Last Argument

Day 20: The last argument you had.

The last argument I had was with my brother. It's not something huge though. It was just about what we're having for dinner, if it's pasta or any dish with rice. But honestly, I argue with myself a lot of times.  It works for me, especially when I'm having doubts. I play good cop at the same time the bad cop. It's my way of weighing things out. 

My Favorite Things

Day 19: Something that never fails to make you feel better.

Have you heard of the song My Favorite Things? No? It was sang by Maria in The Sound of Music? No? Really? Do you live in a cave? Anyway, the song is supposed to make you feel better when you are sad. The song is about all your favorite things. Anyway, here's a video of the song for you to have an idea about what I'm talking about.

 

Here's a list of the things that make me feel better:

1. Chocolates - my instant pick-me-upper. 
2. Good book - When I read a good book, I tend to forget about what's happening in the world.
3. Bacon - I can eat bacon my entire life. If only I wouldn't die of too much fats and cholesterol in my body.
4. A cold shower - never fails to make me feel refreshed every time.
5. Candies - Jelly Bellys, Skittles, Nerds... I would welcome you with open arms!
6. Comforting hug - I'm not a hugger, but I do enjoy comforting hugs.
7. Shopping - if it's a free shopping spree! 

Disrespecting Parents

Day 18: Disrespecting parents

I know I'm not the model daughter, not even close but I know that disrespecting your parents is one of the biggest sin a child would ever commit. I have this great respect for them because they were the ones who "made" me. Regardless if they raised me or not, I wouldn't care, bringing me out of this earth is enough for me to thank them for the rest of my life.

What Scares Me

Day 17: Things that make you scared.

There aren't lots of things that make me scared. I'm quite a toughie you know. I love watching scary movies (the genre, not the movies with the same title). It gives me quite a thrill and I like that. But there are just certain things that I am really afraid of, that would have me screaming and running.

1. Roaches - whether crawling, flying I just can't stand them. When I was a kid, I wasn't afraid of them but since I have learned how much germs they carry with them... Arghh... I just can't stand them. If I see one in my bedroom before I go to bed, chances are I won't be able to sleep the whole night.
2. Arachnids - I can take the house spiders but other than that, no thanks. I know how poisonous they can be. 
3. Deep waters - I'm the worst swimmer in the history of worst swimmers. I'm not really sure if I know how to swim or I just know how to stay afloat for a little while. Regardless if I know how to swim or not, I still don't like deep waters. I had this knee injury during the sophomore year in college and when it is soaked in water I tend to have this killing sprain. So, if I'm somewhere deep I'll have no way of getting myself out of the water. Maybe I'll just stop breathing and wait for my time.
4. Death - I know it is inevitable. But I'm still afraid of it. I'm not scared of dying, but I'm scared of the outcome of having someone you care about die. It's just the worst feeling in the world.

3 Things I Like About Me

Day 16: 3 Things you are proud of about your personality.

There are lots days when I am proud of myself, but there are also certain days when I feel like I don't amount to something. But today, I'm going to write about the things that I am proud of about myself.

Never Give Up Award

I am the kind of person who never rarely gives up. Even if the whole world is expecting me to quit, I don't. That's one of the traits of a fiery Aries. I have this thought that "what if at the time that I decided to give up, I was just a foot away from winning or getting what I want?" So I never quit, unless I know it's a hopeless case, but it's a different story though.

Don't Care Attitude

Yes, I have mastered the art of deadma (not caring). I care for other people of course, I just don't care what other people think of me. I used to listen to every comment people say about me, but it got me nothing but low self-esteem. And I have decided that whatever I will do, people will always have something to say about me. So, I just let them be.

Good Memory

I don't know if this is a gift or a curse. I remember everything. Even the tiniest detail. No, I don't have the eidetic memory of Mike Ross (Hello Mike Ross!) but I have good enough memory to remember the good and the bad. It is a gift because I remember all the happy memories in detail, like watching a movie or an AVP, but it's also a curse because I will never forget all the times that my heart has been broken. And not just the memory, I can also recall the pain that I went through.

This Week's Report

Day 15: The best thing that happened to you this week.

Since I'm basically 7 days late with this challenge, I'm just going to talk about the present week. This week, my cousins, friends and I helped out with the relief efforts for the victims of typhoon Haiyan (Yolanda). We repacked hygiene kits as well as food packs for the thousands of families that were affected by the devastation. It was tiring but it was also fullfiling knowing we were able to make a difference even in our own little way.

Work-wise, it's practically the same every week. And it's still complicated. Yes, that's how I describe the relationship I have with my work. I have a love-hate relationship with it. And seriously, programming is complicated. It is the activity that cost me three quarters of my brain cells. So pardon me if I don't make sense most of the time or when I don't recognize you even if we see each other on a daily basis and we actually had interaction more than thrice. Please don't take it against me, take it against my diminishing brain cells.

And about that "thing", well... it's still a work in progress. ☺

Ewww

Day 14: Something disgusting that you do.

I may have a blurred line between normal and weird but I can surely identify what's disgusting and what's not. I seriously can't think of anything disgusting that I do. The only thing that I think is disgusting is my laziness of doing the laundry. Yeah, I love dressing up but ironically I hate doing the laundry. My mom always complain when she visits because I have this huge pile of dirty laundry in my room. I think it's disgusting because I'm a girl and I'm supposed to NOT have a piled up laundry.

Update: 

And ohh, while I was on the train this morning and I saw a kid chewing a gum and I remember that when I was a kid my mom never let us chew gums. She (as well as my grandma) thinks that it's not appropriate for girls to chew gums. So whenever I got the opportunity to chew a gum it's like heaven! It's just once in a blue moon that I get to taste one, so it feels like Christmas! The disgusting part you ask? When the sweetness of the gum is gone, I put a teaspoon of sugar in my mouth and chew the gum again. Ewww. Yes, I know. But I just can't afford to spit a gum out right away. It's a rare commodity so, you gotta do what you gottta do. 

Just so you know, I stopped popping sugar in my mouth while chewing a gum during high school. Because I got extra cash to buy my stash of gum. And it was also banned from my school, and well my mom was right... Girls chewing gum is not a good sight to see.

Ideal Date

Day 13: A date you would love to go on.

My ideal date is nothing fancy. I don't want to go to a fancy restaurant and have food that I can't even pronounce. In fact, I want my date to be low key. I want something "unplanned". I just want the day to unfold by itself. We can start by going to a park, then eat some street food, go sight seeing in the metro and maybe grab a cup of coffee while people watching. And finally cap the day while watching the sunset.

This is the kind of date that I would love to go to because I don't have to be anyone else but myself. Yes, I would love some fancy dinner but I'd rather that we spend the day talking about ourselves than worrying about how much we've spent on a single dish. Or worst worrying if it's ok that we go Dutch or I'll let you pay for everything. And I don't want to obsess about the clothes that I'm supposed to wear, if it'll go with shoes and my purse. Truthfully, I don't really care where my date takes me, as long as we click we're sure going to be a hit! 

Dear Ex

Day 12: Things you want to say to an ex.

When I first saw this blog challenge and got to number 12, I thought I have lots of things to say to my exes. Then came the 12th day of the challenge, and I ran out of things to say to them. I'm not sure if I don't have anything to say, or I just don't want to say anything to any of them.

It already happened, let's just put the past behind. So, I think if ever I have to say anything to them... It will be:

"Thank you for being a part of my life. I'm sorry we didn't work out. We were young, we were fools, we were just never meant to be."

"And you were basically stupid and a douche for telling me that you'll wait for me and then getting another girl pregnant. I just wish you never said that you'll wait so I won't expect, and I won't come running home from my "bright future" you freaking moron."

Singletons

Day 11: Your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is.

So, when this will ever end? This is the topic that I hate the most. No, don't get me wrong. I LOVE being single and all it's perks. I'm just not a fan of the stares people give you when they find out that you're single. It's like you have this really contagious disease that everyone will start talking about you. Or worst, you have this terminal illness that everyone will have pity on you. Yes, I'd rather have the first than the latter. I can take being avoided but being pitied on? I just can't. Now, I'm going to make a list of the pros and cons of being single.

Pros:

1. You don't need your partner's permission if you want to go on a weekend trip with your girl friends.
2. You don't have to explain yourself why you have to go on a trip alone.
3. You can decide to just do nothing the entire weekend.
4. No anniversaries, monthsaries,weeksaries and other -saries  to remember. And this also means you don't have to buy presents for your "someone".
5. And you don't have to wear those "über cute" couples' shirts. (Barf bag please).

Cons:

    1. You get tired of eating dinner by yourself. Table for one please.

    2. You have no one to talk to when all of your friends are hanging out with their special someone. 

    3. You have no one to cuddle with but your oversized pillow.

    4. No anniversaries, no gifts.

    5. You're constant texter is your network provider.

Drugs and Alcohol Don't Mix

Day 10: Your views on drugs and alcohol

I am against any kind of drugs, except medical of course. That has been and will always be my stand. I just don't get it. People know that it's not good for them, yet they still use it. Many lives were lost to drugs, many relationships and families have been broken because of drugs too. And besides, I heard those stuff are really expensive. I would rather spend my hard earned money on food, a new pair of shoes, clothes and some more food. My kind of high is the high you get from shopping and eating. 

It's a different story when it comes to alcohol though. I drink, yes I do. But I'm not an alcoholic (that's what all alcoholic says) and I'm sure about that. But I do enjoy a bottle of beer every once in a while with my friends, or a glass or two of Cosmo. Or we can get crazy and gulp a pitcher in one sitting. I don't know what's with drinking, but it's fun especially when you drink with your friends on a Saturday night and not worrying about getting a hangover the next day because it's a Sunday.

The Last Kiss

Day 9: Your Last Kiss

If I knew that I would be doing a blog challenge and this is one of the topics, I would've taken note of the date and time that I last kissed someone. I would've written it on a note or something or maybe Instagrammed it. But I didn't and I know I wouldn't even if I knew that it will be our last kiss. So now I can't remember when exactly was it.

I know it was before my birthday, and of course I remember who and where. I wasn't drunk, neither was he. We were both sane and sober. And I can still remember the people that we're with that day. Don't you worry my non-existent blog readers, next time that I'll kiss someone I'll try my best to record each "occurrence" on my log book so that I'll be ready with my answers. Who knows, in the next blog challenge this question will still come up. Or... One day when I wake up, I will find out that the world is a huge big brother house (or world?) and each one of us is a participant. And I will be asked when was my last kiss as the million dollar question and I'll miss my shot at becoming a millionaire. 

PS I didn't think about this post, I'm so tired from all the eating, laughing and talking with my friends for 6 hours. So please please please pardon my entry.

Worries?

Day 8: Something You're Currently a Worrying About

I don't get worried so easily. So if I worry, it is really something worth worrying for. I'm like a guy when it comes to dealing with things. I compartmentalize. If there's something bothering me, I don't obsess on it. If I have something far more important to do, I pack that thing that's bothering me and put it at the back of my brain and open it when I'm able and ready. Actually, I already have a garage at the farthest corner of my brain full of unopened boxes. I know it's unhealthy but it works for me.

Ok, so much of my "unhealthy" habit and let's get back to business. The thing that's worrying me now is work. I have deadlines to meet and big projects to develop. I'm not worried because I won't be able to deliver because I know I can. But I'm worried because I might be so focused on my work and forget about living. It already happened before and cost me my relationship at that time. I just don't want to make the same mistake again. But on second thought, I'm not in a relationship so I don't have to worry about a thing. 

Why Do People Cheat?

Day 7: Your Opinion on Cheating on People

Most of the time people cheat because they wanted to get ahead. Like students during exams, and politicians so they would win the electoral races. I think the bottom line is they wanted to win so badly that they result to cheating. That, I can understand because we humans always have the urge to win it’s just up to us if we give in to that urge or not.

But when it comes to relationship, it’s a different story. If people cheat to win, then what is there to win if we cheat on the person that we love or care for? In the first place, why would you cheat if you love that person? Because last time I checked, if you love someone you’ll never do anything to hurt him/her. And cheating will definitely hurt him/her. This is a very sensitive topic for me because I have been cheated on more than I wanted to.

Being cheated on is very hurtful, you’ll feel so much pain that will make you question your will to live. It is something that will make the person cheated on to wonder what’s wrong with him/her. In my opinion, if you’re not happy with what you have, then tell the other person so that you’ll no longer prolong your agony. It will hurt, yes. But you will spare the person from another level of hurt, and you’ll spare yourself from hurting other people even more.

The Person That I Like

Day 6:  The Person You Like

Do I name the person I like or should I just describe him/her? Anyway, the person that I like who’s not fictional is someone that I see almost on a daily basis. I would like to stress the “not fictional” because I like way too many fictional people and I obsess over some of them too (Harvey Specter, hello?). Well, that’s just me being me. Moving on, the person that I was talking about.. I don’t like him as a whole (is there such a thing?). Will you judge me if I’ll tell you that I only like his body? But before you judge me, please know that HIS body is the ideal body that I want in a guy. He’s tall and buff and he kind of have a pretty face (for a guy) and he has this crazy sense of humor. If I were just a normal girl, I think I would fall for him like most girls (women and old ladies included). But certainly by now you know I’m not most girls nor normal. So, I just don’t find him as someone who will sweep me off my feet. 

In case you're wondering (since he didn't cut the part of being my future boyfriend), I'm still looking for him somewhere out there beneath the pale moonlight. :-)

What Bugs me About Guys

For the fifth day: Five things that irritate you about the opposite sex.

Hmm... I haven't really given this a thought before the blog challenge. I've lived with guys my entire life. But before you think that I'm Slutty McPhee, those guys that I've lived with are my brother and my cousins. I've lived with guys long enough that I think nothing bugs me now because I just gotten so used to them. And aside from being used to living with guys, my brother and my cousins are so easy to live with. They are very hygienic and not messy at all. Who am I to complain? I was and still am treated like a freaking royalty! Still I will try to think of something. I can't promise five though. 

Okay, so here goes my list. Just know that this list is unofficial (is there an official list?) I'll just type here whatever that comes to my mind.

30 minutes later and I haven't thought of anything worth writing here. So I think it's safe to say that I haven't found anything that bugs me about the opposite sex yet. Immersion is a great help. :-)

What You Wear to Bed

I'm a PJ's girl through and through. I love a comfy pair when I go to bed. And I also wear my socks and a sweatshirt to bed too. No, I don't live in Antarctica, but I love it when the air-conditioner's on full blast and I'm freezing like a cat in the North Pole. I am convinced that in my past life I lived in Winterfell.

What Attracts Me

This is the third post now. I'm on a roll! I hope this goes on till I reached the end of the 30 day challenge. The third day blog challenge is to write about the kind of person that attracts me.

Without further adieu this is my list:

1. He should be able to keep up with a conversation. When I'm in the mood, my mouth fires up like a machine gun. So, he should be able to keep up with me. I don't care if you are the most good looking guy in the world if you can't carry out a conversation.
2. He must not be able to just carry out a conversation, but he also needs to have substance. I want someone that I can talk to, and actually have sense. I talk nonsense most of the time so I need someone to balance out the conversation. I also want someone who is intelligent, who can spew a few (useless) trivia and who's updated with what's happening with the world.
3. And lastly, I want someone who is taller and older (5 years tops) than me. And it will be a bonus if he has this Greek/Roman nose and wears geeky (not nerdy, but cool-looking) glasses. 

If a guy has all this, and he asked me out I would say yes in a heartbeat. See? I'm not really that picky! 

The Past Two Years

This second entry is about how I have changed in the past two years. It's weird because I still feel the same but different. You know what I mean? See? I'm really weird that way. Anyway, many things happened the past two years, I lost a very special person, my maternal grandmother. I quit my job, became a professional bum, then got a temp job, and then landed the one that I have now. I also got a kick of dating someone more than a month. Trust me, it's a level up for me.

On a serious note, I think I became stronger emotionally and spiritually. I've learned to let go of things and people all the same. I have also learned that not everything you wish for is good for you. And some dreams when they come true does not necessarily mean that you'll be happy. I had also lost some guys to oblivion, but nevertheless I was happy being with them. (Please take note that by "guys" I didn't mean that I dated them simultaneously)

Physically, I think I lose some weight, and I've had my hair long and wavy, long and stick-straight, long and curly, short and curly, and now short and straight.

I think that I'm still the same person that I was two years ago, it's just that I'm a better version.

Weird Things You Do When You're Alone

I have this messed up definition of weird because I have this blurred line between weird and normal. I do weird things on a regular basis that they already became the norm. So the first post of this blog challenge is a tad bit challenging for me.

Before I even started writing this entry I have racked my brain up, down, left, right for all the weird things that I do but then again I can't seem to distinguish the normal from the weird. Tough job.

1. I start reading all the first two chapters of the new (e)books that I have on my iPad then continue reading the one that I will find most interesting.
2. Take duckface selfies on the mirror and then deleting everything. I just don't have the nerve to post those kind of photos. Or maybe, I just don't look good doing a duckface so I'm scared to death that I will be judged. And I have also read duckface is so 2012, sparrow face is the new trend for selfies. I must learn to do that. Research Kristina, research.
3. I talk to myself. You may find this weird, but I find this pretty normal. And it gets me through whatever I'm going through.
4. Whenever I'm alone I plan all the things that I want to do and then never get to do it because it's either I fall asleep or just get carried away playing games on my iPad.

Looking at the list that I made I think I'm not that weird though. Or maybe the things that I do when I'm alone are not that weird.. 

Just Another Update

It’s another long weekend, even longer than the long weekend I had last week. I’m pretty much busy balancing work and my personal life so having a long weekend is a breathe of fresh air. Yes, work takes 70% of my time but I always find time to enjoy the little things in life. 

So to prove to you that I got a life outside work I'm going to chronicle the things that I've done the past two months. It's not much but clearly it will suffice.

1. Participated on a Management Development Program Training. (I know it's still work-related but it didn't feel like one. I had the best time.)
2. Went on a 2-day vacation with family on the beach (and by family I meant cousins)
3. Agreed on two first dates (No thanks to my friends. Not really horrible, but let's just say that they're not second date material.)
4. Had food coma more than thrice. (Yes, I eat and run!)
5. Ran a 10K marathon and finished it! (Yes! I. Did. It! It's now off my bucket list.)
6. Met three new international friends. (Jane, Michelle and Sophie)
7. Got a bit wasted with Kristoff and Louie. (We partied the night away with our 3 new international friends)

I think that pretty much summed up the two months that I've been MIA on this blog. But don't you worry my non-existent readers, I'll try to post 30 more entries this month. See you around. 

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