Big Girls Still Cry

I was channel flicking early this evening, and it seemed like the universe conspired and all the channels that I was flicking through, there were always people leaving. First stop: on ABS-CBN "Anak" was on air and it was on the scene that the mother was leaving and her family are having teary goodbyes in the airport, then on ETC, the topic on Tyra's show is about leaving the comfort of your abode and lastly.. (i forgot the channel) they were showing Raise Your Voice and it was on the scene that Hilary is remembering her late brother's advice. Sad, so sad!

I've been suppressing this feeling for quite a while now, a month ago the scenario of my brother leaving for abroad is kinda far out, but now it's just around the corner. It's really official and he's leaving really, really soon. Say tomorrow! It'll be the first time after three years of living together that we'll be far away from each other. And I think the longest time that we were apart is about a couple of weeks, that's when he went to Phuket without me in tow but now he'll be gone for a couple of years! It's just sad to think about it, I'm so used to being with him.

It's only the two of us since I started working here in Manila, he's like my father, my brother and my friend in one. He's my instant movie and dinner date. He cooks our meal, cleans our place and sometimes he even does the laundry! Hey you might think that I'll only miss him because of those reasons... Partly, yeah, but there's more to it that my brother does for me. Like listening to everything that I say: when I talk about my greatest dreams, when I rant about my work, or even my comments on the TV shows or movies that I've watched and even the most nonsense things that comes to my head. He's just always there for me, always ready to be what I want or needed him to be.

I guess I'm being too emotional, I'm blaming it to PMS or maybe not. Then, I'll just blame it to global warming, I watched it on Zoey 101 that most people blame everything to global warming. I just wish my brother will have a great time there, and not worry about me here coz I know he worries a lot about me. I'll be fine here, I'm a big girl and besides I have another guardian on reserve, my cousin, Don.

Have a safe trip kuya! And I'll miss you a lot! In fact, I'm already missing you even you haven't left yet. And although I don't seem to show it but I'll be the number one person who'll be missing you the most.

Love you kuya! :)

I Promise, I'll Be Better

I am so getting worst at this! I used to post a minimum of three entries a month but now, I am down to one post per month. And since my friends and I had a conference yesterday over YM, in the middle of our conversation I asked them for suggestions on what topic I should write about here. And this was how our conversation went:

Friend1: Tin, why don’t you write about the things you’ve been doing the past week/s.
Me: Hmmnnn…
Friend2: Yeah, and tell them that all you did was sleep, eat, work, and google.
Me: Friend2, you made it sound that my life is so boring…
Friend2: Oh c’mon, you’re life is not boring, because you don’t have a life!
Me: Aww, that hurts.
Friend1: Kinda true, you know.
Friend3: How about you write something about your work since it’s what you always do?
Me: I would love to, but would you like to read about long idle time, no more leads, checking quota restriction, IVR not connecting…
Friend1: What are you talking about?
Me: See? That’s what I mean!
Friend3: Please spare us the “technicalities”
Me: Ideas friends!
Friend1: Why don’t you write about how is it being single?
Me: Friend1, you’ve been my friend for like forever, and you all know that I’ve been single for so long. So long that I don’t even remember how is it being in a relationship.
Friend2: You are so right, Tin! You can not write about that.
Me: You’re not helping, at all… wait… why don’t I post what we just talked about here?
Friend3: And publish our names?
Friend2: You can’t do that, you can never let your readers know that you have mean friends!
Me: Can’t I?
Friends1: I don’t mind… coz I think you don’t have that many readers though. But will you at least keep us anonymous?
Me: Fine! Fine!

So there goes my conversation with my friends, though they are mean sometimes (I mean often times) I still love them. Because they always tell me things what others won’t.

P.S. I promise I would post a sensible entry one day. Just keep hoping! :p

I Wish My Real Life Was Half As Interesting as the Life I Live in My Head

I’m sorry but I still have the jumper hang over. I know what you’re thinking! Yeah, I just watched it but who cares? Better late than later, err never, right? Anyway, I kinda like being a jumper, imagine you can be at any place that you like, be it in Angola or the Andromeda galaxy, in a blink of an eye, at any time of day! That would be super!

A jumper’s life is close to perfect for me, except for the part that they always break/ruin something around their jump site. I would want to jump as smooth as I can, maybe David was just inexperienced, what do you think? If that’s so, I’ll keep on practicing to have a very smooth landing.

So, I’m making a list on what my itinerary would be if I were a jumper. Note that this list is just about my average jumper day.

I’ll probably start my day with a breakfast in Switzerland particularly in Geneva where the finest chocolates and creamiest cheese can be found. After breakfast, I’ll check out the Prado in Madrid and Louvre in Paris to immerse myself with the most famous works of art in the world and of course I’ll also visit Guggenheim in Manhattan to have a dose of the finest works of art of my generation.

By noon, I’ll be in a quaint bistro in Milan and after my lunch I’ll ride a gondola in Venice. Because I can’t get enough of Italy, I’ll visit a chapel in Florence and maybe sightsee a little in Tuscany. Or maybe do a little dipping in the isle of Capri! That would be great!

My mind is already fixed that I’m going to have dinner with a special friend while watching the sunset in my favorite place on the planet, Santorini. But before I jump to Greece I won’t let a day pass without visiting Prague and Dubrovnik. These places (Santorini, Prague and Dubrovnik) are really the closest to my human heart (even if I’m a jumper).

After dinner, I’ll jump back to North America and go clubbin’ in LA and maybe hop from LA clubs to London, to Darling Harbor in Sydney! And to cap the night I’ll be back in my own little bedroom in the province. You might be asking why would I go back to my “little bedroom” when I have the whole world as my bedroom? For the simplest and cheesiest reason… there is never a place like home.

And during the days when I feel like splurging on a shopping spree? I’ll be in these places: The most high end shops in Milan and Paris, Saks and Barneys in NYC, Melrose in LA, Harrods in London, the biggest Zara store in Spain, flea markets in Hong Kong and Singapore and of course the place where I can find the cheapest stuff: DV (for Divisoria) and Greenhills in San Juan. Beat that man!

And since I live in the tropics, I can’t last a year without dipping on the beaches. So I won’t miss to visit the finest sandbars in the world, Boracay, Amanpulo, Phuket, Bora Bora, Seychelles and the Maldives…

The sweet jumper's life! Oh snap! Things like these would never happen in real life. That's the reason they do this in movies, coz it can never happen in reality. I just wish my life is like a movie, and I were a jumper. I'm (almost) convinced that I'll never be one, but a girl like me can wish, right? Sigh.

I only wish my real life was half as interesting as the life I live in my head...