next year, we'll be roomies for a while maybe until I can find a job that will be able to pay for a decent apartment. She's been asking me forever to move to the states, the other year she asked me to move in with her, but due to financial instability on my part (blame it on shopping and trips to wherever) I wasn't able to do so. But this time I'm kind of prepared already. I've been saving up for a while now, mind you no new expensive stuff for me this year (except for the shoes that I already paid and pre-ordered last year), and my mom is also on board about me moving to NYC. She promised to pay for my fare back home if ever I won't make it there, but I'm positive and crossing my fingers that I'll make it, not just make it but make it BIG in the BIG APPLE.

I always love New York, I love the weather there. I grew up in a tropical country but I sure love the four seasons! And I don't know if it's just me but I think the women there are very fashionable, very NY chic! And I won't mind taking the subways, walking five blocks or more nor the blaring sirens in the middle of the night. Moving in to the big city is a big step for me, but this is a once in a lifetime chance, I really need to take this. So what if I won't make it there? I can always find my way back home and shrug it off and say "at least I tried".

I am so excited about this that I don't spend my money anymore on anything 'cute' or 'nice' that I see. And I don't go out that much anymore, I spend most of my spare time in my room reading or having a DVD marathon of SATC and Gossip Girl. See, even my choices of TV programs are/were filmed in the city.

I am not expecting to go the SATC way, but maybe something similar. I'm not looking for love in NYC but I'm definitely looking for labels! We all know the biggest flagship stores of the biggest fashion labels are there. And definitely looking forward to Saks Fifth Avenue and Barneys New York! I know they're stores are bigger in NYC than in LA.

Ok stop. I need to focus on saving up first before drowning my hard earned money on all the designer stuff.

And by the way, the thing that sealed the deal? I took 2 different quizzes in facebook about "Where you should live" and "What state in the US you should live" and both resulted to New York City. I know it's lame but it only shows that I'll fit in New York. :)

Home Is Where The Heart Is

I'm back! Not only here in Blogger but also in the city and definitely at work. I went home last Saturday (18th) in the province for my dad's (my grandfather) birthday. I think the one-week break made me better physically, emotionally, spiritually as well as financially (thanks my dear family). When I was home, all I did was just eat, sleep and swimming almost everyday. I really had a great time. Unfortunately, I wasn't able to bond with one of my favorite people: my youngest cousin Krizle. She wasn't able to come home because of her summer internship. I only got to spend an hour with her when they sent me off at the airport.

I'm missing dad and mom, my momma, my aunts and cousins. Our gathering for our dad's birthday is not as fun as it used to because we're not complete. My brother and three cousins as well as my three nieces weren't there. But still it's fun. Just seeing some of our family members is fun enough for me.

It's just ironic because when I'm here in the city I always wish to come home, but when I was there I realized that the province is not my home anymore. It's our family's home but this city is my home now, it feels homier here than anywhere else. Maybe because I made this my home myself.

Why I'm Not Updating?

I'm blaming Plurk and Facebook. :p

Don't really have to think of something to write, all you got to do is just spew words! Hahaha.

Chasing Harry Winston, Are We?

I have some of my closest friends that already tied the knot and most of my not so close friends also want to go down that road too. I've been bombarded with questions lately by family members and mostly friends, either long time or just acquaintances, and every time I am asked that dreaded question my almost automatic answer would be "It's not on my 5 year timeline but I'm considering of getting there someday", and sometimes I just answer them back with a question "Is there one for sale?". And most times if not every time after I answered their question they have this look. the weird look., the what-planet-are you-from look! I must say that I'm amused of their reactions but often times confused. When a girl my age (23) is getting married some assumes that maybe that girl is knocked up, and if not they would question why is she doing it at such a young age, but on my case and cases of women like me who happen to be career-oriented we get raised eyebrows and lines like "You are not getting any younger", "you need to settle down". So it sometimes get really confusing. The people around us just need to figure where they stand.

Speaking for myself, I never really imagined myself getting married, even a sa kid. Ok, I think I had, when I had my first serious relationship that lasted longer than my affair with Karl Marx (Sociology 1). That time, dare I say it I was deeply in love, that's what I thought before he dumped me for a girl that his mom wants for him. And he said he's considering taking her as his wife even if he didn't like her because he didn't want to disappoint her mom. And to think he was only a Junior in college! And I think that marriage planning of me and him jinxed it all (but thinking about it now, I'm still thankful. I can't be with someone who can't decide for himself). So that was my first and only in 10 years I hope (6 years down). I can't really say that that that's the reason, but maybe it all boils down to me afraid of de javu, I came from a broken family and getting over your parents break up is a tough call. And I never want to go that road in this lifetime again. Call me selfish but I just happen to love me, and doesn't want me to get hurt again.

Maybe you're wondering why the serious post? Nothing really serious happened, I'm just turning 24 next month and within a week I got asked with that dreaded question more than 5 times in just a matter of week. Also I just happen to finish reading Lauren Weisberger's Chasing Harry Winston.

I'm not chasing *Harry Winston, not anytime soon. But I'm open to the idea when the timing is right and with the right person. Why not? But the much bigger question is when do we know if the person and timing is right?

*Harry Winston Diamond Corporation is a specialist diamond enterprise with premium assets in the mining and retail segments of the diamond industry. The Company supplies rough diamonds to the global market from its 40% interest in the Diavik Diamond Mine, located in Canada’s Northwest Territories. The Company’s retail division, Harry Winston Inc., is a premier diamond jeweler and luxury timepiece retailer with salons in key locations including New York, Paris, London, Beijing, Tokyo and Beverly Hills. Thus they are known for their engagement rings.

WE Came Back

I had one of those "awakening" moment in one's life over the weekend. And because it happened at the first day of the month, and of the week (Sunday) it must really mean something, right?

I thought I was having one of those lazy Sundays I'm used to have but out of the blue the least person that I expected to contact me did sent me a message. He wants us to meet up, it wasn't the first time he asked me that but I kept on delaying and there was one time that I ignored his message, as if I didn't receive it. But last Sunday was different, or should I say I felt different. I gave in to his suggestion and we met up. It's funny because what I thought to be an awkward situation, isn't 'that' awkward after all. I remembered the last time we talked I was hurting and acted like a total bitch to him (which I think is justifiable because of what he did to me). And it really surprised me because we took off the same place where we got off. As if nothing ever happened, as if one of us just went on a long vacation in a remote island with no means of communication whatsoever.

I never felt so relieved in my entire life (except for that one time I crashed my friend's motorcycle and I haven't had a scratch), he's like my other half, my life ain't complete without him. And not being able to talk to him for 4 months was the longest 4 months of my life. I was floating during those for months, I had happy moments but I can't be happier because I wasn't able to share it with him.

I know that we should talk things to be able to move on, but I think were not of that kind. In our species, we forgive and we forget. No ifs, no buts. Maybe that's always how it is when it comes to family. (No Sam, I'm not talking about Mr. D. I'm talking about my brother. And about Mr. D, we're friends (estranged friends! Hahaha) Because we know in our hearts that no matter what we do and what we'll ever do our family will always be there for us at the end of the day.

Movies Moved Me!

I finally watched Slumdog Millionaire and I can say that Slumdog is a great movie. To tell you the truth, while I was watching the Oscar's I was praying that Benjamin Button will win the Best Picture but when it didn't I was kind of disappointed so to prove myself wrong that maybe Slumdog deserves to win the Best Picture award I watched the movie.

After watching the movie I can finally agree with the Academy, I can tell a lot of good things about the movie, but sometimes I think that Slumdog is more like August Rush, the protagonist (Jamal) is either his life is just so full of coincidences or he's just plain lucky. Imagine the things he'd been through as well as Latika and yet they still find their way to each other. And the journey to each other's arms is just to tragic for me, it seemed like the universe conspired to break them apart since day 1, but at least the movie had a happy ending, right? Is dancing with "your destiny" on the train station considered a happy ending? I really hope so.

So if you want to watch an award worthy film, watch this movie. The next movie that I'll be watching later will be The Reader, I heard it's a great film too. Sad that I can't say the same for Revolutionary Road, the plot is just too complicated for me but the acting is really superb! Leo and Kate are more than great in this film. I cried with both of them, and Kate left me wondering what the h*ll could be possibly wrong with her, her character is tad complicated and problematic, one minute I thought she was having this psychological disorder. It's one of those movies that has a dark ending, or not so dark. Though I didn't like the plot of the movie, the actors and the acting is worth watching.

Day 13 - Little Thankies

1. Waking up late.
2. Problem solved! ☺

Day 12 - Little Thankies
Ferbuary 15

1. Waking up late!
2. Yummy lunch.
3. Sleeping in on a lazy Sunday.
4. Sleeping late.
   

Day 11 - Little Thankies
February 14, 2009

1. Last work day of the week!
2. Call from mom.
   
3. Finally our appointment at PAG-IBIG is done!
4. Valentine goodies from the management.
5. Sleeping late!
   

30 Random Facts About Me!

OK, so I've done this post before. But I am tagged again so that means I have to DO IT AGAIN. Please stop tagging me people, I might not be able to leave some mystery to the netizens anymore.

So here goes my list and this was my list a couple of years ago...

1. I love Amy Tan and Paulo Coelho so much.
2. I hate wearing sky high heels but most of my shoe collection is consisting of those. (How ironic is that? What can I do I love Carrie Bradshaw!)
3. I love watching cartoons and other tweens' show. (I am very young at heart)
4. I eat more veggies now than I used to.
5. I still paint and do some sketches every once in a while.
6. I still hate boy bands.
7. I love Stella McCartney, Marc Jacobs, Balenciaga and Vivienne Westwood's designs.
8. I watch too much TV, be it news or just another TV junk.
9. I read Cosmo and RDAsia every month. Also US InStyle and Vogue.
10. I love dressing up.
    
11. I still prefer sleeping over eating.
12. I get off a couple of blocks before our building when commuting so I can do a little walking.
13. I'm not really a drinker but when I do I prefer Cosmo and Margaritas.
14. I love Greek, Italian, American and Filipino dishes.
15. I always dream of meeting Jim Sturgess in person after watching him in Across the Universe. As well as Cameron Diaz, Kate Hudson and Julia Roberts.
16. Augustana, Bowling For Soup and Switchfoot are my fave bands.
    
17. I love reality TV. Stylista, Make me a Supermodel, ANTM, and Amazing Race. And other "reality" TV shows, The Hills, The City, Newport Harbor.
18. I daydream about being friends with some Hollywood celebrities and these amazing fashion designers.
19. I also daydream of writing this incredible script for a movie in Hollywood, and being one of the most sought after fashion designer. (My god, I live in a bubble!)
20. I tried Pilates, but I'm too lazy to continue the course.
21. I still have my baby pillow till now, can't sleep without it. I carry it in my luggage whenever I travel. Can this be our little secret please? ☺
22. I love going to the Salcedo Park weekend market.
23. My all time favorite song is You're So Vain by Carly Simon, I can sing and dance with it! "♪♪you walked in to a party like you were walking unto a yacht...♪♪"
24. I love reading and writing. I got bunch of books and lots of my "paper works".
    
25. I wrote a novel and the only person who read it is my bestfriend. I also wrote a TV script for Charmed when I was in HS (my friends and I were a fan), and a lot of short stories I published on the web and the greatest of them all is the short story that got published in RDAsia (My Story section)! I'll post it soon, I promised. I am just so excited now I can't stop thinking about it when they told me.
26. I used to dance during my grade and high school years.
27. I never been to a prom.
28. Everybody loves PBJ (Peanut Butter and Jelly) sandwich but I can't take it. I hate peanut butter.
29. I prefer sleeping in than partying out.
30. I only cut class once during my entire HS years.
    

Day 10 - Little Thankies

1. I tripped and ruined my shoe, good thing Donald, my officemate helped me fixed it. ☺
2. My (personal) errand today was completed.
   
3. Before I completely ruined my shoe, my cousin picked me up and brought me my filpflops.
4. Hot coffee bun greeted me when I came home.
5. Talked to my HS friend.
   

Day 9 - Little Thankies

1. Feeling good and psyched.
2. Short waiting line at KFC during lunch time.
3. Taylor Swift Fearless album.
   

Day 8 - Little Thankies
February 11, 2009

1. Getting the hang of waking up early.
2. Yummy breakfast
   
3. A happy lunch with 2 of my officemates, just like the good old times.
4. Potato salad and grilled chicken from World of Chicken
   

Day 7 - Little Thankies

1. Nutella sandwich for breakfast.
2. Morning breeze.
3. I woke up early for my first day on morning shift.
4. Patience towards effing clients.
5. Great day at work.
   

Day 6 - Little Thankies

1. Got home safely.
2. New schedule. (i don't know if I'm gonna like it, but at least it's a change)
3. SATC movie (I'm really a fan, watched it more than once actually)
   

Day 5 - Little Thankies

1. A very sound sleep.
2. Very nice weather (for sleeping)
3. So early for work.
4. A nice chat with officemates.
5. Bowling For Soup! Still the best!
   

Day 4 - Little Thankies

1. Waking up late
   
2. My favorite dish for lunch
3. SATC DVD
4. Carrie Bradshaw
   

Day 4 - Little Thankies
February 6, 2009

1. Still no work tonight
2. still looking forward to a good night sleep
3. SATC DVD!
   

Day 3 - Little Thankies
February 5, 2009

1. No work tonight!
2. Pay day!
   
3. Nutella sandwich
4. Looking forward to a good night sleep
   

Day 2 - Little Thankies

1. A sumptuous lunch.
2. Arrived at work on time (I woke up later than usual today)
3. David Lanz' (instrumental) music, which is good for *Pranayama.
4. Sheila's tips on yoga.
5. Van Houten chocolates after dinner.

*Yoga breathing, or Pranayama, is the science of breath control

Day 1 - Little Thankies

I've been planning on making a little list each day of the things that I am thankful for each day, I had the idea when I watched The Secret which was a couple of years ago. Then earlier today when I was doing my usual rounds of blog hopping, I noticed that one of the blogs that I've been following and haven't checked for about two weeks is making her "little graces" list each day, and with that I was inspired to start my own!

Day 1 - Little Thankies

1. Spam! I don't know what's with Spam but I really love it.
2. A gigantic jar of Nutella.
3. August Rush ( I watched it again, really love the music)
4. Ballet flats (I've been wearing stilettos for work for a week but today I chose flats)
5. Leo Tolstoy's Anna Karenina (still reading it)
6. Being able to watch 7 Pounds while at work. :)

So there goes my first day list, I am hoping I could kick this up for a month or forever!

Messed Up

I want to do many things this year, something that I haven't done in my entire life. Say bungee jumping, sky diving, whitewater rafting and the likes. For some who don't know me that much and have only seen me once or twice you'll never imagine that I'm that kind of person. Everyone's perception of me is that I'm the biggest dork they've ever seen! I don't look sporty nor dress up like one. I'm just your typical dorkerella, but deep inside me is an adventurer, a risk-taker (as long as the risk is not that much because I still believe in Spice Girls' "too much of something is bad enough"). But there are also some stuff I want to do that doesn't involve me breaking every bone in my body or drowning. I want to go and see the world. Meet people of different races, and try to live their life (way of living) for a while. I want to do so many things this year!

For starters, I want to read more books than last year. And so far I've read Amy Tan's Saving Fish from Drowning, reread Paulo's The Alchemist (I thought it was timely for the start of the year) and I'm starting to read another one, Leo Tolstoy's Anna Karenina. And I got a lot of books lined up for the upcoming months. The down part is, when I'm at home I don't get to read anything aside from my monthly subscriptions of Cosmo, RDAsia, and other mags that have my favorite stars on the cover. And mind you, reading these mags is a challenge to me already because there's just so much to do at home like keeping my closet tidy, doing the laundry (yes i do that on my own now to save some cash), drawing/sketching, watching movies (which I've been doing lately, averaging 2 movies a day) and of course the most important thing *drum roll* sleeping! So it's really tough to keep up with the things-i-wanna-do thingy.

And just like now, I've planned to continue reading the book but the computer and internet tandem is really a temptress! So now I ended up closing the book and blog! And speaking of blog I also want to change my blog's look but I just don't have the time now to make a new header. Sigh. I am pretty messed up. I need time-management tips (and can you also toss some financial management tips on the side?) pronto!

Since I'm pretty messed up... let's make this entry messed up too. And here's a segue to the Shopaholic series by Sophie Kinsella, they have a film version of it and will be realeased next month. I am not really excited about this movie because they made Becky Bloomwood all-American! She can't be! The Becky Bloomwood I know is bloody BRITISH as well as Luke and she shops at Harrod's not Barney's (not until she went to NYC)! I just can't get over it, Becky is supposed to be in London because New York is Lizzie Nichol's! Whatever !I'm still watching it! Just want to have a few good laughs. I miss watching chick flicks these days.

Speaking of chick flicks, I finally picked my favorite stars. It's a triple tie! Julia Roberts, Cameron Diaz and Kate Hudson. I figured they are my favorite because during my christmas vacay most of my days were spent watching every movies of these three ladies. I really, really want to be friends with them! I'm pretty messed up like that! Hahaha! And they're not just funny on movies, even in real life. You should watch Cam and Kate's tv show guestings, really funny!

Ok enough of this crap. I promise I'll post something better than this next time. Ok I take that back, I won't promise, I'll just try. Ciao!

New Year Update

It's been a year since the last time I was here. Yeah, it's already 2009 so there. I wouldn't dish about how I spent the holidays because I can't really remember all the details because I was either asleep or drunk! Just kidding (although partially true). But I'm certain of one thing... it was one of the best holidays of my life, I swear!

Anyway, I already got back to work a week ago but it's just now that I felt updating this blog since it's really outdated. This year I won't make any resolutions because I am also certain that I won't be able to live with it for the whole year. SO it just make sense that I just don't make any promises to others and to myself, specially. But new year's resolution aside I am or I will try to be always on time for work. Six working days have gone by and I only had one tardy and it was only a minute! Woohooo! I am doing great so far. I am also trying my best to stay fit and healthy so now for lunch break I am only going to have 2 packets of soda crackers and water. I think I still sounded like making my new year's resolution... Anyway, it doesn't matter because I didn't sign any contract regarding these.

By the way, I just finished reading Amy Tan's Saving Fish From Drowning and I like it! It's fun and funny! :) And I just watched The Curious Case of Benjamin Button today and it really made me cry. I hate you Brad and Cate you made me cry and look at my eyes now! They are so puffy! I like the screenplay, better than Fitzgerald's short story. The film made me realize that we don't have to judge a person because of his/her decisions because at the moment it might hurt us and feel really bad about life but in the future we'll realized that what we thought a bad decision was a great decision after all.

So there... I hope you'll watch the movie and read the book that I have just watched and read.