Saturday, August 30, 2008

Movie Date

Ok, I'm coming out. I really feel the need to watch For The First Time this weekend. Not because of KC, definitely not because of Richard, but because some scenes are shot in Santorini, Greece! MY FAVORITE PLACE ON THE PLANET!!! The island is just so gorgeous, I can't help myself. This time it won't matter who I'm going to watch it with because I just have to watch it, even by myself. That's it. My Santorini craving is really high these days, that's because Sisterhood is not showing until the last week of September and they keep playing the trailer of For The First Time

Wanna watch it with me? :)
over and over again on TV.

Friday, August 22, 2008

Too Happy to be Sad

Screw the sad post below, I am too happy to be sad right now. I got the call that I've been waiting for, for like forever! I know I'm exaggerating again, but waiting for almost 3 weeks feels like forever to me, and besides I like to use the word. Anyway, this afternoon I got a call from an unknown number while I was napping, I didn't care to answer my phone suspecting it's from work, maybe they wanted to ask something or worst wants me to come to work earlier. So I didn't answer my phone and tried to sleep again. After my phone rang I regretted not answering it, what if that was the call that I've been waiting for? Then I remembered that I gave them two numbers so if it were the call that I've been waiting for maybe they'll call again through my other number. So I went back to sleep.

When I woke up, I had dinner, then showered after. As I was getting dressed for work my other phone rang and picked it up knowing that only my brother knows my other number and the caller that I've been waiting to call. And I was right! It was the call! I was really nervous at the same time excited. I was stuttering and blabbing maybe. I'm not really sure. All I know is that I'm on, on Monday.

I'll tell you about this call after Monday. I am really giddy and super excited right now.

I am now a fan of John Barrymore's quote "Happiness often sneaks in through a door you didn't know you left open."

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Tell me a Funny Story Please

I am sad, not just sad but really,really sad. I can't let anyone know the reason of my sadness as of the moment because a.) I haven't figure out a way to spill it b.) I'm not really good at telling sad stories specially if it involves myself. I don't even know how and where to start.

I know that life is strange but I didn't think it could get this
stranger. These past few days I've been having these weird dreams, which consists of a mammoth and an elephant rolled up in bed with me and living in a cave with all the latest technologies. See? It's past weird and went straight to strangeness! And this thing with me and my brother, I don't know what's the cause of this but I feel that's it's getting deeper and we're getting nowhere to clear the air between us. It's just hard because he's the person that I always hang out with, the only person who knows all my most embarrassing moments and the person that I can talk to when I'm feeling sad or just anything. But now I can't even talk to him, we don't see each other anymore. Life sucks when I'm not in talking terms with him.

I really need my mom and some mom meddling in this situation. I miss my brother, I miss my mom. I am really sad.

Can somebody cheer me up? A chat over coffee, smoothie or ice cream will make me feel better.

At this moment, I'm wishing I am friends with Rory and with her mom Lorelei even Lane and Mrs. Kim will do. They're really fun and quirky people. They always know what to say and they give the best punchlines! (I seriously think I better stop watching re-runs of Gilmore Girls anymore).

I watched the season premier of The Hills today because I love the show and it always makes me feel better, but after watching the show it even made me sadder. Lauren, Lo and Audrina are fighting! They can't fight! They are friends, they live together and they're such pretty, pretty friends wearing pretty pretty clothes. You know what's weird about this? I've read the news of them fighting last summer but still I'm affected.

Am I strange? Weird? Peculiar? Tell me.

Thursday, August 14, 2008

Why, Oh Why?

I am so sad Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants 2 is not showing until September 24! That's so disappointing as I've been waiting for this movie for too long. And another thing, I can't join my friends (in the states) in talking about the film as they may give away spoilers and of course because I won't be able to watch the film sooner so basically I have nothing to say. I've been searching for a release date here in the Philippines for this film and I wasn't successful until today. I stumbled upon this site and he had a post of the movies that will be released in the country this year. To save you time, I'll just paste the movies and release dates here.

  • Wed, Aug 20
    • Movies: Star Wars: The Clone Wars, My Sassy Girl, Room 213, Mother of Tears, Loving You
  • Fri, Aug 22
    • Movie: Death Race
  • Wed, Aug 27
    • Movies: She, Disaster Movie, Eating Out 2, Congkak
  • Wed, Sep 3
    • Movies: Babylon A.D., Love Guru, Three Kingdoms
  • Wed, Sep 10
    • Movies: Babang Luksa, Singles, Hellboy 2, Accidental Husband
  • Wed, Sep 17
    • Movies: Step Brothers, Mr. Housewives, Crossing Over, BangkokDangerous
  • Wed, Sep 24
    • Movies: Amnesya, Mirrors, Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants 2, Demi, Passengers
  • Fri, Sep 26
    • Movie: Eagle Eye
  • Wed, Oct 1
    • Movies: Land Down Under, American Idol, The House Bunny, Possession, Mutant Chronicles
  • Wed, Oct 8
    • Movies: Ultramagnetic Love, Lake View Terrace, Tropic Thunder, The Bachelor 2, Outlander
  • Thu, Oct 9
    • Movie: Body of Lies
  • Wed, Oct 15
    • Movies: Sundo, Wild Child, Max Payne, The Strangers, City ofEmber
  • Wed, Oct 22
    • Movies: Last Full Show, The Brothers Bloom, High School Musical 3, The Pineapple Express, Nights in Rodanthe, Crocodile
  • Wed, Oct 29
    • Movies: Righteous Kill, Ace Venura 3, He’s Just Not that intoYou, Angus Thongs and Full Frontal Snogging
  • Wed, Nov 5
    • Movie: James Bond: Quantum of Solace
  • Fri, Nov 7
    • Madagascar: Escape to Africa
  • Wed, Nov 12
    • Movies: Mag Pie, The Women, Buried Alive, Sex Drive
  • Thu, Nov 20
    • Movie: Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince
  • Wed, Nov 26
    • Movies: When I Met You, The Management, Beverly Hills Chihuahua, Minotaur
  • Wed, Dec 3
    • Movies: Quarantine, Four Christmases
  • Wed, Dec 10
    • Movies: Rocknrolla, Minimoys, Infestation
  • Wed, Dec 17
    • Movies: Carolina, Spring Break
But if you want an updated list weekly you can visit the site.

Thursday, August 7, 2008

Jeepney Ride


I've known that our country is undergoing a crisis but I never took it seriously not until yesterday morning when I was commuting my way home. I was waiting for a bus, since Wednesday is a no car/cab day for me. Unfortunately, buses are like cabs they're everywhere when you don't need them but if you do, they're nowhere to be found. After some time waiting, I decided to just take the jeepney since it's just a short commute. After all of us paid our share of fares there was this twenty-something lady asking the driver to give her her change which is Php1.50. The driver wasn't able to hear her because of the loud noise the engine of his jeepney was making. When the lady noticed that the driver wasn't listening to her she called out for her change again, and this time louder. But the driver seemed to not hear her at all. So the lady was like yelling and cursing the driver.


I can't explain what I trully felt that time. I felt sorry for the lady coz I think she really needs every cent she can lay her hands on, maybe her family is on a really tight budget. But I also felt bad for the driver because the lady was cursing him at the top of her lungs, and what if he simply just forgot or just didn't hear the lady?


I know nothing of the lady nor the driver's real side of the story. All I know is that we're all in a very uncovenient, tough, hard and whatever situation now. I really hope I can do something, anything just to be able to help.

Monday, July 21, 2008

Not This Time

Why do I have to live my life according to your schedule?

What about my
OWN LIFE and my OWN SCHEDULE???

You are so unfair! I've been very kind to you and it's always you who had the advantage of a better parking.
THIS is the very first time that I'm actually living my life and there you go ruining it just to suit your whims.

I am not doing it again. FYI I'm trying to have a life here man! Really trying.

Thursday, July 17, 2008

Fools Like Me

Here I am again on the road that I often travel, and often times I end up bruised or scraped a knee. But nevertheless when I get to the junction where I have to choose between these two roads: 1.) smooth and safe 2.) unpredictable; full of surprises. I always choose the latter. It’s not that I’m a masochist or anything like it, only that I want challenges and I don’t want to dwell on what ifs. I want to see what awaits for me at the end of the road. Whether it’s a happy ending or not, I don’t really care. At least I’ve tried. And that alone can let me sleep at night not wondering what could be and what not. I love taking risks even if its my own heart that’s at stake.

But I don’t know, I feel like I’m cursed or something… I want to borrow a line from Janet Jackson ‘every time I fall in love it seems to never last’ that best describes it. And more often than not I always fall for guys who think they are born just to play and fool around. And more often than not I’m always in a relationship situation that’s indefinable. The pseudo ones:almost but not quite. Ha! But sometimes it lasts longer than you can imagine, but still it’s just not the real deal.

And here I am again… risking it all for the nth time. But now, it’ll be different. I’ll play my cards well. And I won’t invest as much as I used to. I just hate it when I don’t know if what he’s saying is true or he’s just being funny? I really don’t know! No matter how I try to convince myself that I should just play cool and all, but still my convincing powers doesn’t work and my heart still hopes. I just hope it works and in the end it’ll be a win-win situation.

“Fools like me. How we love blindly. And the cracks won’t count. It’s got to break in front of me.”

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

One Step at a Time

Lesson learned from Jordin today that we don't have to be in a fuss, to be impatient if we want something to happen, it will happen at the right time. So for now, I'm just going to live one day at a time and take one step at a time.


"One Step At A Time"

Hurry up and wait
So close, but so far away
Everything that you've always dreamed of
Close enough for you to taste
But you just can't touch

You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet
Wonder when and where and how you're gonna make it
You know you can if you get the chance
In your face as the door keeps slamming
Now you're feeling more and more frustrated
And you're getting all kind of impatient waiting

[Chorus:]
We live and we learn to take
One step at a time
There's no need to rush
It's like learning to fly
Or falling in love
It's gonna happen and it's
Supposed to happen that we
Find the reasons why
One step at a time

You believe and you doubt
You're confused, you got it all figured out
Everything that you always wished for
Could be yours, should be yours, would be yours
If they only knew

You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet
Wonder when and where and how you're gonna make it
You know you can if you get the chance
In your face as the door keeps slamming
Now you're feeling more and more frustrated
And you're getting all kind of impatient waiting

[Chorus]

When you can't wait any longer
But there's no end in sight
when you need to find the strength
It's the faith that makes you stronger
The only way you get there
Is one step at a time

[Chorus x2]


Sunday, July 13, 2008

Almost Adventure

It's such a long plane ride from Manila to Munich but I don't feel exhausted at all. The service, the food, the very comfy blanket are really superb as well as my flying companion! Oh the perks of flying first class with a close cousin. I'm here in our cozy hotel room with my cousin relaxing for a while before we explore the city and meet up with my other cousins who are based here in Germany. We'll have a dinner tonight with my cousin and her family in their place and maybe hit the hippest club after. We'll be staying here for about a week, we'll explore this city for a while then in August we'll be back but we'll be in Berlin. In a week we'll be strolling the streets of Prague and Vienna. I am so excited about this 2 month long trip! I know it'll be an awesome experience!

Earth to you Kristina! SIGH. Snap back to reality! I'm physically sitting at my post here at work, doing what else? WORK! Whatever happens to living like an European for a couple of months? Doing god knows what in god knows where? And maybe find some hot Euro guy along the way (or hookup with Prince William in London)? In short whatever happened to 'painting the continent scarlet red'? I DON'T KNOW.

I am supposed to be in Germany now! With my cousin. We were supposed to fly together last Friday and start with our 2-month long Euro tour. But because our company sold it's sister company including some of our IT staff I can't take a couple of months off as agreed before. I can't take my break because we are not even enough to cover a 24/7 shift so here I am! I don't know why I'm so good and so loyal that even when I had more than a couple of high paying job offers in other company I didn't accept it because I always said that it's not always about the money. It's about the people you work with, if you're comfortable working with them. And I already told myself that if ever I'll take another job I'll make sure it's not IT related. I want my next job to be the job that I really want. And I want my job to be screaming 'ME'! But now... I'm thinking about quitting and flying to Europe and follow my cousin. I just want to have some time away from work, away from everything. I'm missing the days when I was still in college, being carefree but not careless. And where else would I want to do that? In Europe! I'd rather decide fast before it's not yet too late.

I just hope that my delaying this trip is worth it. But maybe, just maybe.. god have some other (better) plan for me. I hope that plan involves winning the super lotto (though I've never placed any bet), being a rock star, a TV stint, or meeting a Prince (in the Philippines??? Dream on!)!

So much of this... I'm just rubbing it more. I'll just play Chocolatier now, making/eating chocolates can make me feel really better even it's just a game. I need to get my mind occupied till 12nn, because not only I'm working on a Saturday night but also I'll be working 12 hours! So, good luck to me.

Friday, July 11, 2008

MEME 101

Dear Edward.

I don't really know how to tell you this, but I'm selling myself. I think I realized it when I tripped on sesame seeds in your camping car and I saw you sit at my avocado plant.

I'm sure you're emtional enough to understand that Santa doesn't exist.

I'm returning your ring to you, but I'll keep your left ear as a memory.
You should also know that I was interviewed by the Times about the incarnation as an Eskimo.

Your ever lasting enemy,

Kriann
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Do it like this:
Dear (the person who last texted/smsed you).
I don't really know how to tell you this, but ___1___. I think I realized it ___2___ ___3___ and I saw you ___4___ ___5___.

I'm sure you're ___6___ enough to understand ___7___.

I'm returning ___8___ to you, but I'll keep ___9___ as a memory.
You should also know that I ___10___ ___11___.

___12___,
-Your name-

1. What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I'll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn't match
Grey - You're a pervert
Yellow - I'm selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You're a loser
Other - I'm inlove with your sister

2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the shrunken head
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
November - When your dog ran amok
December - When I changed tennis shoes

3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kebab - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women's clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
Annat; With George Bush and his wife

4. What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit at
Other - Drive out

5. What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My best friend
White - My father
Grey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflé
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My penpal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy-statue
Other - The crazy monk

6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs; Man
O.C.; Emotional
One Tree Hill; Open
Heroes; Frostbitten
Lost; High
House; Scarred
Simpsons; Cowardly
The news; Mongolic
Idol; Masochistic
Family Guy; Senile
Top Model; Middle-class
Annat; Ashamed

7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful I've felt
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That Santa doesn't exist
Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we're cousins
Excited - That there is no solution to this.
Nervous - The middle-east
Worried - That your Honda sucks
Apathetic - That I did a sex-change
Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your hamster
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Overjoyous - That I'm open
Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks

8. What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your ring
Yellow - Your love letters
Red - Your Darth Vader-poster
Black - Your tame stone
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - The pictures from LA
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your contact book
Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs
Purple - Your old lottery coupons
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your memories from the military service

9. The first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your photo
C/D - The oil stocks
E/F - Your neighbour Martin
G/H - My virginity
I/J - The results of blood-sample
K/L - Your left ear
M/N - Your suicide note
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X - David's tricot outfits
Y/Z - Your grades from college

10. The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Always will remember
C/D - Never will forget
E/F - Always wanted to break
G/H - Never openly mocked
I/J - Always have felt dirty before
K/L - Will tell the authorities about
M/N - Told in my confession today about
O/P - Was interviewed by the Times about
Q/R - Told my psychiatrist about
S/T - Get sick when I think of
U/V - Always will try to forget
W/X - Am better off without
Y/Z - Never liked

11. What do you prefer to drink?
Water- Our friendship
Beer - Senility
Soft drink - A new life as a clone
Soda - The incarnation as an eskimo
Milk - The apartment building
Wine - Cocaine abuse
Cider - A passionate interest for mice
Juice - Oprah Winfrey imitations
Mineral water - Embarrassing rash
Hot chocolate - Eggplant-fetishism
Whisky - To ruin the second world war
Other - To hate the Boston Celtics

12. To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand - Warm regards
USA - Best regards
England - Good luck on your short-term leave from jail
Spain - Go and drown yourself
China - Disgusting regards
Germany - With ease
Japan - Go burn
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
Australia - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt - Fuck off now
France - In pain
Other - Greetings to your freaky family

Tuesday, July 8, 2008

Jam Packed Weekend

As the title states I had a very jam packed weekend. So jam packed that I am so exhausted to write all the stuff that I/we did.

FRIDAY night I met up with my MIS buddies, and it's really historical because it's the first time that we had more than 5 people gathered. We planned to meet up at Cappriciosa in Greenbelt 3 at 7 for dinner. But Sheina and I agreed to meet up at 4:30 to catch a movie at G4. Unfortunately, she didn't make it on time for the movie so we just skipped that part. She came from a jamming in QC, and when she was on her way to Makati she was caught up in the heaviest traffic jam in EDSA.(She arrived at past 7)

While waiting for everyone to arrived I stayed seated on the benches near the cinema in G4 for a couple of hours (imagine me seated for 2 hours and all alone), then before 7 I went to Powerbooks in G3 to find some books and do a little reading. After reading about 2 chapters of Like Water for Chocolate, Kuya Red arrived and we went to Capricciosa to score us a table since it's a Friday night the place can get a little crowded.

When we got there we started updating each other with our lives and after a few moments Kitty arrived, then Sheina, then K'Anne (with the boyfs) and lastly Sir Wilson. We had a roller coaster ride of emotions that night, we were excited, happy, shocked, saddened but all in all it was all clean fun! We just love being with each other, and we can make any moment turn into a very unforgettable one.

After dinner we waited for Shein to get a ride home, then we were off to K'Anne's house in Malabon, but we dropped Sir Wil to his workplace before going to K'Anne's place. After dropping K'Anne home we decided to have a quick stop at Metrowalk since the night is still young (1AM). We went to Seafoofd Grill, and talked over a bucket of booze, sisig and baked oysters. I tell you their oysters are superb! At par with the ones from Mr. Rockefeller, Oyster Boy and Murray's in High Street. And after some drunken talking we decided to walk to 'wash down' the booze. We've gone to the Banchetto day on Emerald Ave, and tried hard not to get tempted with the food and tried not to smell like food! The air was filled with seafood aroma. Then we walked a bit further to find a drugstore but all we've passed by are already closed so we end up walking from Metrowalk to Crossing! We let Kitty get into her cab and then kuya Red and I stayed at a fast food and had our drunken sleepy conversation over a hot fudge sundae. Then at 4:30AM we then went our separate ways and headed home.

SATURDAY

I woke up past noon and (oh god) I missed the 12NN mass. My officemates and I had a SMS conference. We were finalizing our night out together. At first it was like stop and go but we settled at go. And so our Saturday night out was set. They were going to pick me up along EDSA near Poveda at past 8. But before I went to our meeting place I stop by the shrine and said my prayers. I also asked for forgiveness for missing mass, and for everything that I was about to do (e.g. getting drunk). Then we headed to West Ave. to spend a comedic night. It was really fun, the acts are really funny hilarious! And good thing that I capped off the night with only 3 bottles of Coors, some nachos and no drunk-related episodes for me and for anyone in the group. And take note I got home earlier, like two-ish early.

SUNDAY

The the most productive of all days. Though I woke up past noon again, I was able to squeeze some "laundry business", and tidied up my place a little. Then I got a text message from Kuya Red inviting me to watch a movie with his officemates. And so I did go, but we heard mass first. Unfortunately, I only understood a phrase or three because the presiding priest had this really heavy Asian accent. It was like Indonesian-Vietnamese-Thai with a provincial Filipino accent. That heavy man! So we had a hard time deciphering the words that he said.

At 5PM, we were still in EDSA shrine and we need to get to Mega (where kuya Red's friends are waiting) before the movie starts at 5:15. We were almost running just to get to the cab lane which is at the far end of Galleria. Luckily we got to the cinema at 5:10 but the line at the ticket counters are effing long, as well as the snacks section! Good thing we got to the cinema not long after the movie started. So it was still well and good for us, the running was worth it. (we watched Wanted, I know I'm late again, ok?).

After the movie we ate at Dencio's. THEN. I headed to work. Yes, I had a shift at work that night. And the most productive part is... I've acquired all the factories in Chocolatier 2! Huh! I'm very good at it! And not only that I also have more than $20 mil! I'm so rich! I spent 8 hours playing Chocolatier (shhh don't tell my boss). But there was nothing else to do that night... I made sure that I've finished all the reports that I need to do and I wasn't like not monitoring our dialers. In fact I did, and there was a supervisor who's really annoying he kept on calling for every 5 minutes. So annoying, specially when I'm playing Chocolatier! Hahaha.

Anyway, that's how my weekend was. My body was dead tired but my spirit is glowing. And I went to bed this morning with a huge smile on my face.

Wednesday, July 2, 2008

Answered Prayers

It's already the 1st of July! We're halfway to 2009, how quickly time flies. The past week I got a forwarded SMS from a very close friend that says "It's funny how day by day nothing changes, but when you look back everything is different." This is so true. I'm talking about personal experience here people. It seemed to me that I lived and based my life in a time table. Work and home and a little shopping and going out on the side. I used to complain on the way I live my life because it seemed to me that everything is just the same. Same old boring life. But looking back now, I realized that even I thought I lived the same day everyday, everything is so different now. Am I making any sense to you? I hope so, because knowing myself I tend to blab about anything that comes to my head then I tend to deviate from what I just blabbed about.

Anyway I never thought that I'd come this far before I'll figure what I would really want to be doing (not for the rest of my life), let's say before my retirement years. I wouldn't say that I want to be doing this for the rest of my life because who wouldn't want to enjoy spending all day at the beach or in a farm just doing anything you feel like doing? Raise your feet! Ok, snap back to what I'm talking about. I had all the signs all along, I just didn't recognize it, I was busy looking for something that's not there and I bet it won't be there for a long time. I figured this when I was on my way home yesterday. I thought about my high school friends and I recalled our graduation day and the class prophecy that we had. When we were asked what we wanted to be years after graduation I placed there that I would be hosting CNN style. See? It was in me all along! And I recall that I begged my dad (grandfather) to let me take up Broadcast Journalism in college. And now I wonder no more why I'm drawn to news personalities and why I am such a news junkie. I've been fervently praying to god to help me find my way, and alas yesterday it dawned on me. After realizing this, the only thing that I need to figure out is how will I make it come true.

Maybe I'll practice "The Secret" way of doing things, perhaps... do other than that. Or just wait till everything falls right into their proper places. Let's wait and see.

Saturday, June 21, 2008

The Waiting Game

It's hard to wait for something to happen specially when the chance for it to come true is very measly. I just wish I know when to stop waiting, and start to accept that it may never happen.


I really think there should be a deadline in waiting or just an alarm/warning to tell you not to wait for something anymore when it's way far from happening.


But knowing myself, I rarely give up on anything. So, even if that means waiting forever... I'll do it. Specially when I know it'll be worth all the waiting. And I know deep in me that god will make a way when there seems to be no way. I trust him.

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

The Fringe Benefits of Failure, and the Importance of Imagination

J.K. Rowling, author of the best-selling Harry Potter book series, delivers her Commencement Address, “The Fringe Benefits of Failure, and the Importance of Imagination,” at the Annual Meeting of the Harvard Alumni Association.

Text as prepared follows.
Copyright of JK Rowling, June 2008

President Faust, members of the Harvard Corporation and the Board of Overseers, members of the faculty, proud parents, and, above all, graduates.

The first thing I would like to say is ‘thank you.’ Not only has Harvard given me an extraordinary honour, but the weeks of fear and nausea I’ve experienced at the thought of giving this commencement address have made me lose weight. A win-win situation! Now all I have to do is take deep breaths, squint at the red banners and fool myself into believing I am at the world’s best-educated Harry Potter convention.

Delivering a commencement address is a great responsibility; or so I thought until I cast my mind back to my own graduation. The commencement speaker that day was the distinguished British philosopher Baroness Mary Warnock. Reflecting on her speech has helped me enormously in writing this one, because it turns out that I can’t remember a single word she said. This liberating discovery enables me to proceed without any fear that I might inadvertently influence you to abandon promising careers in business, law or politics for the giddy delights of becoming a gay wizard.

You see? If all you remember in years to come is the ‘gay wizard’ joke, I’ve still come out ahead of Baroness Mary Warnock. Achievable goals: the first step towards personal improvement.

Actually, I have wracked my mind and heart for what I ought to say to you today. I have asked myself what I wish I had known at my own graduation, and what important lessons I have learned in the 21 years that has expired between that day and this.

I have come up with two answers. On this wonderful day when we are gathered together to celebrate your academic success, I have decided to talk to you about the benefits of failure. And as you stand on the threshold of what is sometimes called ‘real life’, I want to extol the crucial importance of imagination.

These might seem quixotic or paradoxical choices, but please bear with me.

Looking back at the 21-year-old that I was at graduation, is a slightly uncomfortable experience for the 42-year-old that she has become. Half my lifetime ago, I was striking an uneasy balance between the ambition I had for myself, and what those closest to me expected of me.

I was convinced that the only thing I wanted to do, ever, was to write novels. However, my parents, both of whom came from impoverished backgrounds and neither of whom had been to college, took the view that my overactive imagination was an amusing personal quirk that could never pay a mortgage, or secure a pension.

They had hoped that I would take a vocational degree; I wanted to study English Literature. A compromise was reached that in retrospect satisfied nobody, and I went up to study Modern Languages. Hardly had my parents’ car rounded the corner at the end of the road than I ditched German and scuttled off down the Classics corridor.

I cannot remember telling my parents that I was studying Classics; they might well have found out for the first time on graduation day. Of all subjects on this planet, I think they would have been hard put to name one less useful than Greek mythology when it came to securing the keys to an executive bathroom.

I would like to make it clear, in parenthesis, that I do not blame my parents for their point of view. There is an expiry date on blaming your parents for steering you in the wrong direction; the moment you are old enough to take the wheel, responsibility lies with you. What is more, I cannot criticise my parents for hoping that I would never experience poverty. They had been poor themselves, and I have since been poor, and I quite agree with them that it is not an ennobling experience. Poverty entails fear, and stress, and sometimes depression; it means a thousand petty humiliations and hardships. Climbing out of poverty by your own efforts, that is indeed something on which to pride yourself, but poverty itself is romanticised only by fools.

What I feared most for myself at your age was not poverty, but failure.

At your age, in spite of a distinct lack of motivation at university, where I had spent far too long in the coffee bar writing stories, and far too little time at lectures, I had a knack for passing examinations, and that, for years, had been the measure of success in my life and that of my peers.

I am not dull enough to suppose that because you are young, gifted and well-educated, you have never known hardship or heartbreak. Talent and intelligence never yet inoculated anyone against the caprice of the Fates, and I do not for a moment suppose that everyone here has enjoyed an existence of unruffled privilege and contentment.

However, the fact that you are graduating from Harvard suggests that you are not very well-acquainted with failure. You might be driven by a fear of failure quite as much as a desire for success. Indeed, your conception of failure might not be too far from the average person’s idea of success, so high have you already flown academically.

Ultimately, we all have to decide for ourselves what constitutes failure, but the world is quite eager to give you a set of criteria if you let it. So I think it fair to say that by any conventional measure, a mere seven years after my graduation day, I had failed on an epic scale. An exceptionally short-lived marriage had imploded, and I was jobless, a lone parent, and as poor as it is possible to be in modern Britain, without being homeless. The fears my parents had had for me, and that I had had for myself, had both come to pass, and by every usual standard, I was the biggest failure I knew.

Now, I am not going to stand here and tell you that failure is fun. That period of my life was a dark one, and I had no idea that there was going to be what the press has since represented as a kind of fairy tale resolution. I had no idea how far the tunnel extended, and for a long time, any light at the end of it was a hope rather than a reality.

So why do I talk about the benefits of failure? Simply because failure meant a stripping away of the inessential. I stopped pretending to myself that I was anything other than what I was, and began to direct all my energy into finishing the only work that mattered to me. Had I really succeeded at anything else, I might never have found the determination to succeed in the one arena I believed I truly belonged. I was set free, because my greatest fear had already been realised, and I was still alive, and I still had a daughter whom I adored, and I had an old typewriter and a big idea. And so rock bottom became the solid foundation on which I rebuilt my life.

You might never fail on the scale I did, but some failure in life is inevitable. It is impossible to live without failing at something, unless you live so cautiously that you might as well not have lived at all - in which case, you fail by default.

Failure gave me an inner security that I had never attained by passing examinations. Failure taught me things about myself that I could have learned no other way. I discovered that I had a strong will, and more discipline than I had suspected; I also found out that I had friends whose value was truly above rubies.

The knowledge that you have emerged wiser and stronger from setbacks means that you are, ever after, secure in your ability to survive. You will never truly know yourself, or the strength of your relationships, until both have been tested by adversity. Such knowledge is a true gift, for all that it is painfully won, and it has been worth more to me than any qualification I ever earned.

Given a time machine or a Time Turner, I would tell my 21-year-old self that personal happiness lies in knowing that life is not a check-list of acquisition or achievement. Your qualifications, your CV, are not your life, though you will meet many people of my age and older who confuse the two. Life is difficult, and complicated, and beyond anyone’s total control, and the humility to know that will enable you to survive its vicissitudes.

You might think that I chose my second theme, the importance of imagination, because of the part it played in rebuilding my life, but that is not wholly so. Though I will defend the value of bedtime stories to my last gasp, I have learned to value imagination in a much broader sense. Imagination is not only the uniquely human capacity to envision that which is not, and therefore the fount of all invention and innovation. In its arguably most transformative and revelatory capacity, it is the power that enables us to empathise with humans whose experiences we have never shared.

One of the greatest formative experiences of my life preceded Harry Potter, though it informed much of what I subsequently wrote in those books. This revelation came in the form of one of my earliest day jobs. Though I was sloping off to write stories during my lunch hours, I paid the rent in my early 20s by working in the research department at Amnesty International’s headquarters in London.

There in my little office I read hastily scribbled letters smuggled out of totalitarian regimes by men and women who were risking imprisonment to inform the outside world of what was happening to them. I saw photographs of those who had disappeared without trace, sent to Amnesty by their desperate families and friends. I read the testimony of torture victims and saw pictures of their injuries. I opened handwritten, eye-witness accounts of summary trials and executions, of kidnappings and rapes.

Many of my co-workers were ex-political prisoners, people who had been displaced from their homes, or fled into exile, because they had the temerity to think independently of their government. Visitors to our office included those who had come to give information, or to try and find out what had happened to those they had been forced to leave behind.

I shall never forget the African torture victim, a young man no older than I was at the time, who had become mentally ill after all he had endured in his homeland. He trembled uncontrollably as he spoke into a video camera about the brutality inflicted upon him. He was a foot taller than I was, and seemed as fragile as a child. I was given the job of escorting him to the Underground Station afterwards, and this man whose life had been shattered by cruelty took my hand with exquisite courtesy, and wished me future happiness.

And as long as I live I shall remember walking along an empty corridor and suddenly hearing, from behind a closed door, a scream of pain and horror such as I have never heard since. The door opened, and the researcher poked out her head and told me to run and make a hot drink for the young man sitting with her. She had just given him the news that in retaliation for his own outspokenness against his country’s regime, his mother had been seized and executed.

Every day of my working week in my early 20s I was reminded how incredibly fortunate I was, to live in a country with a democratically elected government, where legal representation and a public trial were the rights of everyone.

Every day, I saw more evidence about the evils humankind will inflict on their fellow humans, to gain or maintain power. I began to have nightmares, literal nightmares, about some of the things I saw, heard and read.

And yet I also learned more about human goodness at Amnesty International than I had ever known before.

Amnesty mobilises thousands of people who have never been tortured or imprisoned for their beliefs to act on behalf of those who have. The power of human empathy, leading to collective action, saves lives, and frees prisoners. Ordinary people, whose personal well-being and security are assured, join together in huge numbers to save people they do not know, and will never meet. My small participation in that process was one of the most humbling and inspiring experiences of my life.

Unlike any other creature on this planet, humans can learn and understand, without having experienced. They can think themselves into other people’s minds, imagine themselves into other people’s places.

Of course, this is a power, like my brand of fictional magic, that is morally neutral. One might use such an ability to manipulate, or control, just as much as to understand or sympathize.

And many prefer not to exercise their imaginations at all. They choose to remain comfortably within the bounds of their own experience, never troubling to wonder how it would feel to have been born other than they are. They can refuse to hear screams or to peer inside cages; they can close their minds and hearts to any suffering that does not touch them personally; they can refuse to know.

I might be tempted to envy people who can live that way, except that I do not think they have any fewer nightmares than I do. Choosing to live in narrow spaces can lead to a form of mental agoraphobia, and that brings its own terrors. I think the willfully unimaginative see more monsters. They are often more afraid.

What is more, those who choose not to empathize may enable real monsters. For without ever committing an act of outright evil ourselves, we collude with it, through our own apathy.

One of the many things I learned at the end of that Classics corridor down which I ventured at the age of 18, in search of something I could not then define, was this, written by the Greek author Plutarch: What we achieve inwardly will change outer reality.

That is an astonishing statement and yet proven a thousand times every day of our lives. It expresses, in part, our inescapable connection with the outside world, the fact that we touch other people’s lives simply by existing.

But how much more are you, Harvard graduates of 2008, likely to touch other people’s lives? Your intelligence, your capacity for hard work, the education you have earned and received, give you unique status, and unique responsibilities. Even your nationality sets you apart. The great majority of you belong to the world’s only remaining superpower. The way you vote, the way you live, the way you protest, the pressure you bring to bear on your government, has an impact way beyond your borders. That is your privilege, and your burden.

If you choose to use your status and influence to raise your voice on behalf of those who have no voice; if you choose to identify not only with the powerful, but with the powerless; if you retain the ability to imagine yourself into the lives of those who do not have your advantages, then it will not only be your proud families who celebrate your existence, but thousands and millions of people whose reality you have helped transform for the better. We do not need magic to change the world, we carry all the power we need inside ourselves already: we have the power to imagine better.

I am nearly finished. I have one last hope for you, which is something that I already had at 21. The friends with whom I sat on graduation day have been my friends for life. They are my children’s godparents, the people to whom I’ve been able to turn in times of trouble, friends who have been kind enough not to sue me when I’ve used their names for Death Eaters. At our graduation we were bound by enormous affection, by our shared experience of a time that could never come again, and, of course, by the knowledge that we held certain photographic evidence that would be exceptionally valuable if any of us ran for Prime Minister.

So today, I can wish you nothing better than similar friendships. And tomorrow, I hope that even if you remember not a single word of mine, you remember those of Seneca, another of those old Romans I met when I fled down the Classics corridor, in retreat from career ladders, in search of ancient wisdom:
As is a tale, so is life: not how long it is, but how good it is, is what matters.
I wish you all very good lives.
Thank you very much.

Source: harvard magazine

Sunday, May 18, 2008

Book Blabbing


I'm at work right now but I don't feel like I'm at work at all. Since my shift started all I did was just surf the net, listen to music, IM and occasionally search for videos on the web. I just wish everyday is Saturday or Sunday at work. The workplace is just so peaceful during these days unlike the market-like environment during the weekdays. Weekdays can go pretty crazy here, like a mad house! But I just don't like to spend the entire night staring at my monitor. It's soo boring, I would like to have little challenges on the side. Like some problems that I need to attend to. But on second thought.. Nah! I'd rather be here doing nothing than cramming my butt trying to be some superhero who'll save the day from further system downtime.

Anyway for the lack of something to do, I did read some chick lits that I have downloaded before. It's no ordinary chick lits, it's Meg Cabot's the author of Princess Diaries, which the movie almost all girls happen to love. For the record I only read the (chick lits) works of Sophie Kinsella and now Meg Cabot. I have read all books of Sophie, it started with the Confessions of a Shopaholic because I was kind of curious about this book and how almost all girls talk about this for hours. And I kinda admit that I've read that book because I was kind of ... just a little I think, of a shopaholic myself. After reading the 'confessions' of Becky Bloomwood, I kinda got hooked up and I ended up reading all Sophie's books.

Tonight, I've finished reading two of Meg Cabot's books, How To Be Popular and Queen of Babble. I also started reading She Went All The Way but I ditched it, for now, thinking that my shift's about to end and I won't be able to finish it today. Maybe tonight. I had fun reading How To Be Popular, you can score a tip or two! But I just think that it was a teenybopper one. Basing on the fact that the leads were 16 year olds. I had a great time reading Queen of Blabble. I love the fashion freak Lizzie Nichols and the uber hot Jean-Luc. The plot is similar to Sophie's Can You Keep a Secret but Jean-Luc is hotter and the setting/scenery is superb. A French chateau in the countryside with the vineyard, a real windmill and the Dordogne river! Lizzie and I share the same passion which is fashion and her love for vintage clothes. Oh my! I am already morphing into a Queen of Babble! I need to stop this nonsense blabbing. I suggest you read the book so that you'll know what I'm blabbing about. :)

I am so not ashame that I've read those books. I love Paulo Coelho, Amy Tan, Sydney Sheldon, Mitch Albom and a few more but Meg and Sophie's humor is incomparable. They are both hilarious! And reading a chick lit is like my own diversion, it's like watching a funny movie after a stressful day to relax yourself and forget about anything that matters even for a while.

How about you? Have you read any chick lit? And what book was it?

Thursday, May 15, 2008

Heeby Jeebies

I received more than 5 messages yesterday about the earthquake 'forecast'. When in fact nobody or nothing can predict an upcoming earthquake. It's just so annoying, because earthquakes gives me the heeby jeebies and those messages reminds me of the time back in the province when we experienced an earthquake and I was like crying and screaming like crazy. I don't know but earthquake is my biggest fear... my hydrophobia, acrophobia and claustrophobia are just ants compared to my elephant fear of earthquakes. I don't really know why I freak out when I hear about earthquakes maybe it's because of something I watched from a movie when I was little. In that movie I saw the earth cracked open and all/most of the things living or not living were eaten alive (in living things' case). And also it's because of the stories my grandma told me about the earthquake in some parts of the country particularly the HYATT hotel in Baguio thingy.


It really gives me the goosebumps just remembering what I was told that took place there. And about those people who ate tissue papers and other non-edible stuff just to survive because they were trapped down low. God knows where and when will they be able to get rescued. OK, enough of this earthquake stories, I'm only rubbing more salt to the wound... Whatever. I just need to stop this blabbing.


The only thing that made me happy about this earthquake messages spreading around is that the least person I thought who would send me a message did sent me one! Even if it was the earthquake warning it felt so good knowing that he still cares. And it was my dad. I don't know but my earthquake fear yesterday was eased up by the message that I got from him. Thanks papa.


Anyway, got to rush. I'm meeting my mom and brother at the mall. I don't care if I won't be able to sleep today. I have all night to sleep tonight coz I'm off from work! Have a happy weekend to me! :)

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

For Real.

Today I got the biggest surprise ever! And I was really surprised, I didn't see it coming. The day started just like any other day. I came home from work, did an hour of exercise while having my dose of morning news, then went to sleep. At past noon, my mom asked me to come with her to the bank, I was hesitant because I didn't get enough sleep yet. But I know my mom and my cousin they just won't let me be, they'll drag me if they have to. So I gave in. In return we'll have dinner at the mall.

After my mom went to the bank, we went around the mall for a while. Suddenly, my phone rang and it was my brother calling! I answered the phone, then my brother was asking if we were at home. I told him that we're at the mall because we went to BDO which happens to be inside the mall, then we'll buy some groceries and have dinner there. He was like "you should come home now, I'm on the cab from the airport. I won't be able to enter the house if you wouldn't be home." After we hung up, we were arguing if it's for real, if my brother is not playing games with us.

Though we're not sure, we didn't have our dinner at the mall instead we just bought the groceries and headed home. When we almost reached our gate, my brother called again and he was there! Riding on the airport taxi! He's here! For real! We were really surprised, coz we only talked a day ago and he never mentioned anything about coming home.

We found out that he'll be moving to Helsinki, Finland. He'll be working in another hotel there. And he just came home because he needs to leave to Helsinki from his country of origin. We were so happy that he's here, aside from the fact that he gave me a Coco Mademoiselle by Chanel perfume as a gift and a purse from the same label! Too bad he wasn't able to hand carry my bag because it wasn't delivered yet, but sure thing it'll be here soon. :)

I am just so happy that he's here, even for a while! Thanks kuya for the surprise! Love you!

Monday, May 12, 2008

B is for Balenciaga Brief Bag

If you noticed in my previous post I didn't drool over any bag it's because I am already fantasizing over a bag from Balenciaga from their F/W2007 collection. It's the Giant brief bag. I don't care what color will I get as long as I can have that bag! I just so loveeeet! The bag is spacious (it's giant, right?) and I just love the style/design. It's not like any of the Balenciaga bags I've seen before.

I've asked my brother for it as a post birthday gift and hopefully he'll be able to buy one for me and send it as soon as he can. Not so demanding huh!

I am so jealous because he sent me pictures of him with a LV Keepall 50, a large Gucci toiletry case (A GUCCI FOR A TOILETRY CASE? £150? WHAT THE?) a pair of H&M shoes and Prada shades! I am so green-eyed now! How did he get all those stuff? He was there for less than a couple of months. Kuya do you have a fairy godmother there? Can you ask her to visit me even for a day? I am so jealous that I even asked him to send me all the paper bags that came with it!

Here's what the Balenciaga Giant brief bag looks like:


You'll find the details of the bag on the Balenciaga website. It's the 10th bag/item. Isn't it pretty?

Lucky Mom's Day!

This afternoon I, my mom, my cousin Don, and a couple of friends (distant relatives) went to the Sto, Niño chapel in Greenbelt to hear mass. When we got there the mass has already started. Plus it was raining so hard, so there's no way for us to be somewhere near the chapel without getting wet. So we just decided to loiter around the area and just visit the chapel after the mass. We went around the shops in Greenbelt 3 that we (my mom, kuya Don and I) like the most. We went to Marc Jacobs, LV, Burberry and Gucci's. Mom found a really nice bag in LV but had second thoughts in getting it 'cos she found a bag exactly like it in F when we went there a few days ago. I on the other hand gawked over a scarf in Burberry and LV. I just can't help myself, the scarves are so gorgeous. And since summer is almost over, or should I say it is over but unofficially (since it's still May). Whatevs! I feel like the scarves are perfect for the rainy season coz it's like cold, during this season, right?! Say that you agree with me, please?

Anyway, after loitering around we had dinner around the area. It was supposedly a Mother's day celebration, but my mom ended up paying for our dinner! Hahaha. It's because I forgot my wallet, and all my cash, credit cards and ATM cards are there. So there, I just told my mom to pay for our dinner and I'll just pay her back when I get home tomorrow after working tonight. We had a great time while having dinner. My cousin Don and Sheila goofed around that let everyone of us guffaw. My kuya Don and Sheila did like a role playing. Kuya Don is a first time tourist in the Philippines and Sheila is like befriending her and they were really acting it out! You should have seen them, they're really good at it and add the fact that they're super hilarious!

Almost all people who heard them at the resto laughed really hard! I was like in the middle of being ashamed at the same time enjoying what my cousins are doing.

I didn't want to be a party pooper, but I left just when the real party started because I got work at 8 o'clock and I can't afford to be absent since I already slacked off from work Saturday night.

I'm here at work but I don't feel like I'm working now. All I did so far is just surf the net, listen to music, IM and blog! There are some few work-related stuff that I did but out of the almost 5 hours that I've been here.. I worked for less than half an hour I think. Lucky me! :)

It wouldn't be long till I get off from work, but I got a teeny weeny problem. What will I put in my shift report? I can't like place surf the net, read photoshop tutorials, listen to music, IM and update my blog. Ahhh this is the price I have to pay for this! Anyway, I'm thankful for everything.

How about you how did you celebrate Mother's day?

Sunday, May 11, 2008

For One More Day with Vanessa Carlton

This post is so late, but you know me 'better late than later'! Anyway, my mom and I went to meet a distant cousin at the EDSA Shangrila, after having lunch there and a little shopping we went to Trinoma to watch Vanessa Carlton's mini concert. When we got there I went straight to the concierge to claim my pass but the lady there told me that I was late! They already gave away all the pass! I almost freaked out because I've been waiting for this, there's got to be a way... Think. Think. Kristina.

We went to the 4th level and luckily I saw a cordoned area there, and it was the area of the live feed broadcast of Vanessa Carlton from cinema 7. I had no other choice, so I fell in line. And it was the closest that I could get to Vanessa Carlton. While I was watching the concert on the screen, my mom and cousin went for a little shopping again. Can you imagine I traded shopping for Vanessa?! That's how much I like her. The mini concierto was good, she sang my favorite songs and she also said some things about the songs she wrote/co-wrote. And she also said that she strongly believes that she has a little of our 'blood', as she looks like everyone here in the country. After the mini concert I met with my mom and we had dinner. We got home past midnight.

And you think I capped of the night just like that? No. I spent the whole night fixing my laptop, because when my mom was using it earlier she accidentally clicked on some fraud ad and boom! I got the malwarrior (malware)! I so hate those people sending malwares and will give you a fixed that they also made that costs a lot! I so hate them. I tried all the suggested fix I can find on the web but to no avail. The virus is so persistent and the worst thing is it used up all my free space on the hard drive. I know I had like more than 50g but it only left me with 45mb! Geez! Good thing before 6AM I was able to fix it by deleting it from the registry, and by deleting the account I created for anyone who uses my laptop.

Anyway, I finally got to read Mitch Albom's For One More Day. It took me three hours to finish the whole book. I love Mitch Albom! From Tuesdays with Morrie to 5 People You Meet in Heaven and this book For One More Day. This book is about a man who's given one more day with the person that really loved and cared for him, his mom.

I was in tears when I read the parts where Chick list the times when her mom stood up for her, and the times she didn't stand up for her. I can really relate to that. The book really made me realize some things about my relationship with my mom.

I read the book in a really perfect timing, since it's Mother's Day today.

Happy Mother's Day mom and to all the moms in the world.

Sunday, May 4, 2008

Greek Nostalgia


This afternoon I got an SMS from a friend that Pinoy Meets World will feature Santorini and some of Greece's famous/gorgeous places (Crete and Athens). I don’t usually watch the show but because they’re featuring my most favorite place on the planet, I can not afford to miss it for the world. I can’t get enough of Santorini! It is a place where you can’t say that you’ve seen enough after a few visits, because you will always discover something new each time you set foot on the place.

Miriam Quiambao told the viewers the brief history and culture of the people living on the island. And how some people think that somewhere in or near the caldera was the lost city of Atlantis. Which I also happen to eventually believed, as all of the Greeks I know strongly believed and convinced me about the idea. Though I’m not in the position to say what is true and what’s not because I’m no archaeologist but the “evidences” are strong (in mine and their opinions). And just thinking about being somewhere near Atlantis is a great feeling. And you’ll be like “Man, I am floating above the lost city! Beat that man!”. Hahaha!

Anyway, they showed the viewers the abodes of the Greeks in Santorini. The white houses that I so love, and the donkeys that they use as their means of transportation. Miriam also brought the viewers to the caldera.
The view from the caldera is very breathtaking as usual. And she also visited some place around the islands capital Fira. She along with her Greek friend went to buy some ingredients for Tomatokeftedes, the tomato meatball without the meat. Opa! Opa! The tomatoes from the island is one of a kind, its because of the volcanic soil where it’s planted. I was hoping that Miriam would also visit the dock where Lena and Costas often meet. (Just want to squeeze this in, as the Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants 2 will be hitting the theaters soon)

She also visited Crete, I always love to visit the place… One day I’ll set foot on that island. The island seems great and rich with history and culture just like any other places in Greece. And lastly, Miriam took us, the viewers to Greece’s capital, Athens. I love Athens too! It’s a city that combines history and modernization. I so envy Miriam for she was able to visit Parthenon and the whole Acropolis! I am so green-eyed now! I promise I’ll get to Parthenon before it turns to dust, as its ruins now are so ‘ruined’.

I haven't saved enough, so for now I'll just satisfy my Greek craving by watching the Sisterhood movie. I just hope the movie will hit Philippine theaters soon.
Thanks Kitty for the SMS. :)

My Newest Buddy

I've been wanting to have a portable radio, not MP3 player or a FM radio but an AM radio! I've been telling you guys that I'm a huge news junkie, so I wanted to have a portable radio so that I can listen to the news anytime that I want. I could have bought one, but since last month's my birth month I asked my mom to get me one as a birthday present ( as if her flying here from Zamboanga for my birthday isn't already a present). Just yesterday we scouted the different shops in Shangrila Mall, EDSA Central and even Star Mall just to find the perfect radio. And at long last I found my newest buddy! It's a sleek and teeny weeny radio but it does a really BIG favor for me. It delivers the world to my hands (in this case, ears i think?!). And so I am really joyous! As in really! When we got home last night, I immediately used my little buddy, Forget about the laptop and TV. Scoot my reliable gadgets.. and give way to my little radio named Rady, as in Tom Brady minus the B! Yeah, yeah, yeah. I get it, I know I've earned some corny points for this, but the heck?! I am just so proud of Rady my buddy.

The radio is kind of my preparation for the big step, as in pretty BIG step that I'm planning to take.

Anyway, I watched XXX tonight with ate Pinky replacing Karen Davila. :) She's really great. Just when I thought I am ate Pinky's number 1 fan, I bumped on a Pinky Webb blog. Wow! She have now a bigger fan base! Kudos to you ate! :))

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Heroes and Thieves

Since I first saw the billboard of Vanessa Carlton along C5 having mall shows at the Ayala malls, I've been listening to her songs from her latest album Heroes and Thieves (2007) every chance I had. At home, at work, while commuting to and from work and I even play it to sleep. I like her album, and I mean the entire album! I love the tracks. And it made me wished I've written some of the songs from that album. I don't know but I think Vanessa Carlton and I are the same person, OR MAYBE she's just like anyone of us who'd loved, been hurt and moved on with life. (I'll try to believe more on the latter reason) It's so hard to choose a favorite from that album because every song is different from the other (in a good way). And the rhythm? I looooveeeeet! Keyboard + string instruments = L♥O♥V♥E (for me)! You all know I'm a sucker of songs with keyboards on the background.. Boston (Augustana), Come On (Ben Jelen), Thousand Miles and the entire Heroes and Thieves album.

Thank you Vanessa for your wonderful record album! For sure, I'll be at one of your mall tours here in our country. I know you might be wondering why I'm into Vanessa Carlton, when I'm not into Pop music. It's just that she's a real artist with real talents, unlike the other so called 'artists'.

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

Phenomenal Woman by Maya Angelou

Pretty women wonder where my secret lies.
I'm not cute or built to suit a fashion model's size
But when I start to tell them,
They think I'm telling lies.
I say,
It's in the reach of my arms
The span of my hips,
The stride of my step,
The curl of my lips.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

I walk into a room
Just as cool as you please,
And to a man,
The fellows stand or
Fall down on their knees.
Then they swarm around me,
A hive of honey bees.
I say,
It's the fire in my eyes,
And the flash of my teeth,
The swing in my waist,
And the joy in my feet.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

Men themselves have wondered
What they see in me.
They try so much
But they can't touch
My inner mystery.
When I try to show them
They say they still can't see.
I say,
It's in the arch of my back,
The sun of my smile,
The ride of my breasts,
The grace of my style.
I'm a woman

Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

Now you understand
Just why my head's not bowed.
I don't shout or jump about
Or have to talk real loud.
When you see me passing
It ought to make you proud.
I say,
It's in the click of my heels,
The bend of my hair,
the palm of my hand,
The need of my care,
'Cause I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

Thursday, April 17, 2008

Happy Birthday to Me

Today is April 17, a day before the big 23rd! I'm posting this entry because I may not be able to go online for a few days. I have mix emotions for my upcoming birthday. I am happy because my mom's here, and it'll be the first time that we'll be celebrating my birthday together after 3 years and I'm also quite sad because it's also the first time in 3 years that my brother won't be here with me on my birthday. It's really weird because I have this half of me that's so happy, and other half that isn't.

Like I've said it's just a day before my birthday but I have no plans yet on how I'm going to celebrate it, but most likely I would celebrate it with my mom, my cousin Don and few close friends on the 18th. I would have a separate celebration though for my officemates and my closest buddies from work some time after my birthday.

I really don't have a wish list, because if I do make one and I won't get the things that I've wished for I'll just end up frustrated. So, I don't really wish for anything on my birthday except for good health for me, and my family. Oh, I have a little wish too... I'm wishing that my father would greet me on my birthday, an SMS would do. :)

Anyway, have a great weekend everyone! And I'll see you when I see you. Ciao. :)

Monday, April 7, 2008

The Meth Project

I tumbled upon the Meth Project website and I am giving my full support on their program. So I am posting this entry.

The Meth Project is a large-scale prevention program aimed at reducing first-time Meth use through public service messaging, public policy, and community outreach. Central to the program is a research-based marketing campaign that graphically communicates the risks of Meth use.

Here are the ads of the Meth Project that really struck me. So sad, but really TRUE.






If you want to know more about this project you can visit their site here.

Sunday, April 6, 2008

Creating an Exciting Life


After a couple of weeks, I'm back to blogging! To tell you the truth, these past 2 weeks I wasn't living my life, it seemed like I was living other person's life. I was being carefree and careless at the same time. I don't know what got into me, I really don't want to dig deeper but all I know I was enjoying every second of it. It also helped me coped with the truth that my brother and I lead different lives now, on different time zones. I am happy for him though, I support his decision of leaving the country and the life that he had always known.

And being away from my mom and now my brother gave a me different perspective in life. And from now on I have a new mantra "I will. Today". I know you've heard that line from the newest Petron ad, but it really helps. Also as I was visiting hemmy.net (one of the sites that I frequently visit), I saw on one of it's daily links' entry about a blog called the positivity blog. The blog is so helpful to me, and the blog reflects my "I will. Today" mantra. And they're latest post is about 7 tips on how to create an exciting life. And I really find it helpful. The 7 tips are as follows:
  1. Whatever you believe, you are right. “He can who thinks he can, and he can’t who thinks he can’t. This is an inexorable, indisputable law.”
  2. Push your limits. “I am always doing that which I cannot do, in order that I may learn how to do it.”
  3. Don’t wait for inspiration or the right moment. “Inspiration exists, but it has to find us working.”
  4. Act. “Only put off until tomorrow what you are willing to die having left undone.” “Action is the foundational key to all success.”
  5. Ask the right questions. “Others have seen what is and asked why. I have seen what could be and asked why not.”
  6. See the hidden beauty by not judging. “If only we could pull out our brain and use only our eyes.”
  7. It’s not too late. “Youth has no age.”
And if you want the whole write-up about these 7 tips you should visit the entry in the positivity blog.

I am almost turning a year older, so I would like to apply these to start anew and who wouldn't want to create an exciting life, raise your feet!